One week… two weeks… three weeks… one month… two months… three months… have passed without Jihoon knowing. The days just passed by like wind, cold and lonely, for the first few weeks he still spent his time looking at his phone waiting for a call from Seungcheol but he had stopped doing that after one month. He stopped believing that one day Seungcheol would call him, what was worse was he stopped believing in love. Jihoon knew that was the sad ending of his first love. He spent most of his days locked himself in a studio arranging songs or helping his friend recording music for their school task. Jihoon hates to admit that his songs mostly consisted of sad songs after Seungcheol appeared on his life and nobody actually dare to ask Jihoon why.

It was a rainy day when Jihoon took the same bus he took 3 months ago, he had tried his best to avoid the bus and took subway instead which resulted in him taking longer route, he just didn’t have courage yet to take the bus again knowing it was filled with his and Seungcheol’s short but memorable journey. ‘It’s been 3 months, I should forget about him’ with that determination Jihoon took the bus and sat on the same seat as he took 3 months ago. There was nothing different from the bus, the only difference was his heart… his lonelier heart ever since that meeting with Seungcheol. He lied when he said he didn’t try to find Seungcheol in business school, he lied when he didn’t try to search him around the campus, but the older still couldn’t be found and Jihoon had given up trying to find him. Jihoon looked outside the window watching the rain pouring hard just like his heart.

“Jihoon?” Jihoon was still daydreaming when he heard the voice he had missed so much, couldn’t hide he was surprised when Seungcheol was already sat beside him flashing his innocent smile “It’s been 3 months, how are you doing?” Jihoon blinked his eyes twice before Seungcheol’s voice repeating on his head over and over again ‘how are you doing, how are you doing, how are you doing’. Without thinking twice Jihoon stood up when the bus stopped for a while taking new passengers, the composer alighted from the bus and runaway from Seungcheol didn’t know that the older was running close behind him “JIHOON WAIT!” Seungcheol chased Jihoon and Jihoon had to admit that Seungcheol has good athletic ability, not even 5 minutes until Jihoon was stopped by Seungcheol and they were standing facing each other under the rain “Jihoonnie…”

“Don’t ing Jihoonnie me you , what are you doing following me like a stalker? I’m going home and you should too!” Jihoon looked up at Seungcheol with anger clearly shown on his eyes mixed with sorrow

“I know this isn’t your way to home, let’s go somewhere warm and we can talk nicely, not under the cold rain, you might catch cold” Seungcheol worried tone didn’t move Jihoon’s stubborn heart

“So what if I catch cold? So what if it isn’t my way to home? Not like you care about me, for Goodness’ sake just leave me alone!” Jihoon now practically shouted, luckily nobody was around as the rain was pouring heavily

“Ji…”

“This is stupid, you and how are you doing is just stupid, you’ve been missing for 3 months and you just came back like this asked me how am I doing, do you really want to know how am I doing? Well I’m doing fine, case closed so now just let me go!” Jihoon tried to free his arm which was held tightly by the older

“I miss you…” Seungcheol confessed

“I don’t want to listen to any of your bull again just let me –“ Jihoon stopped talking when Seungcheol hugged him tightly

“I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you so much, call me crazy but after our conversation on the bus 3 months ago I just can’t stop thinking about you and”

“And you threw my phone number away and didn’t even try to call me” Jihoon softened up a little bit

“I lost my phone…” Seungcheol confessed

“You could’ve asked my friend for my number” Jihoon frowned

“I lost it when I when to UK for student exchange 3 months ago, and I was too busy with my study that I didn’t have time to ask my friend to track you” Seungcheol sounded so desperate and Jihoon felt bad for the older but his pain over the past three months was stronger than he thought, he nearly gave up but no, of course Seungcheol had a really good reason, but Jihoon felt that Seungcheol’s effort wasn’t that strong enough for him to just forgive the older immediately. After that none of them spoke anything, the silence between them killing both of them especially Seungcheol, he truly hoped Jihoon would forgive him, he saw Jihoon opened his mouth then closed it again while the rain pouring hard on two of them but both didn’t feel anything as their heart was colder than the rain at that time. Jihoon looked down on his wet shoes while Seungcheol looking at him didn’t dare to say anything but knew he couldn’t just escape like this

“Ji…”

“No…”

“Ji… please…”

“Don’t say anything, I’m scared that my mind right now is clouded by the thought of missing you that I can’t judge you wisely” Jihoon finally looked up to meet Seungcheol’s eyes and the latter could see how wounded the smaller guy was back then “I’m… I know I’m nothing for you, but just this stupid heart decided to have a crush on you in a stupid way called ‘love at the first sight’ heck I didn’t even believe on those things before but on that day, on that bus I saw you and I thought maybe I was wrong, maybe others were right, there’s this thing called love at the first sight, you were giving me those hopes by pestering me for my number, of course I was the one who was so idiot that I thought you were interested in me. I was the one who’s wrong by keep my hopes high, I was wrong by thinking that you will call me, I was wrong to look for you all over the campus thinking maybe I should ask for your number also, I was wrong to stay up all night staring at my phone while thinking of you, thinking of that less than 45 minutes journey on the bus, I was wrong that I… I loved you…” Jihoon didn’t even realize that tears been dropping from his eyes while saying those things, no no, he didn’t love Seungcheol, he loves him. The feelings remained the same even if he was already hurt by the older over the past 3 months “And now you might think that I’m a freak, a stalker, but you showed up in front of me asked me how am I doing after you left? Great I finally tell you how I was doing, of course what am I compared to others, how many people have you toying their heart with?  I’m done with you Choi Seungcheol, I’m sorry that I’ve ever fallen for you, I’m sorry for making your expensive clothes wet, sorry for taking your time but don’t say that you miss me when you don’t even mean it… I’m done with this puzzle called love, I’m done with you and your world, you have great excuse there but that doesn’t change a thing that you didn’t make enough effort to contact me which means… I’m nothing for – umph!” Jihoon stopped talking when Seungcheol kissed him hard on his lips

