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Never in my life even in my wildest dream I imagine that you and I will be like this paano naman we came from a different world, ikaw kasi yung tipo ng tao na kilala ata ng lahat dahil bukod sa gwapo kana ii sobrang sikat mo pa.
Yes I know its sound cliche to say but your like a prince literally riped out from a fairy tale book, masyado ka na atang perpekto kaya wala na akong ibang masabi pa
Magaling sa musika and when I said music yes in all aspects, you can play every instrument and you have an angelic voice
Sports? sus kung posible lang sigurong sumali sa isang olympics ang isang tao sa lahat ng sports suguro ikaw na yun
Kaya naman sa school natin ikaw palagi yung pambato
Smart? Well that word is an underestimate to describe your intelligence kasi your like a walking encyclopedia kahit ata anong itanong sayo wala kang hindi kayang sagutin
Appearance? Oh please prince na nga diba? Your like a masterpiece curved by a sculpture bawat anggulo ata ng pagkatao mo ginawa ng perpekto, minsan tuloy napapaisip ako ano ba ang kapintasan ng isang katulad mo?
Attitude? wala na kong masabi bakit kamo? Dahil your literally an angel never as NEVER pa ata kitang nakita na magalit, kaya ka nga laging pinapalibutan ng tao ii kasi your always smiling lahat ng tao sa campus kasundo mo, you shine bright like a diamond kaya pati ang madilim kong mundo pinaliwanag mo
Oo madilim ang mundong pinanggalingan ko, dahil kagaya ng sinabi ko we live in a complete different world
I was 5 when my parents died hindi sa isang car accident or anu pa man kundi pinatay sila, oo PINATAY sinadya at kailanman hindi nila pagsisisihan ang ginawa nila
My parents was once an assassin, Hindi ko din alam kung bakit nila pinili ang buhay na yun dun nadin sila ngkakilala at ngka in love-an but I know they never regretted what they did because I am a living proof that they are happy for what kind of life they choose to be
Kaya ako? Im living alone, Isolated from all people, I dont have friends nor acquaintance.. Im not a nerd nor a bully well you can say that Im an emotionless one that feeling when you woke up just because you need to and not because you want to
Revenge? Nah Im not into those kind of scheme bakit pa pag ba naghiganti ako magiging masaya ako? pagba napatay ko kung sino man ang may gawa nun sa mga magulang ko may mgbabago? Magugulo lang ang tahimik kong mundo kaya naman mas pinili ko ang mabuhay ng ganito
Masaya? Nah, I cant even remember the feeling of being happy since that thing happen so you can say that Im a living dead
Psshh.. tama na nga ang tungkol sa akin ikaw ang pinag uusapan natin dito
So ayun nga, I was living a dim world until you came into my life
Hindi ko alam kung accidente lang ba ang lahat o talagang nananadya ang tadhana dahil sa dami ng tao sa mundo ang mundo natin ang pinagtagpo niya
It was a typical boring day for me wala na sana kong balak pumasok pero since wala din naman akong gagawin I decided na pumasok nalang
As usual ilag sa akin ang mga tao, sa totoo lang hindi ko din alam well maybe I have that "TALK TO ME AND YOUR DEAD" aura kasi kahit kailan hindi ako ngpakita ng emosyon and when i say NEVER i mean it kahit simpleng pagngiti hindi ko ginagawa kaya naman walang sinuman ang nangahas lumapit o tumingin man lang sa akin
It was our Cooking Class and as usual wala na naman kong partner which is I dont ing care since mas ok sa akin yun our task is to bake a cupcake
Nagkanya kanya na sila ng groupings since individual naman ang pagpili, pumunta na ko sa pantry para sana kumuha ng ingredients, pilit kong inaabot yung flour ng may kamay na umabot nun, at nung sinundan ko ng tingin ang kamay nakita KITA
OO ikaw, nagulat ako ng makita kita , oo nagulat ako kasi unang una hindi ko akalaing makakaramdam pa ako ng gulat pero hindi ko yun pinahalata at nananatili pading poker face ang mukha ko
Pangalawa, anong ginagawa ng isang tulad MO sa klase KO dahil hindi naman kita Classmate
At pangatlo na higit na nagpagulat sa akin ay ang sinabi mo
"Hi, let me get this for you PARTNER- you said with matching smile bright like a diamond na siya namang ngpasilaw sa akin
Pinabayaan nalang kitang kunin yun kasi hanggang ngayon hindi padin ng sisink in sa akin ang mga sinabi mo
