"You son of a ! Lagi mo nalang tong ginawa sa mahal ko! " He slapped me HARD

It's not the slap that stings me that word he said "MAHAL KO" alam kong kasalanan ko rin naman kung siya nagkakaganito.

"Please J-jacob m-maniwaa ka sakin wala akong ginawa" pagmamakaawa ko sa kanya he was pulling my hair that cause me to twitch.

" THAT IS LYING! HE POURED MY COFFEE ON MY FACE!" sabi ng kabit niyang nagpapekeng umiyak.

"LOOK WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO HER!KITA MO ANONG GINAWA MO HUH?! KYLEE!!" i look at him pleading sana naman paniwalaan mo ako jacob.

"J-jacob *huk* d-di ako gumawa ni-niyan" he did'nt isten instead he dragged me into the kitchen. Kinabahan ako sa gagawin niya. "J-jacob a-anong gagawin m-mo?" sabi ko halos mapiyok nako sa kakaiyak.

"Pagbabayaran mo ang ginawa mo kay Joanna" kinuha niya ang coffee na hawak niya and..Sinampas niya sakin i can't help it but scream in pain i can see drops of blood on the floor.

I see in there faces na tuwang-tuwa silang naghihirap ako..

"Get out of  my sight!! now! you stupid !!" He pushed me on the floor

and i hurriedly went upstairs. Naramdam na ramdam ko ang pagkahilo

Dumeretso ako sa Bathroom and i looked at the mirror puro pasa at sugat ang nasa katawan ko. I can't even recognize myself anymore.

I smiled.

I wish i could die.

I am Kaye Lee Grey i'm an one of the unlucky person in this world my parents  treat me like a pig. Lumaki akong miserable ang buhay sometimes i wish i could die.

Then i got engaged to a someone that could change my life. but i was wrong

it became worst. it is more than a hell.

I became a slave to my own husband.

Lagi niya akong sinasaktan physically mentally and emotionally.

parang di ko na kakayanin.

 

Fast Forward

"Ohhh yeah that's right baby harder!! More!!"

di ko nanaman maiwasan na masktan  seeing your love one in bed with another girl.

The girl he loves.

what's my purpose here in this earth?

Parang gusto ko ng magpahinga . Im getting tired

Dumating ang mga buwan paulit-ulit parin ang nangyayari sa buhay ko

i looked around the house oo mag-isa lang ako ngayon dito sa bahay

nasa trabaho ang asawa ko .

*Knock knock*

Pumunta ako sa pintuan namin at pag bukas ko..... My tear fell

"J-jin" tumakbo ako at niyakap siya ng mahigpit.

"kumusta kana?" i just smiled at him but a fake one

"I know your not okey" he gave me a stare kaya tumahimik nalang ako .

Magdamag kaming nagkukwentuhan ni Jin. Lumipas ang ilang oras ay nagpaalam na siyang umalis. 
"Kailangan ko nang umuwi ky hinahanap nako ng misis ko"

"Oh sige mag ingat ka jin ikumusta mo nalang ako sa asawa mo ah?" Tumango lang siya at umalis na .
Pagkaalis ni Jin ay pumunta na ako sa kusina para maghanda para kay Jacob.

Ilang minuto ay maynarinig akong yabag sa pintuan . At nakita ko si Jacob galit na galit sakin. Nakaramdam ako ng takot sa kanya.

"Ang lakas ng loob mong landiin ang kapatid ko noh??!! YOU !! Di ka pa ba nakuntento?!!! Pati kapatid ko nilalandi mo?!! Ano?!! Masarap ba siya?!" Sigaw niya sakin habang hawak niya ng buhok ko
"A-aray! J-jacob d-di ko magagawa yun p-please tama na "

"YOU ING LIAR!!! Mas magaling ba siya huh?!!! Oh right your a kahit sino lang pala ang pinapatulan mo well lets see" he dragged me into his room and ripped off my clothes and every piece of me i felt really broken ad destroyed.

"Youre not a you in !!"

Yes im not a anymore i was by my father when i was 18 years old. He keep banging me until he got tired.

Kinabukasan ay bumangon ako ng maaga kahit masakit ang katawan ko im really in sore. Pero pinilit ko ang aking sarili baka magagalit nanaman si jacob sakin.

