-Prologue: The Reason behind-

*knock knock*

a sound of a door knock filled the art workshop

"Who is it..?" an old man said while working on some sculpture made by one of his students, he was an Art professor in Seoul University

"..Excuse me sir, it's Lee Taemin, Can I come in?"

“oh yes.. come in Taemin”

A young man entered the room, he had a fragile body, but very graceful, wearing a baggy oversized t-shirt with normal skinny jeans, his hair was quite long, reaching the tip of his shoulders, straight and silky, it had a light brown color to it, he walked across the workshop and stood in front of his professor and said

“Sorry to interrupt your work Prof.Park “

“Oh don’t worry, I was just doing the last touches, c’mmere sit down”

The young man grabbed a chair and sat, he looked up straight to his Professor’s face, looking rather tuned out

“So .. what can I help you with? If it’s about the Gallery we’re doing, don’t worry all your works are hung up and ready, nothing to worry about” said the Professor smiling at the young man, thinking he’d release the worried-like expressions from his student

“Actually sir.. I’m here to tell you about something important” the worried expressions appeared clearer on the young man face this time, making the old man look more worried and curious

“Well.. what is it?”

“I’m dropping out of college.”

-Taemin’s OPV-

 Prof.Park’s expression was exactly the same thing I’ve imagined, he looked shocked.

I left the room as quickly as I can, he asked me so many questions, most important one was.. “why?”

Well I told him I had family problems back in my hometown, grandma was sick, and the farm was in crisis, I should go and look after her and the farm, of course that was just a lie, my grandma was already dead, and the farm was taken by my uncle from my father’s side, of course he didn’t take good care of it, but at least it’s in the hands of someone I know, but my Professor wouldn’t know that, he doesn’t know anything about my personal life, he’s a college professor,  his students’ personal lives are nothing of his business, so I took advantage of that..

I felt like a jerk though, I trusted him and I admired him a lot, but there was nothing I could do about it, I was his favorite student, heck I loved his class, but I don’t think I could manage doing anything right now..

I hate him, he’s the reason behind everything, and I’m weak, yes I admit it, I’m a weakling, and I can do anything about it, my father had told me before that I lacked courage, and I took the emotional weak heart trait after my mom, I never thought I’d admit that, but he was right, my emotions took over my life, and ruined it..

You see.. I’ve just lost the love of my life, 5 years of staying together, since Junior High until now, my first year of college, first year and I’m dropping out already huh? Yeah I think that’s weird too..

Jun Hyung was everything to me, I loved him and he loved me back, I admit I had a crush on him first, and I hit on him too, made some hints to make him realize that I loved him, but he showed no signs, until one day he kissed me on that rainy day, he told me “Taemin.. I love you..” I thought my heart was gonna break into pieces, First love is beautiful but also very hurtful..

We stayed years in highschool together, I did stuff with him I never thought I’d do, I loved him, I could say it billion times, but I really loved him, and the fact that I still do hurts my heart too much.

The idea of him leaving me, and ending this relationship that lasted years, makes me feel like a heartbroken wife, I laugh at this thought, because I’m desperate and pathetic, he told me let’s go to Seoul University and study together, I agreed and left my hometown, leaving my sick grandmother behind, my father was already in prison for using drugs, I was selfish enough to leave everything behind just for him, days later I discovered my grandma died, I regretted a lot but of course the regrets were erased easily just by the thought that I still have someone dear to my heart standing next to me in life…

So why did Jun Hyung end it? Why did he decide that we’re breaking up? Only one person is responsible for that… and I’m leaving all my life behind just to concentrate on this issue..

Yes I’m jealous and obsessed and I’m not afraid to admit it.