Nung makabawi na ko sa gulat haharapin na sana kita at tatanungin kong paano nangyari yun ng bigla mo nalang hawakan ang kamay ko at hilahin ako papunta sa station KO ay NATIN pala
Gusto kong bawiin ang kamay ko mula sa pagkakahawak mo dahil kanina pa nakanganga ang lahat ng tao dito pati ang prof ko na aksidenteng nabitiwan ang record book na hawak niya ng makita ka este TAYO pala
Pero sa di malamang dahilan gusto ko ang hatid na init na nanggagaling sa palad mo, at nakaramdam ako ng pagka dismaya ng kusa mo itong bitawan para umpisahan ng gawin yung cupcake
Tahimik lang akong nakamasid sayo habang para kang sumasayaw habang pinagpapatuloy ang ginagawa mo gusto ko sanang tanungin kung ano ang pwede kong itulong pero sa di malamang dahilan ay hindi ko mahagilap ang dila ko
Nagulat na naman ako ng bigla mo akong pahiran ng icing sa pisngi, nanlalaki ang mga matang napatingin ako sayo dahil sa bigla mong paghalakhak
Gusto kong takpan ang bunganga mo, para tumigil kana sa pagtawa dahil parang musika sa pandinig ko ang tawa mo at alam kong hindi lang ako dahil maging ang lahat ng nandito ay napatigil sa mga ginagawa nila para lamang pagmasdam ang isang anghel na tumatawa na walang iba kundi ikaw
Hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko, dahil parang hindi ako ito, bigla akong nakaramdaman ng mumunting kiliti na hindi ko alam kung saan nagmula at aaminin ko natatakot ako
Nagmadali akong tumakbo palabas ng lab dahil baka pag ngtagal pa ko dun ii mamatay ako ng maaga
Dinala ako ng paa ko dito kung saan tahimik at siguradong walang tao
ROOFTOP
Sapo padin ang dibdib ko palampak akong umupo sa sahig hanggang sa tuluyan na kong nahiga
Yung totoo ano bang nangyayari sa akin? bakit ako nakakaramdam ng ganito?
Hindi tama dahil hindi dapat ako nakakaramdam ng ganito
Sa pagmumuni muni ko ay isang pares ng sapatos ang nakita ko sa may ulunan ko at ng tingnan ko kung sino ito
"S-sabi ko na nga ba nandito ka lang ii , bakit ka naman biglang tumakbo galit kaba?- sinasabi mo yan habang hawak hawak mo ang tuhod mo at humihingal kaya naman halata ko na tumakbo ka para habulin ako pero ang tanong bakit?
"Ano namang pakialam mo?- gusto kong batukan ang sarili ko dahil muntik na kong mautal buti nalang hindi
"Nag alala ko ng bigla ka nalang tumakbo habang hawak hawak ang dibdib mo, may sakit kaba?- tanong mo sa akin at bigla mong hinawakan ang aking noo na siyang dahilan ng bigla kong pagbangon
"W- wag mo nga akong hawakan, O-okay lang ako- utal utal na sagot ko sayo takte ka talaga bakit ba ko nagkakaganito ng dahil sayo
"Sa halip na ma offend siya sa ginawa kong pagtulak sa kanya ay nagulat nalang ako mg bigla mo kong binuhat ng parang bagong kasal na siyang talaga namang ngpahina ng tuhod ko dahil amoy na amoy ko ang pabango mo at aaminin ko gusto ko ang amoy nito
"Anong ok ka dyan tingnan mo nga ang sarili mo, namumula ka, halika at dadalin na kita sa Clinic- sabi mo na lalong nagpainit ng nararamdaman ko, OO sa unang pagkakataon pakiramdam ko pulang pula ng mukha ko at sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko
I heard gasp and scream sa hallway kung saan ngkalat ang mga student dahil lunch na pala, pakiramdam ko tuloy ay mas lalo akong lalagnatin sa hiya Hindi na din ako nagpumiglas dahil bukod sa nanghihina ako sa mga bisig mo ay pakiramdam ko ikakamatay ko pag nalayo ako sayo
MEGA FASTFORWARD
It's been a month now since that incident happen
Pilit kitang iniiwasan, pag natatanaw kita sa malayo umiiwas na agad ako, o kaya naman pag makakasalubong kita I changed my way, I also dropped my cooking class i susummer ko nalang siguro yun if ever
One reason, cause Im scared
OO TAKOT ako, Im scared kasi alam kong may iba kong nararamdaman , hindi ko man maamin sa sarili ko pero may kakaiba kong nararamdaman, ikaw lang kasi ang taong sumubok pumasok sa mundo ko kaya naman bago kapa tuluyang makapasok ii kailangan ko ng lumayo
Nandito ko ngayon sa mall, oo khit naman ganito ako, pumupunta padin ako sa mga ganito
Papasok na sana ko sa isang cafe ng may mahagip ang aking mga mata kaya naman hindi ko na naituloy At nagtatakbo na ko palayo dito
Napaupo nalang ako sa pinakamalapit na bench habang sapo ang naninikip ko na namang dibdib, ilang beses ko na ba tong nararamdaman, maya maya pa nakaramdam ako ng mainit na likido na tumulo mula sa mata ko
Im crying, not a question but more like a statement, but the question is why?