Months later ganun parin ang estado ng buhay namin ni jacob. Paminsan minsan ay nakakaramdam ako ng pagsasakit ng ulo ko at minsan naman ay sumusuka ako ng dugo.

Natakot akong magpahospital baka sasabihan lang ako ni Jacob na nag iinarte lang ako .

"Ohhh baby yes more!!! " 
Halos ungol lang ang naririnig ko sa buong bahay.
Nasasaktan nanaman ako. 
Lagi nalang ganito ang nararamdaman ko.

Im getting weaker and weaker di ko alam kung bakit. Para akong nababaliw minsan ay sinugat sugatan ko nalang ang aking sarili upang maibsan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. I know it sounds immature but yeah it's crazy. i can't handle it anymore.

"Nobody can tell what I suffer! But it is always so. Those who do not complain are never pitied." 

"Babe that was great see you next week okey?" she gave jacob a peck on the lips tsaka umalis.

Naiingit ako sa kanya ' that should be me' ako dapat ang nasa posistion niya ngayon .

But i have no rights dahil simula palang talo na ako.

"I drew him in my world;
I write him in my lines,
I want to be his girl,
he was never meant as mine.

I drew him in my world;
He is always on my mind;
I draw his every line.
It hurts when he's unkind.

I drew him in my world;
I draw him all the time,
but I don't know where to draw the line." 
― Lang Leav

Fast Forward~

"Well ill go straight to the point now Kylee.. May tumor ka sa utat  most common symptoms of a brain tumour are headaches and fits (seizures). ... Some symptoms are causedby the growing tumour causing pressure inside the skull. You may hear this called raised intracranial pressure. This causesheadaches, sickness and drowsiness" sabi ng doctor sakin.

Parang binuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig ng dahil sa naaman ko.

"And sad to say you only have 10 months left im sorry kylee" I feel numb naging manhid lahat ng katawan ko. Tila ng niisang luha ang bumagsak sa mga pisngi ko.

"A-ah sige salamat po" I decided to go home. Tulala parin ako hanggang nakauwi ako.

i was about to open the door the PAK!!

A crispy slap landed on my face. i saw jacob's eyes darkens and i can smellthe strong alcohol on his breath.

"SAN KA GALING!! " halatang lasing na asing na ito but he grabbed my neck more like choking me .

"a-aray! J-jacob m-masakit! Please t-tama na "pagmamakaawa ko sa kanya umiyak na ko ng umiyak hanggang sa binitawan niya ko.

"SANA WALA KA NA SA BUHAY! SANA MAMATAY KA NA KYLEE! YOU RUINED ME ! I LOATHE YOU !!" sigaw niya sakin .

Tumayo ako at hinarap siya

"Wag kang mag-alala jacob m-malapit na~" unti-unting nanuyo ang lalamunan ko

"K-konting tiis nalang j-jacob matutupad di yang kahilingan mo pero sa ngayon ay tiisin mo muna ah?" ngumiti ako sa kanya ng mapait.

Pero tinaikuran niya ang ako.

Simula nung nangyari ay umiiwas na ako kay Jacob. Naramdam ko ring unti-unti akong nanghihina at napapadalas ang pagsusuka ko ng dugo.

It's hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but it's harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. 

Nakita ko si jacob pababa ng hagdanan

"J-jacob s-san ka pupunta?"tanong ko sa kanya

"Aalis ako i'll be leaving for 6 months you can do what ever you want to do " i tried to stop pero siya na mismo ang umalis.

Hearing something that absolutely kills you inside,and having to act like you'refine. 

Fast Forward

Dumaan nanaman ang ilang buwan 2 buwan nalang malapit na

Lumipas ang mga buwan ay nag-iisa lang ako dito sa bahay halos mabaliw ko sa sobrang lungkot. 




 

3rd person's POV

Habang si Kylee ay naghihirap si Jacob naman ay sayang-saya naman dahil wala siya ngayon sa bahay. Pitong buwan mula umalis si jacob sa kanilang bahay ay di niya tinatawagan si Kylee kahit kumustahin niya dahil busing-busy ito sa nobya.

