Dear Taemin, 




For some reason, this situation is very frustrating because I know how you feel and respect your decision. On the other hand, I really want to show you all my love, even if you'll never feel the same way about me. Sadly, until today you won't let me.  Every time I would try, you would only smile at me in a way that I felt like you pitied me and to be honest I don’t want your pity. Did I ask for too much? I don’t think so.

All I know is that I want to give you everything I have, and I’m not asking for anything from you in return. You said that it would be unfair if you accepted, but I don’t care if this is unfair; all I want is to be by your side, to take care of you, to protect you and to keep you by my side.

Time can heal every wound on your heart, and if you add love, the pain will subside faster.

Love. 

I know you've suffered a lot so I want you to trust me even just a little. I would like to think that you know me enough to trust me, at least I think so. The more that I try, the more I feel that I’m losing you. And I can’t live with that, I can't give you up, I can’t and I’m sorry.


I’m not quitting this battle, but I can’t continue with this. I’m giving you the space you need. I’m letting you choose what you want. You know where to find me, because despite being so close to each other, we are further apart than what people think. I'm walking away because you want it that way, and it’s a pleasure giving you anything you want even if it tears my heart apart.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m being selfish for wanting you to want me, but I can't help the way I feel. I love you, or maybe it's an obssession? There were other times that I felt as though you used me, but instead of feeling angry I let you do with me as you pleased. Because for me, every second that I spend with you is a blessing, a treasure for me to hold on to.

Sometimes I wonder if the day that you'll return my feelings will arrive soon or if it’ll never come. I can’t know if I don’t try, If I don't wait, right?

I'm trapped in this vicious cycle without end, between letting you take what you want from me and make you see just how much I’m willing to give up for you, I’m suffering so much because of this situation. However, I can’t leave you alone, I can’t and I'm not going to.

How hilarious, isn’t it? That though you forsake my feelings I am still devinely loyal to you. I love you and I hope that one day you’ll find someone to love, someone to cherish and hold dear, and if that someone is me then I’ll be the happiest person in the world. But if I'm not the one that you harbor feelings for, 

then I wish you all the luck in the world and I wish you all the love that you deserve.