hanbin didn't want to cry. he didn't want to show that it effected him this much. but he found himself in the same way he's been for a few weeks now. 

he hated how he couldn't keep his feelings hidden inside. he hated himself for being so weak. 

he got up from the bathroom floor, body sore and tired. more tears came out when he looked in the mirror. 

his fists clenched tightly and he fought the urge to punch it. 

he washed his face and drew out a sigh. he looked at the ground and got to pick up the tissues soaked in snot and tears. 

he looked in the mirror again biting his lip as he checked to make sure no signs showed that he was crying.

he walked out and saw the person he did not want to see. 

" oh bin, do you want to watch this movie with me  ?" jiwon asked as he patted the space on the couch next to him. 

hanbin almost cried yet again when jiwon called him by that. he put on a smile he hoped looked real enough. 

" no it's okay hyung, i'm kinda tired i'll just take a nap."

jiwon looked at him with a look, " are you sick?" 
" no i'm fine, don't worry." 

he started walking to the room and heard a soft, " hanbin ?"

he looked and saw yunhyeong. hanbin looked down and went inside.

yunhyeong quickly stopped the door from closing and went inside, locking the door. 

he saw hanbin already in the bed. curled up in a ball. 

he joined hanbin in bed. hanbin turned and looked at yunhyeong, "what are you doing ?"

yunhyeong shook his head and brought hanbin close. hugging him. 

hanbin gripped on the older ones shirt and tears came out. not as much as before, but enough for yunhyeong's heart to drop. 

he knew hanbin had fallen asleep because hanbin squeezes onto the last thing he touches and lets go. which right now was yunhyeong's shirt. 

yunhyeong planted a small kiss on hanbin's head and let himself drift off to sleep. 

in the morning hanbin found out that yunhyeong was actually not the only one who knew. all other members knew, except for the one causing him his pain. 

jiwon was so lost at how the others were around hanbin, blocking him from jiwon as if he was a monster trying to kill the younger. 

jiwon didn't want to admit but he misses hanbin. he misses the younger's hugs, though he was never a big fan affection. 

he missed how he would make hanbin laugh. his laugh being music to jiwon's ears. 

he also missed hanbin's smile. and he most of all misses how he was the one who made him smile. now he only smiles with the others, and gets so quiet around jiwon without the others there with him. 

but the thing jiwon didn't know is that he was causing so much pain to hanbin. he had no idea, but he was actually hurt at hanbin ignoring him. 

speaking of hanbin, jiwon was outside waiting for him to get out the restroom. resting against the door. 

he almost knocked but he heard a sound. the sound of something dropping. he put his ear against the door. 

he heard a quiet laugh and then broken sobs were heard. jiwon felt his heart shatter at the sound of hanbin crying. 

he hated when hanbin cried. hanbin is so delicate jiwon just wanted to protect him from the cruel world. 

and now, breaking down the door to get to hanbin is all he wanted to do. so he does. 

he sees hanbin on the bathroom floor, hugging himself. tears coming out of his eyes. 

jiwon knelt down and grabbed hanbin into his arms. hanbin weakly trying to get out of his grip. 

" no, i'm staying until you stop crying. i hate seeing you cry." jiwon softly said as he began to gently run his hand through the younger's hair. 

hanbin chuckled. " you're the one making me cry, why does it matter to you." he said, his voice hoarse from crying. 

" what, what do you mean?" jiwon said. holding hanbin tight since the younger was slipping out of his arms, the other becoming more weak and loose. 

jiwon noticed hanbin beginning to close his eyes. " i love you jiwon. i love you." he said and his body went officially limp. 

" hanbin? hanbin?!" jiwon desperately asked. the younger not responding. yunhyeong rushed in, the other members at the door as well. 

" hanbin!" yunhyeong rushed to his side and tried shaking hanbin awake. still no response.

he rushed to get the phone while jiwon carefully but quickly picked up hanbin.

