In the beginning, it was difficult to even fathom the fact that I could end someone.

That's something that only people in the movies do, right?

It's not something that happens to everyday goers like me.

But only the first time was hard.

It got easier the second time around, and then the third. 

Then eventually, I think I started losing count.

I'm still waiting to wake up from this dream so I can open my eyes, stare at my popcorn ceiling, and comfort myself with the fact that I didn't really end anyone.