"Yah, you're leaving again?! I seriously hate SM now", it was really sad that my best friend, Shoily, was leaving AGAIN on our day. It happened a couple of times before too. Every time we wanted to spend some time together SM would always interfere and call her to work. I was really fed up. "and you too. I hate you too", and that remark ended with a smack on the shoulder. "OUCH THAT HURTS", I winced in pain as she hit me. For someone so skinny, she sure could hit people. "You earned that and now stop whinning. I'll come tomorrow and I love you too. Awwee you're so cute when you're angry, Megh~" she cooed and pinched my cheeks. I just sat there with a stern face. I really wasn't liking the situation. Well, what can I do? I guess work now comes before everything, right?

 

"Fine, go and WORK", I emphasized on the word 'work' and she rolled her eyes at this ,"and don't forget to call me when you reach home. It's not safe outside these days," I was genuinely worried for her though I knew she was capable of handling herself. "Yes, mom. I'm going now. See ya tomorrow~", and she left after I bid her goodbye. Now, I left alone for 3 FREAKIN' HOURS in the makeup room of BigHit.

 

Yes, even though I was a college student, I work as a makeup artist here in BigHit. It was pure luck that I found this job after I came to Korea to study. I was more than happy to accept this job since I get to see my lifelong crushes BTS almost everyday. It was even more better since I liked Hoseok even before coming to Korea. I loved every single BTS member but Hoseok was on a whole other level. He was something else, someone special in my life who changed me for good. I mentally thank him for that every time I meet him but he doesn't know a thing. Sure, we were good friends but he didn't know the fact that I was an ARMY. In fact, no one in the agency knew that. I guess I'm good at hiding the 'fangirl' inside me. I'm friends with all the members but Hoseok gave me butterflies in my stomach every time I saw him. He was caring and nice towards me. Or is it just me? Considering the fact that I'm not that much of a lively person, I still loved his fun and bright personality. His smile always made me smile. I get happy every time I see him happy. He just made my whole world full of darkness light up.  

 

Yeah that's right, I liked him. Scratch that, I loved him. I really wanted to beat myself up for having feelings for him but what could I do? I can't control where heart wants to go. This was the worst mistake I had made in my life. I shouldn't have fallen for him CUZ HE WILL NEVER LIKE BACK FOR 'S SAKE. I was digging my own grave. I was hurting myself even before I could realise it. So, I just thought of swallowing up all my feelings for and live with my unrequited love. Now, enough of the past, back to present.

 

Here I am, all alone in the room thinking that I have nothing to do. I thought of going out to have a stroll but then again I was too lazy to walk. So, the conclusion is that I was staying in here. Then a thought crossed my mind, since I am in the makeup room why not get my own makeup done? It's been a while since I did my makeup properly (Okay this is a bit funny cuz my bestie hardly does makeup. She can't even put on lipstick by herself lol. Sorry Megh but I had fun writing this XD). Even though I didn't do much makeup, I knew how to make myself look good(Yes I know what you can do Megh lol). Without a second thought I started painting my face. Considering my skills, I was done in 10 mins. I was satisfied with the outcome but then again I thought I had absolutely nothing to do. Then I saw my phone lying on the table. I took it and plugged my earphones in and started going through my playlists. As much as I love BTS, I love EXO too. And th the moment, my jam wa KoKo Bop. I found myself listening to KoKo Bop and mouthing the lyrics. I was all alone so I could jam anyway I want. Or so I thought. As I got out of the chair and started to move to the beat, I didn't even realise that someone opened the door. The song ended and as I faced the door, I saw Hoseok standing there looking all beautiful as always and with a face I couldn't read. As much I love seeing him, now really wasn't a good time. . I JUST GOT CAUGHT DANCING TO MY WHO KNOWS HOW  EMBARRASSING STEPS BY NONE OTHER THAN HOSEOK. I mentally cursed the situation.
"WOAH you scared me!" I jumped to be honest. He chuckled at this. "I'm sorry to scare you, Megh.I didn't mean it", there he goes again, melting my heart with that beautiful smile.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell but I got scared. Also you're here. WAIT is this a dream?"

