"Class end!" Teacher shouted while picking up his stuff

I tidying up my stuff while tae ra and suho waiting

I stopped for a while and look at them "what?"

Tae ra frowned "what do you mean by what?"

"Not you" i said and point suho with my finger

He raised his eyebrows "me? Waiting for you two" he said and smilling

There's a slight silence moment "okay..." i said as i continue packing my stuff, tae ra giggling beside me

We went to my new apartement after that, to my surprise, suho live in the same apartement with me, but he live in the first floor while i live at the second floor.
I spend the day with tae ra like the old day which i missed the most.

I can forget about my problem for a while whenever i was with her

I told her everything, 

about my feelings toward jonghyun, 

about my decision,

about my plan to not meet any of them.

And she laughed

"Are you sure you can do this? Because it's just like my story with key" i frowned

"What's so hard about that?" I tilted my head

"I said that too at first, but after seeing him in the news, i can't hold my own feelings toward him" she said

"it's hard choice min hee" she laid back on the bed

I pouted "but i don't know what should i do" i sighed

"Why'd you have to move anyway? It's more comfortable to be near him right?" She said as she closed her eyes

"I might fall for him even more, and in the end i will only get hurted" i laid beside her

"What do you mean? You don't know if jonghyun like you back or not aren't you?" Tae ra's voice sounds so sleepy

I sniffed "he love se kyung. Everyone know it. It's just like a brocken record. Playing over and over again. But i hope this one will ended up happily" i said. And waiting for tae ra's responses, but she didn't say anyword

I tilt my head to her side, she fell as sleep.

I laughed silently. A sudden memory of jonghyun flashed.

He was awake at that time i'm sure.

Tae ra right. It will be hard

Just a little things he usually do will bring back the memory.
But i've done it before with yoochun

I guess i don't have to worry

I decide to follow tae ra and went sleep

 

- 6 p.m

I'm awake from the sleep and headed to the kitchen to take a glass of water

When i went back to the room, she has already woken up too. I pass the drink to her

"Let's go eat outside. I'm not in my mood to cook today" i said, and tae ra just nodded

"Oh!! Maybe we should ask suho to come with us too!" She smile slyly

"What with that smile?" I immitate her face

She hit my shoulder playfully "i am right or am i right? He likes you, aren't he?" She smiled proudly

"No no, he just interested in me, which can mean he want to be my friends and want to know more about me. That doesn't mean he likes me" i defended 

she smiled "okay i understand"

i wear my cardigan (god how i love cardigan) and leave my apartement locked. we headed to suho's room and knocked the door

he went out "hi" we said in unity

he looks surprised or confused at the moment "oh, hi"

"we want to eat dinner outside, you want to join us?" tae ra speaks first

he nodded "sure, i'm kind of hungry too"

he went in, and not come out the next 5 minuet with a jeans jacket and cap

"allright let's go" we went to the nearest chinese restaurant and eat there. the food were delicious and we had a good chat.

suho paid for all the food, that rich boy. Me and Tae ra were so shocked when we found out that he is a black card holder.

Well, in korea, black card is an unlimited credit card. Now you can wonder how much money he owns.

Although he's rich, suho doesn't act like a spoiled brat. In fact he acted like a gentleman.

He paid for everything because "girls don't pay on a date". That's what he said.

We strolled around and finally decided to sit in the park. Suho bought us warm drinks, how thoughtful.

It seems like we suceeded to create a cozy atmosphere, we chatted comfortably one to others.

Time passed. We went back to the apartement since it's getting late.

Suho walked straight to his room while me and taera decided to stop by a shop to buy some groceries.

When we were paying for the groceries, my phone rung. I checked the caller id, it said dinohead.

"jonghyun.." i mumbled. Tae ra stared at me questioningly, probably wondering why don't i pick up the call.

"wait a min.. i'm going to answer this" i said to her, showing the caller id. She nodded.

"hello?" i answered the call

"where are you?" said to the other line

"i'm grocery shopping. why?" i said, sensing that something is wrong with jjong.

