When manager informed me that I have to attend Baeksang Award tomorrow, I confused because I know she Will be there too.

I wanna reject this invitation but its impossible, the company has agree with this offering.

What should I do?

I know this day Will come, sooner or later, there must be the day that I Will meet with her.

I am not ready, I am afraid about my own feeling. 

I am afraid that I Will thinking about her again and again, fall for her again and again.

But how about her, in this situation how dare I am to wish that she Also get hurt when she knows about the news of my relationship.. I must be crazy.

May be she doesn't feel anything.

May be she Also has the relationship with other man, as long as I know she is good at hidung a secret. But for this I hope the answer is no, big no.

Aish thingking about this again, it always make me regret. If I didn't take that contract, mau be now I just to think about what should I wear to meet her again. That crazy contract.

I lay on my bed and my hand unporposely touch a book beside my head,

"If we live each other"