Oh common Im not that stupid of course I know why
It's because I saw you there, laughing with a beautiful woman
I know i shouldnt feel this way, wala naman akong pakialam sa mga ganyang bagay, sanay ako ng walang kaibigan, walang kausap, sanay akong mag isa at hindi nakakaramdam
NOON
Bago kapa dumating sa buhay ko
"A beautiful lady shouldnt be crying alone here- i heard a baritone voice speak those words, wala sana kong balak tingnan ang taong yun but then I just felt something on my face
"This is the first time that I saw a lady cried and I dont Know why but I cant stand it- he said while wipping the tears on my eyes using his hands
This time I look at him, I saw a tall white man with a red hair and Green eyes, he seems like a foreigner and i cant deny this man is undeniably handsome
"Thanks- i murmer enough for him to hear
He just smiled and sat beside me, we remain silent for a moment until a voce caught our attention
And there stood a man, a man that's the reason of all this unknown feelings
YOU
You immediatley hold my hands and dragged me away from him and started walking, I looked at the man who just comforted me and I was shocked to see him smiling
Silence
You and I are now here in a park near the mall, the sun is about to set since if Im not mistaken its quarter to six
No one dared to speak, both of us remained silent and your still nor facing me yet your still holding my hands
I was about to let go when you suddenly pulled me close to you
My heart starts to beat like crazy AGAIN I smelled that familiar scent that you have
"I know its too sudden, My plan is to let us graduate first before I confessed my feelings for you, but seeing you with that guy a while ago, makes me want to ripped out his heart for him to die
"I know it sounds to possessive but, YOUR MINE AND MINE ALONE
NOW BE MY GIRLFRIEND
SPEECHLESS is the exact word that can describe how i feel right at this moment,
YES its indeed possessive and commanding but my heart REJOICES when I heard it.
"Hey answer me or else- he said more like a threat but still I cant find my words,
To be honest Im still in awe and doubt, Im I ready for this? Do I like him? Im I ready to give my heart to this person?
All my inhibitions
All my questions
Were answered when i felt a warm thing on my lips
Yes he gave a sweet kiss
And now I know the answer
YES its too early for this
YES other people may think, that everything happens too fast
But in life? You dont need to doubt everything for in When God sends you the right person
Time? Distance? Will never be a hindrance
For in When your world and his world collides?
It can bloom to a magical thing called
LOVE
"Hey Love are you still reading that thing?- I felt a warm embrace and for the nth time my heart beat like crazy,
"Ah Huh, I will never get tired to reading this Love so just let me- I smiled to him and give him a peck which makes him smile as well ans show his shine bright like a diamond smile which i really love
"But Until now, you never told me nor show me kung anong laman nyan- Yes he's right this thing also known as my own diary is my secret haven, at walang sinuman ang pwedeng bumasa nito well maybe wala PA
Cause I never let you, and I will never hahaha.. But maybe malay mo kay FAITH ipabasa ko- I giggled while holding my tummy
"Sinong Faith- and because his smart I know he gets the message
The next thing that I know was be spinned me while shouting
"IM GONNA BE A DADDY!
No words can describe how happy I am right now, who have thought that this day would come, that his world and I will collide,
After his confession I said YES, and of course maraming nagtaas ng kilay at nagulat marami din ang nagsabi na hindi kami mgtatagal, but no they were WRONG
Of course I will be lying if I say na naging madali ang lahat, Life is not always about Rainbows and Flying Unicorns.
Its not a fairy tale were in It will start with ONCE UPON A TIME and end with AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER if you met your prince, you can be a princess
In our case Im not a damsel in distress nor a princess
Im a QUEEN and I will fight just to have MY KING
Now WE ARE HAPPILY MARRIED, 3 years after we graduate we decide to settle down
Its funny how Life works, that even though how much you wanted to stay as you are to avoid heartaches, pains and trials time will come where in you will need to face it
And the reward? Its just amazing
Just like me Who would have thought
That with just a simple encounter it can lead to something BIG
Yes he will be a father soon, we will soon gonna have our FAITH and when that happen I surely let her read my diary that contains a story
A story, of his DAD and MOM
Our story where it all..
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