“You” Seungcheol said in between their kiss “are” Seungcheol pulled Jihoon closer to him while deepening their kiss “everything to me” Seungcheol let go their kiss but still didn’t let go Jihoon’s body, instead he leaned down to look at Jihoon closely on his eyes, showed the younger how honest he was “Don’t ever say that you are nothing for me… I’m sorry Jihoonnie… I’m truly sorry” Jihoon was surprised when he felt something warm fell on his cheek, noticed that wasn’t the rain but Seungcheol’s tears “I didn’t know you were hurt because of me, I’m sorry that I left you just like that, I’m sorry that I didn’t make enough effort to contact you but being selfish thinking that after 3 months I can just talk to you back casually again” Seungcheol caressed Jihoon’s back gently “but you have to trust me that I’m interested in you, and there’s this thing called love at the first sight because I love you, I do love you Jihoon since the first time I landed my eyes on you on that bus looking at you under the warm sunshine, there hasn’t been anyone else before you that I so deeply in love with, I’m sorry that I ever cause you a great pain but I promise I won’t do it again, as long as you want to be mine” Seungcheol said seriously now pulled back a little bit to caress Jihoon knew the latter wouldn’t runaway after that

“Seungcheol I…” Jihoon gasped in surprise at the sudden confession

“Would you be mine?”

“So did he accept you daddy?” Samuel’s curious eyes made Seungcheol want to tease his son

“Well… I will let you know when you have grown up” Seungcheol laughed when Samuel yelled ‘noooo’ “Come on buddy, enough of love story, go to sleep, from tomorrow onwards your story will be back to your favorite fantasy stories, don’t expect love stories anymore” Seungcheol giggled when Samuel pouted

“I won’t sleep until you tell me the ending” Samuel threatened

“That will be your loss, good luck of keeping awake until 10 years later” Seungcheol laughed again when Samuel whined ‘daddy’ to him they both stop bickering for a moment when Samuel’s room door opened and someone went in

“Isn’t this past your bed time Sammy, you should sleep now” the someone smiled happily when Samuel suddenly jumped from his bed and launched himself on the person’s embrace

“Appa I miss you! Daddy is evil” Samuel clinged like a koala to his appa, hiding his face on his appa’s shoulder

“Well that’s not a nice thing to say Sammy, after all my effort to tell you the story” Seungcheol stood up while still chuckling happily “Hi baby, I thought you will only comeback tomorrow” Seungcheol approached his spouse and gave a gentle kiss on his mouth

“Nooo appa is mine, go away daddy” Samuel whined when Seungcheol wrapped his arm around his spouse body

“Are you really mad at daddy just because of that? Ouch daddy is hurt” Seungcheol faked a hurt expression

“Yeah, my grandmother is feeling much better now and I manage to get train ticket for today, what was going on anyway?” Seungcheol’s spouse asked

“Daddy didn’t want to tell me the ending of his first love story” Samuel pouted

“You can ask your appa what happened next, he knows about it too” Seungcheol chuckled while watching his spouse blushing

“Why did you tell him that kind of story, oh God I only left this house for 3 days and you already messing up our son’s mind”

“And that’s why I don’t want to tell the ending because it was –“ Seungcheol smirked when his spouse stopped whatever he was saying

“And then daddy and his first love get married to each other and have one smart son named Samuel” Jihoon said quickly

“Is that means appa is daddy’s first love?” Samuel’s eyes light up in awe, he smiled happily satisfied with the ending, after that Jihoon and Seungcheol tucked his son together to his bed, gave him a goodnight kiss and closed Samuel’s door carefully after making sure the 5 years old boy already sleeping

“Uh I won’t hesitate to kill you if you tell him what happened after that confession” Jihoon said while walking to their bedroom

“Why? It was a nice memory! It was our first time –“ Seungcheol stopped talking when suddenly Jihoon turned around and kissed him on his mouth to silent the older

“One more word and that will be you will sleep outside”

“Awwww, here my pinky promise, I miss you I don’t want to sleep alone” Seungcheol said while following Jihoon like a puppy from behind “But you didn’t forget about that time right?” Seungcheol asked out of curiosity

“Silly, who will” Jihoon rolled his eyes and shrieked when suddenly Seungcheol pushed him to the nearest wall, pinned the younger there and kissed him passionately

“How about we reminisce it together tonight?” Seungcheol winked before he hoisted the younger to his embrace