I suddenly felt chills run down my spine. I don't even know why (I really dont know why I wrote this here, sorry if it doesn't make sense). They weren't supposed to come back before the 12th. And it's 6th August today. Weird. Hoseok laughed again at my silliness.

"You're not dreaming. Now stop fooling around," he couldn't stop laughing.

 

"Why are you here? I mean you guys aren't supposed to come back before the 12th", I was confused to why they came back early. Hoseok's face suddenly changed from a laughing one to a nervous one. "I-I well w-we came back cuz of me. I had s-something to do", I could tell that he's nervous but the reason, I'm not sure.

"Oh okay. Since you're here did you need something? Or do you want me to do your makeup and hair?" I was curious cuz he was acting way  too weird today and out of character. He wasn't in his usual bright character. It was still cute so I smiled. "Yeah, the latter. I'm going out", he said while scratching the back of his head. It was cute. I couldn't help but smile.

"Why are you smiling? Did I do something?" He asked nervously. I mentally smacked myself for getting caught while doing something the second time this day. "Ah, it's nothing. Can I know where you're going?" I asked as he sat down on the chair in front of the mirror. "Well, since you asked, I'm going out to eat. Just keep everything casual", he answered shortly. I really wasn't sure why he was acting so weird today. Or maybe it's just me. Without thinking about anything else, I started working on him.

Half way through, I was really confused and surprised to hear his words.

 

"Megh, do you have a boyfriend?"

 

"Why are you even asking that when you know better?"He seemed even more confused with what I said.

"I mean, you know very well that I don't have a boyfriend. Only a crush you could say..on someone," I said as I looked away from him avoiding eye contact. I just couldn't look at him while saying that.

 

"Well, who is it?" He asked.

 

"It's just someone you know", I continued working on him not looking at him directly.

 

"Someone I know you say, now I'm even more curious. Who is it?" I guess he tried to be cool but I couldn't help but notice the sadness in is voice. It totally threw me off track. What happened to him?

 

"It's just...someone. It's hard, okay? I don't wanna talk about it", I was starting to get irritated. He was never like this before. Way out of character.

 

"I like someone too."

 

He said it ever so casually that I almost choked on my own saliva in front of him. But I couldn't make my hands work after hearing those words. It kept ringing in my mind. There it goes, my worst nightmare is happening in front of me. He likes someone.

 

"What happened? What's with that look? Does it hurt you?" I was immersed in my own thoughts so much that I didn't even realise that I was staring at him the whole time. It actually took me a bit of time to process what he had said. I've never been more hurt in my life. I guess this is what you call a heartbreak.

 

"N-no! I mean why would it hurt me. It's not like I still like you even though you don't like me back," I hastily said everything.

I only realised what I had said after I saw him staring atme with a shocked face. I just facepalmed. I couldn't think straight.

"You're done. Just go okay", I couldn't think about anything and wanted him out of the room since I just confessed to him in the WORST.WAY.POSSIBLE.

 

I didn't see where he was since I just sat on the sofa with my hands covering my face. That's when I felt his hands on mine.

 

"Hoseok, please go. I think you can tell that I'm embarrassed. I'm just gonna say everything since I already told you that. It's true. I still like you. But now, I can't do this anymore. You already like someone else. I'm not gonna force you to do anything. I guess I was too foolish to have the slightest hope that you'd like me back. I was wrong. I was dead wrong. I mean it was stupid for me to even have feelings for you in the first place. It's all my fault. I'm sorry that I was blaming you. Just go to that girl you like. Don't keep her waiting or you might lose her like I lost you," with that I heaved a big sigh. I was really hurt even though I don't know why I was feeling that way cuz it was my fault to start with.

