A Broken Heart
A Broken HeartA broken heart
Your figure keeps showing up
On the hill
Where everything started
An image of a person
I could easly fall for
An image of a boy
I adore to death
I am bewitched
Of a innocent boy
Of a pure hearted boy
Since
I only keeps looking at you
I follow you steps
Wherever you go
Day by day
Months pass
Spring
Summer
Autumn
Winter
Repeated so fast
But I only keeps looking at you
Then comes time
Where I could do nothing
Comes time
Where I can only be patient
Can only waiting
For the first time
Times run slowly
But I keep my faith in you
I waited and waited
Then comes news of your discharge
And I was unbelievably happy
Finally i could see you again
Finally after moments of hell
I could see the boy
I was longing since forever
But you changed
You changed in a good way
From a boy
And now you’re a man
21 months have changed you
But to me you’re still so familiar
You’re still yourself
But now you’re a man
Not anymore a boy
Not anymore an innocent boy
You are a man
And not long after
You keeps showing up
Wherever I turn
And popularity finally comes
And greet you
I am so happy for you
I congratulate you
I support you
I stay by your side
And I thought
Maybe after this you would change
Maybe you would become someone else
But i’m glad you’re not
Thanks for always being yourself
Thanks for not changing
I believe that you’re working hard
When I’m here and waited
I just couldn’t wait
For the time when I can see you again
There’s this rumor
Of you and her
And I am still denying
After all, she’s only your co-worker
Just like many others
I keep telling myself
That you’re always like that
To everyone else
She’s your friend
I believe that
And a few moments ago
I saw something
About you and her
And I still couldn’t take it
I was on the verge of tears
My mind went blank
I hoped what I see was wrong
I hoped my eyes had problem
But there it is
A letter you wrote
And it is definetly your handwriting
I could recognize it
I knew that handwriting very well
So the news weren’t rumors after all
You’re getting married
You’re engaged to her
You’re leaving me
My heart is broken
Into pieces
It torns apart
And hear it breaking
That’s when reality hit me
You’re not mine
You’re never mine
I should’ve prepared for it
I saw it coming
But i just keeps denying
I don’t want to lose you yet
I mean
It was okay if it is
Only a dating news
But it is not
It is a marriage news
And it’s going to happen soon
And i’m not prepared at all
And my heart is breaking
Screaming like crazy
Begging you not to
Begging you to say it is only a lie
It is only a joke
But who are you
To ripe my heart like this?
Who are you
To make me feel like this?
Don’t you think it is too soon?
And then I remember
You’re always like this
It is your personality
You don’t mind much about others
You only know
What your heart wants
What you wants
And it is her
And I have to admit it
It was never me in the first place
I was there only for a moment
And it hurts me to know
That you also love me
We’ve been together for a long time
There’s this attachment
But you want her
But you love her
And you want her to be in your future
In your far future
You want her to be the one
To be the who keeps you company
Until death seperates you
But I wish I could be the one
And even though it way be like a bull
But I will be
I will keeps supporting you
Love you
But I know I can’t wait
I have to stop waiting and hoping for you
And on the shore
where everything left behind
I would not leave you
I would never leave you
Instead I will create a place
Where memories of us
Where us of the future
Can be together
And on the sea of the shore
You can go and start a life
But know that
There is also a place here
Where you can turn into
Where past, present and future
Of us can meet again
For the all the love
I’ve been giving you
For all the love
You’ve given me
That place will always be yours
That place will remain hidden
That place will always be there
You can turn
And come back
Anytime
And I will abandon
Everything
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Author's note :
And here it is... just something I pour my heart into.... I am so incredebly sad right now.... and I wrote this while crying... hiks... hikss. hikss.... I still can't accept it.....
you can tell me how you feel,,, not gonna judge you whether you're happy sad angry or simlply just broken as I am... we're fans after all
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