Dongwoon’s  POV

I felt the kisses from her lips as she glided across my shoulders as I slept, or rather pretended to sleep.  I was hoping she’d take the hint in my not responding to her wake up attempts by getting dressed and leaving, but I guess I needed to be direct.  I knew I had a bit much to drink last night at my welcome home party from my military service, but that was my re-entrance into regular life once more, and truth be known, I was as and she, this bottled dyed blonde woman in my bed, as well as a few others, offered to service me for my service, and she seemed the least clingy, so I suited up and accepted the thank yous she bestowed upon me.  She handled me pretty well, and I knowing I was kinda rough, she seemed to relish it all. I mean  being a popular idol, who wouldn't, but in the last few months, I’d not gotten any and she gave me the release I really craved at the moment.  But now her duty was over and well appreciated, but I wanted her gone. Well, maybe one more round, then I’d send her on her way. 

 

The person I really wanted to see was not there at my welcome home and needless to say, I was really disappointed, so she would have to do, since these hands were not going to satisfy me the way being between a pair of warm wet thighs providing heat as I my manhood deep inside warm tight lips did.  

 

After I sent my reliever away, I thought about calling Kikwang since he was very good friends’ with the one I really wanted.  

 

At first I was very suspicious of their relationship.  Anyone knowing Kikwang knew he was very smooth with the ladies and often times bedded the ones he set his eyes on, so when he told me their relationships was purely platonic, I had to say I was hesitant and shocked.  I watched them from afar and conceded that indeed they had a brother/sister type of relationship, and that sedated me, because I wanted her badly and while we were no longer a group we held that code of not ing another girl another had his eyes on. 

Another thing that held me back from__________ is that she was not Korean or Asian at all.  I never saw myself with any other woman but an Asian so when I met this beautiful African American from the United States who originally ally from the Caribbean, when I was on leave from the military attending a curtain call performance of Yoseobs’, I was instantly drawn to her Caribbean/New York accent...That and her well curved behind and ample .  I've always been a man, and I really wondered how island cuisine tasted but i knew I had to bide my time.  

 

She  being a friend and co-worker of Kikwangs’ girlfriend, Ae-cha,  invited her to the show.  When we were introduced, I bowed kindly, and when I took her hand, volts of electricity shot through my body and out the ends of my still low cut hair.  I was taken aback because I’ve never experienced anything like that with anyone and it took me for a serious curve how much I relished simultaneously having to  fight an intense hard-on most of the night.  

 

She had a smile as bright as the sun, wore her dark hair in long twists, her skin was mocha chocolate, and her body was….i was anticipating it even if only in my dreams.  I thought to myself I bet she taste as good as she looks.

 

After the show, we all had dinner together and I sat across from her, I was additionally by the fact that her Korean was almost flawless. She was y, my level intelligent which is higher than most ppl knew and worked as a charge nurse at the Childrens’ Hospital where she'd been for 4 years. 

 

As I said I was fighting not to get a hard on for this woman, but it was difficult, but because I’m a gentleman, or so my image has been manufactured, I went to the bathroom and had a 'discussion' with my service weapon and once we came to a agreement, I rejoined the chatterful table.  

 

After dinner, we exchanged phone numbers, but when I returned to my post a week later, I became very busy and with the threat of North Korea barring teeth, things were intense and I put her to the back of my mind for the time being.  Thankfully it was all a bluff and nothing happened.  However I found myself thinking about her and in the shower my hands would not let me forget how much I wish I could sample her soft lips, which I etched into my mind how she moistened them just before she spoke, giving me cause to wonder what that mouth would feel like on mine and on me.

 

Now that I was home, I decided to ask Kikwang about her and placed a call.  Following a short conversation, we agreed to meet for lunch during a lunch break from filming of one of his ongoing K-dramas two days later.

 

We went into a restaurant not too far from where he was filming and when he broke for lunch, and after we both signed a few autographs from fans and took some pictures, we settled in and ordered.  While we ate, I asked him about ______ "What’s up with ___________?” I asked taking a drink of my beer.

“She’s good. She’s back in school to get her Masters.”

“Is she?” I asked impressed further with her. “That’s great.”  

“Why haven’t you called her?  You guys did exchange numbers, huh?” he asked giving me slight side eye.

“Yeah,” I looked away for a moment. “But…”

“But what?” he waved a few admirers who sat in a table across the aisle, flashing his well known bright smile. 

“I didn’t see her at the party, and I knowing she's a friend of yours…”

“And you thought you’d ask about her, is that right?” he chuckled.

“Yeah,” I ran my hand through my hair that had already begun to grow back, thankfully.

“But right now she is in the Caribbean." He replied quietly. "There was a death in her family, but she will be back Thursday.” He informed.

Shocked by the news, I said. “I’m truly sorry for her loss.  How is she?”

