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Saengil Chukkahamnida, Saengil Chukkahamnida, saranghaneun Siw...

 

No.

 

Why should I sing for you, when you cared more for Hyungsikkie.

No, you cared TOO MUCH for Hyungsikkie.

You never played guitar for anyone.

I knew you had unlimited ambitions and had always wanted to try play guitar and piano because Kevin hyung and Junyoung could play those instruments. Even though your talents at violin could already put all of us in envy.

You still wanted to learn more, you wanted to be more.

But you're too busy. Suddenly, Im Siwan's name as an actor, a hidden gem, grew into a sensation overnight.

And you're left with no time to learn those new knowledge you crave for to compete with others.

But on Hyungsikkie's birthday,...you uploaded a video for the World to see, how much you love Hyungsikkie.

That you're willing to go through the pains of learning to play guitar in between your crammed schedule.

All for Hyungsikkie.

Him, not me.

I'm used to have Kwanghee hyung dragging you away.

I'm used to see Taehun hugging you all the time.

I'm used to Hyungsikkie always approaching you lately and flirt with you.

But I'm not used to this. Seeing you treat someone special of your own accord. Without anyone forcing you to, with your own desire.

You played guitar, and sang for Hyungsikkie. 

I, could only watch, with each sound came off the guitar strings plucked by your fingers, the stabs in my heart gets deeper, and deeper.

Until I heard that part. Saranghaneun Hyungs...you know which part. I don't have to go through it again.

Hyungsik acted like he didn't care.

But today...

Today, your birthday.

The day I anticipated all year long.

Just to see your smile at the sight of the truckloads of presents from your fans and also at our little celebration for you.

Just to find excuse to hug you, to tell you sweet wishes, to say 'I love you', without being suspected.

No matter how much I'm hurt, I still waited for that day, for this day.

I waited, and waited, alone in the dorm, even as the others went out for schedules and other matters.

Because nothing mattered more to me than seeing that smile of yours today.

The special smile that can only be seen once in a year.

On your Birthday.

I waited until I fell asleep.

But even after I woke up, you weren't at home.

And when I checked the internet, these are all I could find.

 

 

 

Like a happy couple, you, and Hyungsikkie, both posted proof picture, one after another, going on  a happy concert date,

on your birthday.

Proof that now, Hyungsikie has had a special place in your heart.

I could only watch from the computer screen with this bitter smile,

as time passed and your birthday ended.

And I'm still alone, here.

No happy smile or laughter from you this year, on this day.

 

Happy Birthday, Siwan hyung.

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I love you.

 

 

That forgotten dongsaeng~

♥Happy Birthday Siwan♥1st December♥May happiness always be with you♥