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I've hardly been outside my room in days
'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays

The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away
And it was then I realize the conscience never fades

Nayeon hadn't done much this week, she'd do the bare minimum, shower, pull her hair back into a bun and put some comfortable clothes on, and when she wasn't wallowing in her room in her bed in self pity, she'd do it on the couch instead.

She didn't go to work all week, and she knows she's going to hear about it at some point from someone..

Nayeon was embarrassed, quite honestly..

She feels like such a fool, not only for her actions on the weekend, but her behaviour all week..

She was having one big pity party, and nobody was invited..

But tonight, her party is getting gate crashed..

As night fell, Jeongyeon finally found herself infront of Nayeon's apartment door..

She needed answers..

She knocks at the door and waits..

Finally, Nayeon opens the door..

"Oh.. Um Hi, Jeongyeon.." greets Nayeon without much welcome in her voice

"Hey.." Says Jeongyeon as she continues

"You'd honestly hate to hear this but honestly, you look awful Nayeon.." Greets Jeongyeon in shock, at Nayeon's unusually disheveled appearance

"Thanks, you always know just what to say.. Maybe it's because I am Jeongyeon.. You should just go.." Says Nayeon shamefully as she goes to close the door

"Why?" Says Jeongyeon as she stops the door with her hand

"What did you do Nayeon? You haven't been at work all week, out of any reason I have ever had to fire you, I have a pretty good one..

But, I'm not going to do that Nayeon..

So, how about you let me inside and tell me what's wrong?"

Says an insistent Jeongyeon

And I thought going into your office that day to finish our conversation, that I was going to face a life full of regrets, well.. wasn't I wrong..

Thinks Nayeon as she lets Jeongyeon inside

The two make their way to sit on the couch.

"Um.. would you like anything?" Asks Nayeon

"Yeah, just an answer.." says Jeongyeon 

"Oh ah, umm.."says Nayeon as she thinks of the right things to say

Jeongyeon grabs Nayeons hand,

a touch that she has wanted to feel all week.

"You messed up..." says Jeongyeon as she gives Nayeon a start, looking right through her eyes

"Yeah.. I messed up.." says Nayeon as she looks away, as she can't bare the intensity of how Jeongyeon is looking at her

Things fell silent for a moment..

"I called Yeri.."

Jeongyeon knew exactly what that meant and it crushed her, but she wasn't going to berate Nayeon for it.. she would wait to hear how the rest of the story goes.

"Ah.. I know where this goes.. but I don't, and I'm not going to pass a single judgement on whatever else happened until I hear it.." says Jeongyeon as she waits painfully for the details

"I was pissed off, and I called her.. I always did when I drank too much.. you know that fact.. she picked me up,  and I asked her to take me home but, in my state she suggested I shouldn't be alone.. and I agreed with her.

So, then we went back to hers, I wanted to feel something.. something other than anger, so then one thing almost lead to another..

We only kissed, I stopped myself before it went any further, I realised that it wasn't what I wanted..

Because, honestly I wanted you...

And I still want you..

And now, I