“Shaken up. Her aunt died, her mothers' sister,  who raised her after her mom passed.” He informed taking a sip of his beer.  I was sad for her and in that instant I wish I could have held her and it surprised me because I didn't see anything much else from her but a tasting or two.

“Does she have the same phone number?” I asked taking a final bite of my food.

“Call her and find out.” Kikwang daringly challenged then added.  “Ae-cha and I are having dinner with her next Saturday night.  We planned that after her return.”

“Yeah?  That’s cool.”

“You can come by, it’s just a few of us.”

“Thanks, I’ll let you know…” I trailed off.

“Bull, you coming man, stop playing around.” Taking a sip of his beer.  I chuckled lowly and wiped my hands and then crossed them over my chest and admitted. “I am attracted to her.”

“Ahhhh, finally, truth.” He spread his arms out and laughed warmly. “She said the same about you, but also said she didn’t think you liked her.  I didn’t say anything because I knew you was seeing Suzy.”

“Suzy and I were done just one month after I got into the service.  I didn’t say anything because, well, it hurt a bit, but at the same time….” I trailed off. “She was seeing another man at the same time.”

“Oh that’s ed up man.” He said annoyed, slumping his body back into the he chair.

“Tell me about it.” I sighed quietly. 

“So swing by at about 7:30. I’m sure she’d love to see you.” He stated as a young woman came by and tapped Kikwang on his shoulder and he nodded to her.

“Why didn’t you contact her?” he asked finishing up the last of his food.

I rubbed my chin, relieved that I could finally be honest, yet fearful what the response could be.  I looked away for a moment as the crowd dispersed then back to him.  He had a small knowing smile on his face as if he already knew. I said nothing replaying his words in my mind.

“I wish I had known.  I just thought it was one-sided.  She never really showed me any obvious feelings.”

“She’s reserved like that, but what I want to know is, why are you so hesitant?” He asked.

“The obvious reason….”

“Ah,” he stated and signed the receipt.  “Then maybe you should leave her alone if you don’t really care for her.”

“Man, I just told you…” I began but he cut me off.

“Yeah, I heard you."  He leaned forward and indicated me to do the same and said.  "I love you like my brother and then some. I've known you for many years.  ________ is like my sister, one of the nicest people I’ve had the honor of knowing and besides Ae-cha, one of the few women outside of my family members and bed I really care for.  If you don’t want the whole shebang…. Back off..."

“I’m just ambivalent….” I insisted. "But I do have feelings for her..." I admitted, knowing that my feelings, while lustful, seemed to trail down a longer winding road, a road I wanted to more than explore.

We got up from the table and headed to the doors into the bright afternoon.  “You can’t have it both ways bro.” we both put on our sunglasses and he continued. “We no longer live in that spotlight where we have to appease anyone to such a degree. Times have changed... We can date, see, sleep with, whomever you want.” he gave me a brotherly punch in the gut.  "But I'm a hawk with_____". We chuckled for a while and I his understanding for her well being. I realized he was right and vowed inwardly to tread carefully.  We bid each other good bye and I walked to my car, thinking that_________ seemed like a good woman and while she is someone I def want in my bed, she could the one I might  share my life with.  but let's start with the friendships since that is foundational.  If we didn’t work out, so be it.  

 

I drove out of the movie studios parking lot and surrendered my name tag at the entry booth and took a turn out on to the road.  I was looking forward to seeing her on Saturday.  I smiled at her presence in my thoughts.   Now I’ll open the door and invite her in.

 

 

Ch.2

Deciding not to call _____ until the party was a decision I made reluctantly because I figured I could wait a week before I'd see her.  Truth be known, I struggled with giving in, but however I won with 

the help of working with my brother in his newly opened cafe and there was no shortage of group supporters who kept me flushed if u get my drift...all the while contemplating what I wanted to do with my life now that I was out of the lime light.  I'd set my sights on possibly real estate and met with some investors and futuristicaly settling in that venture, keeping me focused somewhat until I saw her.

 

 

 

As I pulled up to Kiwangs house on a hill in upper Incheon, Feeling strangely nervous seeing her, because once u crossed the threshold of understanding and appreciating a woman's desire I no longer questioned approaching a woman however she did something to me and the closer it came to seeing her the more intrigued as was.  I took a few deep breathes and exited my vehicle.  Passing a few people making my way throughout the house Kikwang and Ae-cha shared, I made light conversations wiTh the party-goers, taking a few photos, then proceeded to find the host and hostess for the evening.  

 

There was a lot more ppl than I anticipated but I should have known when Kikwang said a few people, it meant about a hundred or so.  Making my way through the women that I wouldn't objected having them indulge in conversations with me, I saw her and she took my breath away.  Still beautiful as I remembered and stunning in a form fitting white bodysuit with a top resembling a web design, laughing at something, i realized she  really was making me struggle.  I’m mostly composed so this was provoking me.

