“Are you sure you’re already feeling fine?”—I asked Sinb who was only facing her food at the table as she munch—“I mean, are you not feeling unwell anymore? Like does your head still hurt?”

I’ve been even more worried ever since she got out of the hospital. Instead of being relieved that the doctors had said that there’s nothing to worry about, my uneasiness grew because what if something happens to her? What if she collapse or needed to go to a hospital immediately?

She let out a deep sigh as she drop her knife and fork on the table and turned her head to me with a faint smile “Kim Sojung. I know you’re worried because of what happened to me but trust me, I’m fine already”

She then stood up and went in front me me, cupping my face and making my head look up to meet her eyes “I don’t like seeing you worried or having a frown on your face. So please just believe me and what the doctors about my condition”

I smiled at her—a fake one—and said “Ok”

“Just don’t be sick again” I said as I grab her right hand to give a soft kiss on the back of her hand

I stood up with both of her hands intertwined with mine and I pulled her closer to wrap my arms around her waist “So... do you want to go anywhere today?”

“Wow, that personality change was quick”

“What?”

“Nothing. It’s just a while ago you were so worried about me and then now you’re asking me to go outside? I thought you wanted me to rest by that past reaction of yours” She teasingly said making me laugh bitterly—but of course only I could sense the bitterness behind that laugh due to the mask I wore

“Well I thought you wanted me to act normal so here I am acting as normal as I could” I then leaned closed to her face and rubbed both of our noses together making her chuckle

How I would miss hearing that adorable chuckle of her...

But despite that, I should not make it obvious how devastated I am on what is about to happen to me... to the both of us. I don’t want to worry her nor let her sense that something bad would happen

“Does my Ddin want to go anywhere today?” I said with a hint of cuteness in my voice and hugged her even more tighter

“Hmm... let’s see...” She looked around us, observing and thinking about something but then, why do I see pain in her eyes? Why do I see her throwing a facade acting like nothing is wrong.

She will never be fine if she’s with me. And that is an undeniably a fact that cannot be altered by anything. Even prayers nor tears. But at least her pain would leave her once I’m gone in her life.

No matter what choice nor how much I plead and beg for them to not tear us apart, nothing would change. I would still be leaving her and when she wakes up... I won’t be remembered

I would just like a dream that passed by her mind while she was asleep. While on the other hand, I would be remembering her face, her voice, her smell, her laugh... everything about her I would remember. And even if it’s too painful for me to see her with someone else, I would still put up a smile on my face and watch her from afar. I would be thankful that she came into my life and that she was the one whom my heart chose to love

“I’ll think about where to go after I finish changing” She removed my arms on her waist and walked towards the direction of our room—almost running.

Once she was at the hallway heading to our room, I followed her with light footsteps and saw her touching the wall to balance herself and she was shaking her head—probably to get herself to come together

“Just why are you doing this, Hwang Eunbi?” I mumbled once she was already inside the room

Just in how much pain are you in and how could you act like you’re doing fine? I’m not a worthy of you.

I sighed as I picked up the plates lying in the table and placed it in the sink. I couldn’t help but think that she should just rest instead of tiring herself outside and that she might collapse at any time

Before knocking on the door, I took a deep breath and put on a smile. “Sinb, can I come in?” I said trying to to show how worried I was. I waited and waited for a reply but nothing was coming making me uneasy and my fake smile was fading. Turning into a deep frown

“Sinb?” I said once again but there was still no response. And with that, I knew something was wrong so I didn’t hesitate to rotate the knob and open the door

I froze for a moment on what I saw. She was sitting on the bed with both of her hands placed on top of it to help her balance herself and she was breathing heavily

“Sinb... what’s wrong?” As I come near her, I saw how pale her arms were... it was turning so pale that my inside was already panicking

My eyes were quivering in fear. Fear of losing her even before the time of my departure in her life comes. Fear of not being to hear her sweet and tender voice calling out my name and her soft touch for the last time

I kept calling out her name but she wasn’t turning her head towards me so I placed both of my hands on her cheeks and slowly turned it to face me. I saw how pale she was and sweats were all over her face

I cursed in my head and I felt the pain inside me growing bigger and bigger witnessing how she was becoming weaker and weaker and how vulnerable she was

“Lie down and I’ll get a medicine for you” I said as I remove her sneakers and help her lie on the bed. I placed the comforter on her before turning my back to get medicines and a cup of water for her

As I open the medicine kit placed on the drawer, I hurriedly dug into the pills that were piled up and once I got the right one I ran to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. Hopefully it would ease her pain even for just a few hours...

