She doesn’t like how the ebony of night gnawed the sky every time the sun hides behind the farfetched horizon every 6 o’ clock.  

She loathes the abyss of the night sky despite being decorated by millions of scattered stars that lights and twinkle unbrotherly, she never seen them as something to wish upon.

“The stars look so dumb” Hyewon’s apathetic tone echoed through the empty road ahead of her.

 She can never grasp the idea of praying towards death rocks that lay beyond her sight, maybe it’s for the sake of poetry; she guessed, she’s not entirely sure. After all she was never the type to see the world fictionally. And maybe just maybe it was one of the reason why she had been wandering absent mindedly for a while now.

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All of them had decided to gather and throw a little celebration for another yet win of their debut song, La vien Rose. Never could have they imagined to receive appreciation and opportunity to taste the sweetness of victory, despite being a newly formed group they had manage to make a name for themselves already and make a mark towards those who are ready to lead their both eyes and ears towards them— they are very grateful.

“Yah Woonyoung! stop bothering nako and help me with this” the youngest immediately dropped nako’s stuffed pig and made a run towards their leader, earning a pout from nako. “Give it to me Eunbi unnie!”

“Woah! Can we even finish that all? Why did we order too much?” Sakura amusingly stared at the amount of food on their floor. She knows that there are many of them and it would be just as logical to have a big amount food but she feels like she’s inside an eat all you can buffet by the various food in front of her. 

“Of course we can unnie! Right yujinie?” Yujin who seem to settle herself already in front of the chicken wings beamed just as energetically. “Yena unnie is right Sakura unnie, and it doesn’t even seem that many to me! Bet we would need more, especially since we have Hyewon unnie who didn’t eat her lunch earlier” She reached for a chopstick and split it into two excitedly.

“Just don’t overdo yourselves” Chaeyeon mentioned as she leads both herself and sakura to seat by the farthest end of the couch.

“Yes Mother!” Both Yujin and Yena said as they proceed to discuss about the food that they were going to eat while earnestly holding their chopsticks. Chaeyeon couldn’t help but chuckles at the two.

“Is everybody in here already?” Eunbi called out whilst holding a bottle of coke and plastic cups on her other hand. She received a couple of ‘yes’ and proceeded to settle herself as well after putting the coke by the side. She looked around the room and mentally count her members, ’10, 11-‘ someone is missing.

“Where’s Hyewon?” Eunbi voiced out her thought, grabbing the attention of all the eleven girls who had started to eat already. It was odd for Hyewon’s lack of presence especially in this kind of gathering, she is after all known as the main eater in their group.

“Didn’t she say that she’ll buy cake earlier?” Minju confusedly state while scratching her head.

“But I remembered seeing her laying in her bed when we were getting ready to gather, was I hallucinating?” Shaking her head, Yuri rebutted while putting her chopsticks down.

“I’m not sure either” Eunbi know that if she hinted even the slightest worry in her tone, her members will notice. “Maybe she took a breather, you all know her. She just appears and disappear suddenly. Just kept an eye on your own food I bet that once she appears it’ll be all sweep away” Eunbi tried to mask the uncertainty with a joke and was relieved when the girls seem to buy it as it earned couple of chuckles and nods from her members, except for Chaewon who knew whenever Eunbi is trying to mask something. They shared a look as if relying a message towards each other.

‘You don’t know about Hyewon as well do you?’ Chaewon stared at eunbi while chewing to make her stance less obvious, fortunately both of them were seated not far away from each other. Eunbi nod hesitantly but send Chaewon a telepathic message to not worry anymore and she will handle it.

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Hyewon doesn’t have the least of an idea onto why she was still wandering alone in cold dark street of seoul. She had been dragging herself for the past hour without a specific destination in mind. She could have been having a blast filling her stomach with all of the foods that her members would have ordered, but in contrary she’s out and cold kicking a lone pebble mindlessly.

“I think I need more time” She whispered into no one in particular., she hesitantly looked up in the night sky and stare at the moon. She needed more time to process everything at once, maybe even days to finally stabilize her emotions. She can’t just risk to mask everything,. She needs to at least regain her sanity.

“I couldn’t remember the last time I saw the moon this full.” 

Despite her evident abhor towards the dark, she holds a fond admiration towards the moon. She found its presence competent and important throughout the night, an immediate reason onto why she can still tolerate the starry night right at the moment.

“I don’t know what to do honestly” She mumbled to herself.

She can barely think at all, her thoughts were all jumbled and she can’t think of ways to untangled them.  Her usual calm and collected self was nowhere in sight. She knows that she knew herself very well, but the sudden turn of events made her fright knowing that sooner or later, she’ll have to face its’ consequence, the never ending probability made it even impossible for her to go home just yet, nor want to show them herself just yet.

 “Even the moon is scary to look at maybe I should stop admiring anything from now on”

She sighed for the nth time

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Almost half of the food is already gone but there is still no Hyewon in sight and Eunbi’s is getting anxious each passing second, so she hastily stood up and fished her phone from her pocket. She checked the message that she had sent an hour earlier but it remained the same.

“Where on earth are you Kang Hyewon..” Eunbi couldn’t help but stare helplessly at her phone screen, she feels like its’ mocking her. She contemplates whether to call or not but after meeting the cherry bloosom’s eyes she finally considered and she finally pressed the call button with a trembling hand.

Sakura can’t help but notice the uneasy look evident in their leaders’ face. She had been observing Eunbi for a while and she had never seen her this stress. It is obvious that everybody is worried about Hyewon, no one knew about her where bouts not even Eunbi.

“Did she answer?” As the second oldest in their group she also held the responsibility to protect and make sure that her members are safe and sound all the time.

“Maybe she needed some time” Sakura didn’t notice Chaeyeon following her towards the kitchen but she’s glad that she did. Chaeyeon gave Sakura a reassuring smile and she couldn’t be more thankful for her.

“Her phone is ringing but its’ obvious that she’s not answering” Eunbi is starting to get frustrated and pressed the call button for the 5th time. “Answer the damn phone Hyewon!” She was about to throw her phone but Chaeyeon stopped her before she got the chance to.

“You should calm down first Eunbi unnie, just give her some space. I’m sure that Hyewon can handle herself very well”

“She sure like to make us worry” Eunbi snorted.  She kept on getting a feeling that Chaeyeon might know something about Hyewon but she’s not telling. She stared at the latter’s eyes but Chaeyeon averted her eyes gaze to Sakura. She just justified her premonitions.

“What could have happened to Kang-chan?” Sakura thought aloud.

“I’m sure she’s okay Saku-chan.” Chaeyeon caress Sakura’s checks

 “Let’s just give her some time and she’ll come around, why don’t we go back inside I’m sure that the kids are getting worried” Chaeyeon proceed to lead Sakura inside their dorm before opening the door to better access herself in. “Don’t worry about it too much Eunbi unnie, I’m sure that Hyewon is fine. I’ll make sure to set some food as