NingNing pov

' it's you '

' I wanted to say that word but it didn't come out of my mouth so I sighed deeply and looked at her'

I said, "She was a trainee before but she's gone, you don't know her."

She said, "Has she been an trainee with you?"

I smiled at her and nodded softly

I said, "Let's forget about it and go to sleep, take a shower in our room, and I'll take a shower in the unnie's room

She said: ok

I saw her enter the room, i sighed softly, then went to the Unnie's room and closed the door behind me and leaned on the door while tears streamed from my eyes.

'If I tell you, will it make any difference, you look so happy next to her that I can see the feelings in your eyes when you with her, so that is the reason I have to lie to you and I have to lie to my heart'

I went to the shower and stayed about two hours and then came out of the room and went to our room I slowly opened the door and went in to see her sleeping.i go to Livingroom and sitting on the sofa I opened my diary and started writing

Title: Cowardly Heart

Today Winter Unnie asked me who I like but she doesn't know I'm talking about her so I lied to her

I couldn't tell her it was the unni that I loved. I wanted to say that but I'm a coward so I lied to her. She had better not know these stupid feelings.

I had a strange dream that seemed like reality to me that day when I was sick....Uh...I wish it wasn't a dream....

I closed the book and I remember that dream, then I shook my head and then got up and went to our room and hide my notes and lay on my bed I kept looking at her when she was sleep until I fell asleep

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The next morning I got up to find Winter Unnie not in her bed. I got up lazily and went to the shower and then I got out of the shower and dried my hair and got dressed and walked out of the room to find Winter Unnie, Karina Unnie and Giselle Unnie in the kitchen. Karina Unnie and Giselle Unnie how saw me they run to me and hugging me tightly, honestly, I was amazed but I smiled and hugged them too. I missed them

Karina unnie said, "Ning ah, I missed you, was my baby okay?"

I said with a frown, "I'm not your baby."

"You're our baby," Giselle Unnie said.

I looked at Giselle Unnie in amazement, "even you too Unnie?"

Karina unnie and Giselle Unnie started laughing and then I laughed too

"Come on, let's sit down to eat," Karina unnie said.

I nodded to her and sat near Winter Unnie, who was looking at me calmly and then served me food, so I thanked her, then i looked at Karina Unnie and Giselle Unnie and said

"unnies, why are you here now, the vacation isn't over?"

"Actually, I didn't want to leave you here alone, but I thought maybe you'd need some time on your own, so I left you, but when Giselle told me yesterday that you were with Winter, I pulled Giselle with me and came," Karina Unnie said with a smile.

I looked at her and then smiled at her

' It's hard not to love karina unnie because she thinks of others before herself but I hope she thinks of herself too'

After eating, we went to the company and they told us that we would prepare to go back. Then we went back to the dorm after we talked a lot about the new song and the equipment.

When we got to the dorm, it was past midnight, so we decided to go to bed straight away

The next morning I woke up and took a shower and then came out of the room to find only Giselle Unnie and Karina Unnie. Then I decided to go out for a bit

I went to a cafe and sat near the window watching the people walking and some of the students having fun together... In fact, I missed the past as I used to go out with the trainees unnies and have fun with them. I was very happy with them and I never imagined that I would lose them one by one It was difficult for me, especially since I met them at a young age and they took care of me a lot and I clung to them a lot... Sometimes that darkness and that loneliness suffocates me to the point where I can't breathe ..and until now I don't know that feeling of safety because for me it is safety Something I've been missing since they left and now I'm afraid I'll lose the Unnies too

I sighed then got up and decided to go back to the dorm when I came in and found Winter Unnie on the couch watching shows I froze in my place She looked so beautiful with her new hair

"Ning Ah"

I came back to my senses when I suddenly heard her voice and stood up and approached me

She said, "Ning ah, where have you been?"

I said, still amazed, "I was outside....but unnie …. your hair?

"Oh, they told me it would fit the new concept, why…. don't you like it?" she said.

I quickly said, "No, he's very beautiful.... He made you prettier."

"Oh, thank you," she said shyly.

I remained silent while she was a little shy of my words

To remove this silence and embarrassment, I said, "So how was the filming?"

She said, "It was great, it was difficult, but fun."

I smiled at her and said, "That's fine, you worked hard today, okay, you should rest, I'll take a shower first, then watch a movie, and tell the unnies to come."

She said, "Thank you...but the Unnies are out, so we'll watch the movie without them, go take a shower and I'll prepare the movie."

I said "okay"

I ran straight and took a quick shower so I wouldn't make her wait and then I got out after I got dressed and sat near Winter Unnie and we sat down to watch a horror movie.

My heart was beating so hard not because of the movie but because of Winter Unnie who had her head on my shoulder I looked at her to see her enjoying the movie so I went back to watch the movie ...and after an hour the movie ended I looked at her again to see her sleeping on my shoulder I smiled at her and then decided to carry her

I slowly picked her up and put her on the bed slowly and kissed her head and walked out of the room and turned off the TV to hear the dorm door open I turned to see Karina unnie and Giselle unnie were back, I smiled at them and then decided to tease them.

I said, "So how was your date?"

Karina unnie and giselle unnie blushed and then said karina unnie

"Ningie, what are you saying?"

I said, "What do you mean Unnie, I just asked because you looked like a coupe to me?"

"Ning ah...we...we just...go out," Giselle Unnie said shyly.

I smiled at her and then said, "Okay, okay."

Then I decided to go to my room, opened the door and turned around to them and smiled

"Now you two are shy of a date," I said, "but what happens when you kiss each other?"

karina unnie and Giselle unnie said at the same time, " Ning Yizhuo."

I smiled at them and closed the door behind me 

then I looked at her to see her sleeping. I approached her and pulled away her hair and smiled.

'Unnie, you are really dangerous to my heart...Now what should I do? Tell me should I break my heart with my own hands or should I be selfish for once in my life?'

I sighed softly and then went to my bed and lay down and fell into a deep sleep Tomorrow it will be Karina Unnie and Giselle Unnie filming in two different locations and then it will be me in the evening

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Sorry to keep you waiting I've been very busy and haven't slept much
Actually I'm still busy but I'll try to update more
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