Hi

It has been a while since I wrote a fan-fiction. 

Ever since the death of Jong Hyun, I have been thinking non-stop about what will happen to him after his death. Somehow, I got the inspiration to write this. The very day I started writing this fan-fiction, I dreamt of him ? 

I believe his death came as a shock to everyone. He is always so bubbly :( I could still remember how I came to notice SHINee when they sang the song "Stand By Me", one of the OST for "Boys over flowers". How I enjoy singing "Ring Ding Dong" with my friends and setting it as my ringtone. How I went crazy buying Etude House products just to get their merchandises when they were the spoke-person.

For some reasons, I have been pondering for quite some time whether to publish this fan-fiction. My friends have been encouraging me to do so as a tribute to Jong Hyun and it might also serve as a closure for some fans like how it became a closure for them after reading. I hope this fanfiction can cheer fans up a little. 

To Jong Hyun: 

Jong Hyun oppa , you have done well! I know it is not easy to deal with depression. I have been through it before when I worked in a very stressful environment. At that point of time, I do not know that I am having depression. I could still remember how lifeless I was. Always trying my best to put on a smile as I went for work but the moment I got home, I would lock myself in the room. I would not even turn on the lights or eat and just sat at the corner of my room and cry myself to sleep. I only got out of all these when I left the stressful environment and having encouragements from my family and friends. It took me a while though. 

I'm sorry that you have been through all this alone. I'm sorry that no one has noticed it when you called out for help. I'm sorry that you were unable to just leave the environment like how I did. 

Jong Hyun oppa, I hope you are in a better place and happier now. Rest in peace and farewell Jong Hyun oppa . I will always remember you and will smile when I listen to your songs.