'Finally," came the voice behind me adding a gentle rub on my back.  "You showed up." I turned around to Ae-cha, Kikwangs' girlfriend whom he'd been with for almost two years now and smiled then bowed and gave her a friendly hug. "You know me, I like to get in when the party's going."

"Oh yeah, I know you alright' she smiled squiring her eyes at me as I laughed looking around then back at her as she sat in a tall chair engaged in a conversation with a few ppl around her.  "Yes," Ae-cha's voice jolted me back to her presence.  I looked at her and said 'What?' With a sheepish look. 

"Don't bs me." She affirmed. "Go say hello," she nudged me. "You know you want to."

I gave a small chuckle and slowly,  purposefully walked towards the crowd of about seven people, all the while telling myself to remain calm, realizing also I've never had to do that with a woman once I had a taste of them especially after my first ual encounters.  But with her.... She was making me excited... I was glad I wore relaxed jeans.

 

I approached her and another woman who sat next to her gave a gentle poke and whispered in her ears.  As I came closer ____ looked up and gave me a small sweet smile, showing off that single dimple in her left cheek.  Oh yeah, that made my night!

 

"Hello," I said , my voice just over the music as I stood about a feet away from her a few ppl greeting me but I focused on her.  "Hello," she responded just after her lips, her voice like honey.  "How are you?" She inquired in korean, which again took me back.

"I'm well.  It's very good to see you." I replied stepping closer. 

"Welcome home," she greeted and took a sip from the glass she held.

"Thank you." I bowed with a quiet laugh. "It's good to be home." Thinking it would be better in her arms then remembered why she was gone.  I bowed deeply and then said. "My condolence to you and your family for the passing of your Aunt." And bowed again.  She looked away for a brief second and almost immediately, the smile on her face disappeared.  She blinked a few times and the same person who poked her of my approach gave her knee a soft rub.  ____ then looked up at me again and her smile returned. However her eyes were slightly misty.  "Thank you, it's very kind of you." And she bowed as well.  

 

As the night progressed we found ourselves sitting on a couple of the chairs placed outside.  The warm summer night was breezy and the illuminating sights in front of us was mesmerizing.  I watched her as she spoke, she sitting directly across from me, legs crossed, regaling me in both the funeral occurrences and school shed started last semester, I realized I was feeling more than just desire for her.  I watched as she recrossed her legs and placed a few of her twists that blew in the gentle night air behind her ears, revealing beautiful gold studs that graced her ears. 

"Those are beautiful on you," I commented.  

"Thank you," she replied quietly.  "They belonged to aunt. Her daughter, my cousin, Megan gave them to me.  I used to admire it on her so she gave them to me." She ended quietly her eyes on the bright city below us. 

"You must have loved her a lot," I assessed, filled with emotions for her and hoping I didn't bring her to tears. 

"And I loved her very much..." Her voice trailed off.  We were quiet for a while and I looked behind me towards the house noticing the party was still going strong.  I wondered if I could get her to leave with me so we could go somewhere where they was less ppl and let's face it, less eyes because while I wasn't an idol anymore lots of ppl here were checking my every move and that's not bothering me, I just wanted to be with her alone.  I waved at a few passerbyes and then turned my focus back to her.  "_____" I said then asked . "Did you come with someone?"

"Yes," she answered. "Esme, whom was sitting next to me, she's my cousin.  She came back with me from______.  Wanted to see where I moved to, since I left New York."

I was kind of disappointed because I knew she would want to leave with whom she came with especially since it was family, someone who didn't know the area.  I forced a smile and began to ask but she beat me to it . 

"Did you want to take me somewhere?" She gave that same small sweet smile and I chuckled at her perceptiveness.  

"I would," I admitted "But I would want you to leave your cousin stranded."

"No I would do that," she confirmed. "I'd drop her back home and since you will follow me, I'd make sure she was good and then go with you." She arched a single eyebrow and waited for my reply.  This was the one time I was speechless but I smiled at her accuracy and said. "You lead, I'lI follow."  We got up slowly, simultaneously looking at each other and I joined her on the short walk back to the house.  

 

After we said good night to Kikwang and Ae-cha, and a few others, I walked them to her car and as they pulled out of the arch shaped driveway, I did the same and followed her home, the drive not too long and not to far from the airport.

 

I, trying to hold on to my gentlemanly ways escorted them into the large jade colored lobby of her apartment building and opted to wait there for her.  As they went up stairs I sat in the soft beige sofa and checked a few statuses on my IG, noting that pictures from the party were already up, including a few pictures of myself and ______ engaged in conversation unbeknownst to us that photos were taken of us. They got my good angle and hers as well... 

 

The ding of the elevator alerted me and I looked up as she stepped out of the lift, a stunning bright smile on her lips, and as she walked towards me I gazed into her eyes, they softly glistening in the brightly lit lobby, and I couldn't help but stare at her beauty.  In a word she was intoxicating and I drank every ounce of her down visually.  Which is what I  had to do for the moment.