Hey everyone, it’s escapingfromreality here

I never imagined that this day would come so soon but life happens and…here I am.

As you can probably tell from the title, this is an apology letter and also a goodbye letter.

For the past year, I’ve had many doubts and many moments where I just wanted to give up but I never did because I was scared of disappointing and letting down my readers.
but I have to be completely honest. I am just so so tired now… I feel trapped, and I don’t see another way out besides having to take this course of action.

I just can’t do this anymore. I’ve had enough.

And I know I am the absolute worst person on earth to do this to you, to post a new story and promise to show you something good only to inform you the next second that I’m done and I want out. It is so irresponsible and I am a terrible terrible person and I hate myself for doing this but I really don’t feel like I have a choice. I know I’ve made promises in the past and I apologize a thousand times because I have to break those promises now.

I can’t bring myself to continue writing nor can I make myself continue acting like I’m excited, like I want to do this and like I actually care, when I don’t. I don’t want to be fake and I don’t want to lie to myself or to you.

It really hurts to have to give up not only my ongoing fics, but also my entire history on this website and all the memories along with it. In order to really move on, to leave all my troubles and stress behind me, I have to give up all of this.

It took me a long time to decide whether I will delete my account, and the answer is yes. Again, I apologize to anyone who will be disappointed by this decision but I do hope you respect my choices and it’s what I believe would be best for myself.

This is all so selfish, but when it comes down to this point, just let me be selfish for once and do something for the sake of myself. I want to continue living and not have burdens.

Lastly, I want to thank everyone who has supported and given me love during these 3 years I’ve been on this website. Thank you to every reader for reading, subscribing, commenting etc. Thank you for always being patient with me and encouraging me no matter what. I really appreciated it and I still do, I always will.

It’s been an amazing few years with all of you, but now is the time to bring everything to an end.

I’m sorry, and goodbye.

- efr