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it's only been thirty minutes since they've been here but for jiwon it felt like hours. 

he's been replaying what hanbin told him before.

" i love you jiwon. i love you."

jiwon couldn't stop thinking about it. he knew he had a feeling towards hanbin as well but he ignored it.

he ignored it because he wasn't sure if hanbin would return the feelings.

" he's been in love with you for a long time jiwon. he's been hurting because of you. and i'm not saying it's your fault but it's your fault." jinhwan said to him.

jiwon frowned more at his words. he put so much mind into his own feelings he didn't notice hanbin's.

the doctor came in, jiwon standing up.
" he's fine, he just fainted due to lack of sleep and food. please just make sure he eats and sleep more. and makes sure he fully falls asleep. maybe someone can also check that he eats."

jiwon listened to his words and took them in thoughtfully.
" will he be okay?"
" yes he'll be fine, you may see him if you'd like. his room is right there."

jiwon softly said a thank you and ran to hanbin's room where the doctor pointed to.

he softly knocked and when he heard a soft voice he walked in. he closed the door behind him and looked at hanbin.

" hey."
hanbin pulled his blanket up more, an attempt to hide from jiwon but jiwon was already next to him.

" hanbin."
the said boy looked at him and jiwon almost fell down. hanbin is still beautiful as ever.

" jiwon, i'm so sorry i said that to you. i know you don't feel the same and probably really disgusted by me. and i understand, it's just -"
" hey hey. hanbin it's okay." 

hanbin froze and looked at jiwon. worry in his eyes. jiwon sat on the bed next to the younger.

" i'm sorry i never told you. i'm sorry you've been going through pain because of me and look, you end up in the hospital. when i heard you crying earlier i hated it. i hate seeing you cry, and me being the cause of your tears makes it worse."

hanbin was just staring at him. eyes keeping contact as they looked at each other. jiwon continued.

" i love you too. i love you hanbin. and i'm sorry it took me so long just cause i was worried. i worried that i would ruin our friendship, i was afraid of getting rejected. i love you. baby you're so adorable, everything about you is perfect."

hanbin's eyes sparkled with tears fighting to escape. jiwon's eyes flicked to hanbin's full rosy lips and back to hanbin's eyes. jiwon inched closer and closed the distance between them.

hanbin smiled and closed his eyes, the tears coming out. jiwon pulled back,   " why are you crying?"

hanbin shook his head, " i'm just happy." jiwon smiled brightly and brought hanbin in a tight hug. 

" y'all aren't gonna f×ck right  ?"

they both turned towards the door and saw jinhwan with the others following in. hanbin blushed while jiwon gave him a smug smile.

" whenever he's ready." jiwon said and hanbin slapped his arm. jiwon found hanbin so cute he couldn't handle it, kissing hanbin on the head.

" ugh, they're gonna be that one touchy couple i swear." junhoe pointed out. chanwoo agreeing with him. 

" and it's worse cause hanbin was always touchy." jinhwan added. yunhyeong shook his head and donghyuk was just his smiling self. happy jiwon and hanbin are finally together. 

" the doctor said you can leave whenever you feel better. so we were gonna head to the food court, do you want anything?"

" nah i'm good, i have everything right here in my arms." jiwon said grinning. junhoe and chanwoo fake gagged. 

" shut uuup." junhoe said pulling jinhwan along with him and chanwoo following. 

" choco cone." hanbin said. jiwon continued smiling at hanbin fondly while yunhyeong rolled his eyes. 
" of course he was gonna ask for freaki-" 

yunhyeong already walked out the room. donghyuk was last, he looked at jiwon. 

" please don't hurt him again. hanbin hyung don't hurt him either." donghyuk smiled and walked out. 

" you and your choco cone." 
" hey, it's the best."

jiwon chuckled and gave hanbin a kiss. 
" adorable."

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hi ! this is my first story on here in my new account. i apologize if there is any errors. i hope the story is at least okay, and i don't know if i'm gonna make a one shot book here as well.