Last 7 days was such horribles days for me and all SHINee family. I'm too shocked on the news. He left us just in the blink of eyes. Just a week ago i keep thinking about it but now he is gone already. I feel so sad and empty. I swear I'm not a real fans of SHINee but i love them so much. I love Jonghyun so ing much. Few days i can't even stop crying and mourning over him. I can't believe he left us already, i still can feel his presence around me. His death really gives me so much impacts. I understand how he feel, i understand how it feel to hate yourself, i understand how it feel when you already give all of you but its still not enough. And it hurt so much. 

Jonghyunnie, i believe you are in the good place right now. I can't believe what i want to believe because its not what my religious teach me but i believe you are happy now, you are not depress anymore right? Thank you for almost 10 years together. I love you. 

You doing good there. Rest well.