"Does it hurt to know that she's dying?"

A question asked by almost everyone.

"Why do you care?"

Another question.

"She was cheating on you. She's the one dying, why are you the one hurting?"

A question that always, always followed the others up.

Why, Yoo Jeongyeon, did it hurt?

Minatozaki Sana cheated on you every single day.

You should be relieved; you're getting rid of her. Forever.

Yes, those were the idiots who never knew what love,

true love,

felt like.

They never knew what it felt like, to have someone by your side,

to share your joys and sorrows,

to be there when you need them.

That was what Sana did for Jeongyeon.

Always there to offer a reassuring hug,

a kiss, words of comfort.

Always there to laugh, to jump up in joy,

to look into Jeongyeon's eyes, cup her face, and say,

"I'm proud of you, Yoo Jeongyeon."

It was Jeongyeon's fault Sana ended up cheating on her. Of course, what would you expect from Sana? Her partner wasn't responding to her.

And it was Jeongyeon's fault Sana had been in that car,

the very car that flipped sixteen times over into a ditch.

Jeongyeon still loved her, why hadn't she done anything?

So for now, sitting by Sana's bed,

Jeongyeon is saying goodbye and reassuring herself it'll be fine,

as long as she's got her headphones on,

but instead of Sana,

the one dying,

being in pain,

Jeongyeon,

the one alive,

the one who was able to change this,

but she didn't,

is the one hurting.

Goodbyes and headphones are nothing.

All Jeongyeon wants is to see Sana alive and happy again.

 

As long as Jeongyeon is saying goodbye with her headphones on to a corpse,

it will not be okay.

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i wonder if any of y'all can find the references