I don’t want to see her in much more pain than she is now

As I reached the room, I placed the glass of water on top of the drawer beside her bed so I could peel off the medicine

“Sinb, take this. It can help you get better” Better... I know I’m lying to her now because no matter what medicine she takes, no matter how many times she goes to a hospital, she won’t completely get better as long as I’m here

But I can promise you that you will get better soon...

I helped her get up and sit on the bed and her arms—body—was shaking as she move. I was the one who held up the glass for her to drink one, not wanting her to drop it due to how bad she looked and how she was shaking so bad

“Get some rest, princess” I whispered as I help her lie back and I could see the apologetic look on her face.

If there was someone who should be sorry, it should be me and not you. It should be me because I was too greedy and kept you when I knew that loving a human comes with a great consequence and is forbidden for cupids to do

“Sojung” I heard her say and she was struggling to move even to speak

I hummed in response and went closer to her and what she had said pained me upon hearing her say it despite of how she was having a hard time

“I love you” she said and my eyes was getting filled up with water. I blinked a few times to stop it from coming because I don’t want to see me broken and weak at the same time. I have to at least be strong even just in front of her

“I love you too”—I held her hand squished it tightly—“Now go get some rest”—I leaned closer and gave her a kiss on the forehead

“But if I rest, we won’t be going out? I want to go out with you...” Her words can barely be heard and the tears were slowly coming down from my eyes. Thank god her eyes are closed. I couldn’t bear it if she hurt even more once she sees me in this state

“I’ll find a way for us to go out. Today, hopefully”

After I was out of the room, the tears that was held back suddenly bursted. I kept wiping the tears on my face but no matter how much I try, tears wouldn’t stop flowing out of it and the hatred was slowly getting bigger and bigger

The hatred of being being born as an cupid who matches people but she, herself, can’t even fall for someone for it will cause great pain and it is forbidden

As I make my way through the living room, I saw a photo of Sinb and I who was back hugging her and the smiles on our faces were priceless and the photo looked so perfect. Like nothing was wrong between us

I laughed bitterly as I stare at it “Nothing is perfect as it seems Cupid” I muttered then walked towards the living room to get my phone to contact either Eunha or Umji—whoever I see first in the contact list and that would probably be Eunha

I clicked her name and it rang for a few times before it got picked up “Hello?”

I kept silent, contemplating on what I should say to her until she spoke again “Uhm hello? Cupid?”

I wiped of the tears on my face and cleared my throat after “I need your help”

“What? What help?” Even I could imagine how confused she might’ve looked like as I told her that. Her voice was obviously confused by me

“I... I need your help for the last time, Psyche” My voice kept cracking as I speak and all to be heard on the other line was nothing but silence. Silence that was full of worries

“W-what do you mean?” Her words kept stuttering and I, myself, was already losing it for how she kept being confused

“Please... help let me spend my last day with my girlfriend for the last time... help me... please...”—My sobs were getting louder and louder as I plead to her

“Please. I beg you” I begged and more desperate than ever

“Fine. What do you want it to be? Romantic as ever? Or what?” The tone of her voice wasn’t irritated nor sarcastic. It was the uneasy and full of worry Eunha.

I took a deep breath and sniffed between my sons “Just please make it the most memorable last date with her”

She remained silent upon my answer until she let out a deep sigh and worriedly said “I hope you’re gonna be fine after this, Cupid... Best of luck”

Then I heard beeping sounds meaning our call was ended and I once again broke down into tears as I think of this day being my last with her and and how much pain I had cause her because of my stupidity

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Author’s Note: Only a few chapters left! Two or three more I think? Depends on my mood haha. Stay tuned for the last few chapters of Cupid’s Arrow~ ^-^ Will the ending be as you expected or not? Just stay tuned hehe