"why are you looking at me like that?"wonho asked as he noticed me staring at him for a long time.

I won't accept that I need him.I won't!!

"nothing important."I turned my head and jumped on the couch.

I wanted to play but my phone rang again.

"umma~~~"I said excited.

"how are you my dear son?"she asked kindly.

"I'm fine!!how are you??are you doing fine??"I asked.

"yeah.of course.I wanted to tell you that I found a skilled psychologist and if you like to meet him."she said.

"mom..you know it doesn't work.I mean what's the use?they can't help me anyway."

"don't be negative chae hyungwon.someone'll help you one day and you don't know if this man is the one who will help you or not!"she said calmly.

"okay..I'll meet him."I said quietly just not to break her heart.

"great!I'll send you the appointment detail."he said and hung up.

"who do you want to meet?"wonho asked curiously.

"no one special.a psychologist."I answered.

"for..what?"he asked again.

"nightmares."I said.

"what nightmares?"he asked AGAIN!

"yaaah!!why do you keep asking??"I yelled.

"because I'm curious!"he yelled back.

I gave him a death glare and took a deep breath to stay calm.

"I don't know.about my accident..everyone say it was a accident but I dream about drowning..sometimes I think I'm going crazy."I closed my eyes.

"haven't you tried to forget?"he asked.

"huh?"I openned my eyes to meet his gaze.

"forget?why should I try to forget something that I don't know?why should I forget something that i don't know I see in reality or in my dreams?"I asked trying hard not to cry.

"what do you see?"he sat in front of me on the floor.

I just stared in his eyes quietly.

"trust me and tell me..I'll help you.."he held my hands and that warm feeling again..

"everytime I see myself in the water trying to save myself but I can't.someone saves me and I don't even know who he is."I stared at the floor.

he kept quiet as well and just stared at me.

"I did what was helpful.I went everywhere to solve my problem but I really don't know what to do now.."my tears fell on my cheeks without me knowing.

"he just fell on my life but that's the problem.I can't remember his face..I can't remember the face of who saved me..I wanted to know even if it was just a dream.."I wiped my tears but dragged into wonho's embrace.

"I'm sorry..I'm really sorry hyungwon..I'm sorry for asking.."he petted my hair and tried to comfort me.

"I..I really try..I really try to remember or at least forget but..it's all useless.."I sobbed.

I continued crying and continued again till I fell asleep..

***

I openned my sleepy eyes to see a asleep boy infront of me.

I stared at wonho who was still sleep with my half openned eyes.

I was on the couch with a blanket on me and he was sleeping in front of me with his fingers locked between my fingers. 

I wanted water..my throat was so dry.

I tried to unlock my fingers but wonho openned his eyes with the first move and stared right into my eyes.

"Do you need something?"he asked.

"water.."I hummed.

"wait."he said and stood up.

"I can take mysel-"

he left to the kitchen before I finish my sentence.

I sat on the couch and waited for him.

when I thought carefully I realized I slept well!

without nightmares again!

was wonho this time?

was that because of him?

why do I feel safe with him?

It was kinda okay for me to be with him.he was handsome and kind.

but what about my parents?

well..we can say my mom will accept if she understands my problem and so does my dad.

and that's all..

but another problem was that I wasn't gay and so was wonho!

what the am I thinking about???

we'll never fit together!!

just shut your mind up chae hyungwon!!

that's not gonna happen!!

but what if it did?