Joohyun slam the door and run away,her steps producing echoed noises through out the empty corridor. She pick up her pace quicker just to escape afraid that Wendy might caught her again. She don't know why she's running away from Wendy,but she just feel like its the right thing to do. Like, for once she feel like having her mind to herself.

She had been hurt countless of times. But this pain is too much unbearable,it feels like you'd been stab for umpteenth times and you almost lost your breathing.

It's too painful. It feels like every parts of your body weakened and became numb. 

She wanted to slap Wendy there or even punch her many times as so she could send her the signal that she's also frustrated with their situation now. 

She's confuse with the sudden change of event. And Wendy isn't helping her at all. She's only confusing her more with this push and pull behavior of her towards Joohyun. It felts like they're playing some game like 'hide and seek' wherein one is tend to hide and the other one is going to seek for the other.

Such a tiring set-up really but Joohyun knows she can't do anything if Wendy wanted to be the hider instead of being the 'it' or the seeker.

Now she stop her running, breathless – she don't know when she even started running--when she reaches the busy area where bunch of people kept walking back and forth,surrounding her. And like she expected, she feel her phone buzz in her pocket.

Wendy's name shown visibly on the screen. But Joohyun choose to ignore the call though the strong grip of her hand on the device never faltered--it's truly tempting to answer the call but she knows nothings gonna happen even if she tried answering the call--not when they were in their messy state. They were just going back to the square one and Joohyun is too exhausted to deal with another drama. She wanted to cool-off her mind just for awhile. Or if possible,including her broken-heart.

The phone keep ringing for almost a minute until it finally stop. 

Joohyun heave a sigh before pushing her phone back to her short pocket. It's much more better,she thought to herself. Somehow,she felt the sudden relief that Wendy never tried to call for her again after that last miss calll. Atleast,now she can finally get more time to cool-off.

Else,to think. Maybe.

Her eyes look at her surroundings: the adults around her, the loud chattering, random sounds everywhere. Its noisy and she notice for the first time. 

And for a second, she shut her eyes closed, her hands gripping together against her palm. Cool breeze pass by and she suddenly shiver.

It wasn't winter but it's a little bit cold for Joohyun's liking. It felt like something is missing.

Someone's warmth.

She suddenly felt grasping for something warm but then she realize that she's alone, no one's gonna hold her hand and warm it up. No one. Not even her.

​​​She's alone again.

The voice in her head ringing so loud and it suddenly felt irritating.

She don't know why, but she feel like panicking at the moment. Her mind's hearing all sorts of noise from all the voices around her. Her head's dizzy. 

Spontaneous images of the past events flash before her eyes--it is the part of her memory the day she lost her mom. She was crying so hard and loud,begging for her mother to wake up and spoke to her again. Of her shouting how much she'll missed her mom if she tried to leave her. The images of herself grasping to hold her mom's hand for one last time before it turn cold and lifeless. The days after her mom pass away. She was in her room all alone. Sobbing. Knees curled infront of her chest,hands on her face trapping all the tears streaming down from the corner of her eyes. 

Her hands move to clutch on her head for support. It feels like a migrane was about to come and knock her off. 

It's happening again. She knows,it's happening again. Things she'd feared for. The thought of being alone. Being left behind with no one else left beside her. She knows it's her fault in the first place. It's her fault that she let her in. That she let herself getting too much attached with someone else,again. 

Not again. No please,not again She chanted those words inside her head as if it can help to ease her worries and fears.

Her feet stammer backward and any moment now she know she'll fall down. But she don't, and instead she feel a firm grip on her shoulder.

Seungwan, she think, her voice in her head sounding relief.

But when she turn around, it isn't Wendy at all. He has striking red hair, pointy at the top with obvious gel on, well, everywhere. His beady green eyes are like a cat's, slanted upward, and they're looking into her's. His lips, they're formed into a small 'o' as if surprised.

“Joohyun?" The guy asks her, his voice deep. He's towering over her, his right hand still on her shoulder, the other on her arm. He's holding her in place, tightly there as if afraid she'd fall down.

A gasp. A choke. Joohyun catch her breath for a second.

Sehun?

*****

Wendy stand there inside the room,motionless for almost 5 minutes. Her eyes were already rimmed red and puffy. Cheeks filled with dry tears and her hair was a little bit messy. 

She absentmindedly grasp the fabric of her pants before everything started registering into her mind. 

Joohyun cried because of her. She hurt her feelings. Joohyun told her she was already on her limit and Wendy was to blame and then she left her in her broken state--both of them. But what did she only do? Nothing but to stand there for almost 5 minutes,motionless without doing anything.

How stupid. 

She knows she'd hurt Joohyun's feelings. She isn't dense or numb not to realize it. She wanted to tell Joohyun everything a minute ago but there is something stopping her from doing so. 

Rejection. 

She's scared to know the truth. What if Joohyun didn't feel the same way towards her. Or the feeling aren't mutual at all. What if Joohyun was into someone now but she's only shy to confess it to her. Or what if Joohyun wasn't into a same relationship or she's straight like a ruler. What if-

Snapping herself out of her thoughts,Wendy pulled her phone out of her pocket and dialled Joohyun's no.--things she should've done earlier than this. She need to unleash this thought as soon as possible before it bring her to  a complete mental breakdown. Howbeit,she isn't really sure what is she going to say once Joohyun accepted the call and she was already on the other line listening for whatever damn thing Wendy will going to say to her after that dramatic scene happened inside this room a minute ago. 

Chewing on her bottom lip,Wendy wait there silently as the phone keeps ringing in her hand. She was totally nervous as hell but sadly(or let just say luckily)Joohyun isn't answering the call. She tried many times but the same things happens.

Looks like's she's really mad at me.

Heaving a sigh, Wendy throw the device on the bedside table before plopping herself onto the bed--facing the white ceiling of their room. She felt helpless,really. It's the same feelings where you do work-out the whole day and you suddenly feel really exhausted that the only thing that you wanted to do when you arrived home is to freshen up and rest.

Everything doesn't working out at all. Her brain and all of her body parts doesn't function properly. 

All of this is happening contrary to what she'd picture in her future life. Everything started too fast and ended up at the equal speed of how it's all begins. A part of her felt somehow worried 'coz she knows she's starting to felt more comfortable with this familiarity she'd experience whenever she's with Joohyun and she's afraid that the times will come that she will soon