An average girl+ BTS's J-Hope= Never (Or so she thought). I tried hard not to let the tears fall out of my eyes. Also, I was surprised to see Hoseok listening to me attentively. I was mad but upon seeing his eyes, my heart softened a bit. His eyes seemed sad and hurt as he looked at me before embracing me. He caught me off guard as he pulled me into his chest.
"I'm so sorry, Megh. I didn't mean to hurt you like this. If only I knew before that you liked me I would've done this before" I couldn't understand what he was saying.

"I like you Megh."

He didn't even breathe between those words. He pulled away from the embrace and looked into my eyes lovingly. I thought I was gonna collapse when I heard him say that. But he caught me right in time.

 

"W-What?" That was all I could say at that moment. I was still recovering from what he had said.
"The girl I like is you Megh. I've liked you for a while now but didn't had the courage to confess. I thought you didn't like me. But I learned that I was wrong today. I realised I liked you a lot when I was in Japan and I knew I had to tell you right away even if you didn't like me back. That's why we came back early", I quitely listened to him because I knew that he was serious and sincere with every word he said.

 

"Hoseok..." with that I just hugged his firm chest. "Iguessyoullgetmyanswerfromthis", my words got muffled as I was hugging him. He chuckled at this and then pulled away from the hug. I looked at him asking through my eyes why he had pulled away from the hug. Then he suddenly cupped my face with both his hands, looking at my lips and our faces were just inches apart when I could feel his hot breath on my face. Then he whispered to my ear, "You're looking really pretty today, you know. Oh and late Happy Birthday." After that without wasting one more moment, I felt his full lips on mine. I also without resisting, poured out all my emotions and kissed him back. Our kiss turned from a soft one to a passionate one. I could feel him smiling. Both pouring out all the bottled up emotions, pulled out from the kiss panting for oxygen. He hugged me again only to let me loose when we both heard the door opening.

Taehyung came smiling into the room. "Wahh~ Look at the love blossoming here. Hobi hyung finally confessed YAY~"

"This means we're finally free from all your rants", Yoongi was there leaning against the door. We all laughed at his words. I was still wondering whether or not this was a dream. But staring into Hoseok's browns orbs made me realize that all this was real. That my lifelong crush was finally my boyfriend. I smiled at this thought.

 

"You know you really look beautiful when you smile", he smiled at me with his angelic smile that always seemed to melt my heart. "I know", I smiled again.

 

"Ahh~" he had a hand up his chest. "Don't go smiling around like that! Ahh~ what am I going to do with you? Why are you so adorable and beautiful?" I smiled even more at this. Tbh I couldn't stop smiling. " Ahh~ Don't smile like that", after that he kissed my forehead.

"Let's go out to eat, I'm starving~" I was really starving. It was not an excuse for being alone with him (Believe me, I really was hungry while writing this lol). "Yeah, let's get out and away from all these erts", he said while a big grin was on his face. "WE CAN HEAR YOU HOBI", the others said in unison. "Also can you please stop with all these cheesiness. It's gross," I guess Yoongi just couldn't stop himself from saying this. We all laughed at this together. It truly felt blissful at that moment. He laced my fingers with his ones and together, hand in hand we went out to eat.

 

As you can see, love might hurt but in the end love is really a beautiful feeling. Don't get hurt and upset just because the person you like doesn't like you back. This only means that you two weren't meant to be together. Rather you should wait for the one who would like you despite your flaws and love you truly for who you are. This story right here is every fangirl's dream but we may never achieve this dream. Those who our biases will be together with are definitely lucky but we shouldn't hate on them and send them hurtful messages. Just because they're dating our biases doesn't mean they deserve these. Rather we should be happy for them and support them. That way we'll be able to be happy and find our own true love at some point of our life.

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Author's Note:

Sorry if this is too lame. As this is my first time please bear with me hehe

Megh, call me after you finish reading this lol.