"ok, wait for me" jjong said and clicked the call off.

"wha-.. wait. what the hell is wrong with that guy. Pssh. How can he even go here" i sulked and realized that i my gps, which means that jjong can track my location from the call earlier.

i huffed frustratingly. "here you are" taera poked my back. "YOU DAUGHTER OF A MOTHER" i cursed, shocked by the sudden poke on my back.

she laughed and mumbled "babo". i punched her playfully "you surprised me".

"sorry, i didn't mean to.." taera said, still chuckling "so, what's wrong with that dinohead?" she continued.

i explained to her that jjong is going to pick me up here. taera nodded and asked if she should accompany me.

"no it's ok. you can go home first, i'll make it quick. we have nothing to talk about anyway" i said to her, assuring that the chat'll be quick

"okay.. just call me if he did anything to you. i'll beat his off.. and good luck!" taera answered and give me a light hug before walking away

"mhm.. thanks" i grinned and return the hug

*beep* i looked behind and there sat the dinohead in disguise, motioning me to get into his car.

i entered his car. "what's with yoochun and the headline today?" he said.

"what?" i said. "don't play dumb with me. that was you right?" he looked at me

"that's none of your business. now tell me what do you want to talk about that you went all the way here" i answered quickly, starting to feel uneasy from the tension.

"that's what i want to talk about. didn't i tell you to not let him in?" he said, this time i can notice irritation in his tone

"what? it's my apartment, it's up to me whoever i want to invite or shoo" i looked at him

"but that's dangerous. look at the mess you created. fans gonna search who that girl is" jjong started to raise his voice. "and if they find out that's you..." he sighed and face palmed, trying to cool down.

"so what if they know it was me? i don't even care. anyway, don't you think that what you are doing is dangerous too? you know what fans are capable of right? they'll recognize your car sooner or later, so why don't you just leave this place?" i snapped, feeling angered by his words. he dared to blame me in this situation? well, he was true, but that all won't happen if he didn't scare me.

"..." jjong stayed silent.

"is that all you want to talk about? so i guess nothing left to be talked about here. i'll leave now, thanks for your concern" i said quickly and tried to open the door

but the door won't open. "open the door" i said, still holding the door handle.

"..." jonghyun didn't say anything and stared blankly at the steering wheel

"jjong. I said open the door. please, don't be like this" i looked at him, almost pleading

"put on your seatbelt" jjong suddenly said and start his car engine

"wha-" "just put it on. I'm gonna drive you home" he started to drive

aish, this babo dino. i ended putting on the seatbelt and stayed silent during the ride home

...

"what? no. even if you're begging in front of my room, i will never open it for you. just leave" i said, feeling annoyed by the stubborn dino standing in front of my door.

yes, i know dinos are supposed to be extinct, i don't even know how can one stand in front of my house, so shut up.

he sighed "so go down here and have a talk with me, then i'll leave" he said, more like shouted from outside.

aish, this is getting stressful. what does that dino want. i blowed air onto my bangs, trying to calm down.

i hesitated for a while whether that i should have a chat with him or not, but i know it won't be safe for him. 

"no, jonghyun. stop making a ruckus and go home now" i said this time a little softer. i bit my lower lip out of habit

he sighed "oh come on! it's 2 a.m. no one is around!" he whined

"no. that photo you talked about earlier was taken at 3 in the morning fyi." 

"and now you asked me to leave after i went through a mile without getting what i wanted?!" he started to get childish. geez..

"jonghyun, not everything you wanted is supposed to be granted" i'm getting a little mad

"do you think so? no i don't agree" he run down to the recepcionist i guess, trying to ask for another key. He called me

"what are you doing? no, i will never ever open the door even if you're begging or crying in front of my door" i'm starting to feel panic. what if he really do that

he chuckled "oh yeah? let us see"

"ya! i told you to not come here! who are you to come?! i'm not even your friend anymore, jonghyun. i'm none of your business. just get out from here"

i heard him stop, panting hard "what?!" he shouted

"i'm none of your business. we had no relationship anymore. we are just strangers, you go on with your life and i go with mine" those word just came out from my mouth

"What is this?! of course we had a relationship. you are not a stranger. you are my ex-fiancee" he shouted angrily

"no. i'm not your ex-fiancee! i don't even know you! you're just another one of those celebrities whose face was everywhere in the city. you are just a man whose pic was printed on the magazine that i rarely read. that's our relationship" i feel a hard stab right in my heart, another tears ready too fall.

