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Can't we love ?
The windows left open overnight, making the room two times colder. I stared at the white curtain ‘s flying around with the wind. The sound of times ticking can be heard clearly in my empty room. Thats how quiet my house is since my parents passed away. I can’t seem to leave my bed. My mind, my whole body still can’t accept all of this. Mum should have screaming at me for waking up too late. I should have listen to my dad’s car engine from here as I listen to him searching for his ties or socks, saying that he is going to be late.
Why.. are they so quiet today..
I wrapped my body with the thick blanket as I keep staring to the outside. The sky doesn’t looks sunny like it always be. They looks a bit gloomy today. “It’s going to rain” I mumbled to the air. By then, the sky started to cry. The open window makes the rain stained the floor and the wall.
I sighed. Unwrapped myself from the blanket, I close the windows tight, making everything turn dead quiet. No sounds of wind, no sounds of the curtain hitting things, no sounds of the rain hitting the floor- just sounds of times ticking. I look up to the sky, hoping it will stop anytime soon.
Don’t get me wrong. I loves rain, but it seems like this beautiful weather didn’t like me instead. Why ? Hm. I wonder. Why does it rain when my brother leaves ? Why does it rain the last time I celebrated my birthday with my parents, ruining all of the surprises, the gifts and the cakes ? Why does it rain when my parents was dying ?
Why does it rain ?
I bit my lips as I hold onto my breath. Don’t think. Don’t cry. You’re okay. I tell myself when I get too deep with my feelings. I closed my eyes tight as I hold onto something, anything to distract myself. The phone suddenly rings, making me open my eyes and come to the reality. My eyes met with the falling rain that doesn’t seem to stop at any times.
“Hello ?”
“Mi, are you okay there ?” Reen, my bestfriend ask. She have been doing the same thing everyday since the day my parents gone. Aside from my long lost brother, she is all I have right now. I might break apart if its not for her. “I’m okay”
“It’s raining. I was thinking of coming over for netflix”
“Sure, come over when its stop raining. Don’t worry about me”
“Uh.. Mi ?”
“Yes Reen ?”
“Please don’t cry ?” She said and I laugh it off. “I didn’t” I said and I can almost feels she’s smiling from the other line. “Good. Big girl don’t cry, remember ?”
“I know, you told me before”
“Good thing you remember. I will hang up now- oh do you want anything ? Pizza ? Chicken ?”
“Both” I said and we both agreed to the idea. “Ofcourse, when it’s raining all we need are food” I just smiles to whatever she’s saying until she finally hang up. I put the phone away and take a glance to outside and it’s still raining.
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“There’s no line for internet !” I heard Reen whined from the living room and shook my head, “We can just watch dramas on tv” I said as I put our drinks on the table.
“But I want to watch 13 reasons why !”
“Let’s watch it later, alright ? Just turn on the tv and watch anything”
She keep on whining things but still grabbing the remote control and look fo
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