"what the are you saying?! you can't just erase me like that. The fact that i know you, that we've ever lived together, that you liked me. you can't change that! it's carved in my heart. it's right in my memory. here in my brain. in your mind. even if you deny it, it will still be right there" he shouted even louder. i'm afraid that he will wake someone up

"no. i can change that. you can't even live in my mind. i can kick you out from my mind. from my memories. you aren't even that important in my life" another harsh word just slipped out from my mouth. somehow i'm worried about him. i'm worried that a fan's going to recognize him, i'm worrying about his career more than my safety.

jonghyun seems to be speechless for a moment yet it looks like he was ready to explode anytime "liar. you can't change that. in fact you won't be able to change it since me and the people around you know it. and about your words, i don't even think you're important at all. i'm just here because.." he stopped

i was waiting for his reason

"well, i hope there's a real ghost inside your apartement. you know, yesterday while i sleep, i feel someone's hand touching my back, and when i woke up i saw a scary woman staring at me from the ceilings" urgh, here we go.

i hurriedly hung up. what the hell is wrong with this man? he wanted a revenge?

suddenly my phone beeped. it's a message from him. he sent me a photo. i opened it

it's a scary woman smiling creepily. her dark orbs staring right into my eyes, as if clenching me with fear. in short, he scared me.

he then sent more scary photos

i reply him "jonghyun this is not funny. stop it you "

he sent me a voice note. and it's full of woman's screaming and laughing, and baby's cry. it was so creepy

i feel like a hand my back, i looked back. no one was there, and tae ra was sleeping on her bed. 

i approached tae ra and replied him once more

"jonghyun you mean dinosaur. STOP IT!"

he keeps sending me scary photos. and some of the voice notes. i closed my phone and throw it on the floor. he still sent more. and now i don't have any lighting sources. great.

i don't even dare to pull my blanket. i decide to curl in a ball position and keep on looking around. 

i'm hallucinating, as if hearing some words. i tried to wake tae ra up, but even she looked like a ghost in the darkness.

it was terrifying. damn you shortie dino. wait until the sun rise and i'm gonna choke your head off

after a while he stopped sending me photos. but i don't even dare to move from my safe spot. i decide to sleep. but once i got my eyes closed, i feel something strange looking at me. 

and in the end i couldn't sleep at all.

taera woke up, shocked to have me staring at the ceilings with big dark circle eye bags around my small eyes.

she then laughed at me when i told her about last night. and suddenly my phone beeped again

"enjoyed your night?" it's from that damn short dino

"yes, thankyou. i don't even sleep. happy?" i replied him. i guess he was laughing now.

i went to school with those eyebags, and everyone laughed or at least snorted. some pretended to care and asked, but i replied them harshly. i know they only wanted to tease me. i can't hold myself back from putting an annoyed expression, and unfortunately i had to meet taemin that day.

he was either surprised or holding his laughter, i don't know. i just passed by him without even looking at him.

everyone is a devil when someone got into trouble.

even suho laughed when he saw me earlier before we go to school. damn it kim jonghyun

the whole time i spent at school was wasted by thinking of the way for a revenge.

 

that stupid dino

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yeah sorry for a long break, now we don't have school or anything. haha! 

but yeah i got some jobs, so i can't promise i can update frequently, but i guess i will update more often since when i got stressed because of my job which is drawing, i ended here, typing some stupid ideas that stucked in my mind

anyway thanks for reading, subscribing, comments. i'm really sorry for the long break. i love you all

i really do

 

byee~

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