"Babe di ba sabi mo sakin di mo mahal ang asawa why don't you file an annulmate para maging legal na tayo " She pouted

Bigla namang napaisip si Jacob at "Don't worry babe our marriage is not even legal walang bisa ang kasal namin"

[CL] You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy] It seems that we're already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can't turn back?

[Dara] I'm the only one hurting tonight

[Bom] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn't deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom] Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it's a lie, please tell me it isn't so
I can do better now, though we can't meet again

[Dara] I'm the only one in pain tonight

[CL] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You're no longer your old self
[CL] Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara] Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom] No way, I can't recognize
You're not mine anymore

[Dara] Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can't you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can't you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can't you keep loving me?

[Bom] Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
[Minzy] It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] It hurts, it hurts
[CL] It hurts, it hurts
 

Habang nilinis ni Kylee ang kwarto ni Jacob ay may nakita siyang Brown Envelope na may lamang dokumento. kinuha niya ito at binasa at habang binabasa niya ito ay biglang nanlamig ang kanyang katawan unti-unting tumulo ang kanyang mga luha.

Akala niya may pag-asa pang maging okey ang kanilang relasyon. Pero nabigo siya

'Wala naba talagang pag-asa to?'

'siguro ito na ang sign para sumuko nako'

'napapagod nako'

Dumating ang ilang araw ay lalong nalulungkot si kylee.

My tears remember
It fills up your seat again
I try erasing but I can't erase you
You've become my everything

Matutong sumuko sa mga bagay na ikaw na ang sinukuan. Simulan ng pahalagahan ang mga bagay na dapat una palang pinahalagan mo na. 

You, I can't see you, I can't hear you

But I'm okay
Goodbyes are sad, my heart aches
But if you are happy, if you can smile, then I...

Masyado nakong nasasaktan at napapagod narin ako.

I will miss you the more I erase you
I will shed more tears than today
Like fate, I won't ever have anyone like you
Only you, only you
As much as my tears, I hope you are happy
Good bye my love

Kaya napagdesisyunan ko nang...

My heart already knew
This feeling of loneliness that's about to explode
I try to hide it but I can't hide it
You've become my heart

You, I can't have you, I can't touch you
But I'm okay
Endless pain, tears shed again
But if you are happy, if you can smile, then I...

I will miss you the more I erase you
I will shed more tears than today
Like fate, I won't ever have anyone like you
Only you, only you
As much as my tears, I hope you are happy

You will think of me at least once
That's all I need, until the day we meet again
I'll wait, it's only a momentary goodbye
Good bye my love

Putulin ang aking buhay.. tutal he wished for it he want me out of his

kaya ako nalang mismo ang gagawa ng paraan.

I found a gun on jacob's room

I started crying and crying

"It is not seen as insane when a fighter, under an attack that will inevitable lead to his death, chooses to take his own life first. In fact, this act has been encouraged for centuries, and is accepted even now as an honorable reason to do the deed. How is it any different when you are under attack by your own mind?" 
― , Emilie Autumn

 

"Jacob... patawad kung gagawin ko to sayo patawarin mo ko kung sinira ko ang buhay mo patawad siguro sasaya kana pag wala nako diba ito ang gusto mo? HAHAHA diba gusto mokong mamatay? Wish granted aalis nako sa buhay mo . M-mahal na m-mahal kita jacob p-patawad"

I placed the gun on my mouth...

So this is it... Paalam Jacob I will never forget you.

 

I slowly pulled the trigger and 



















 

BANG!!

I was laying on the bed and everything i see is turning white.

"KYLEEEEE!!!!"

Jin's Pov

Ilang buwan lumipas ay wala akong narinig mula kay kylee... Im getting worried

Naawa nako sa bestfriend ko. so i planned to visit her with my wife

"Hon we should bring her some foods" hay kahit kailan talaga ay napabait ng asawa ko.

"Sure hon kylee bilhan natin siya ng cheese cake she loves that"

Kaya pumunta kami sa shop at binilhan namin si Kylee ng paboritong cake niya.

at nang nakarating kami sa bahay ni kylee.

it's been quiet

"Kylee?"

We search kylee everywhere in the house

then suddenly we heard a loud bang inside the room.

Agad kaming pumunta sa kwarto ni kylee at

 

"KYLEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!"

3rd person's pov

   

Agad nilang sinugod si kylee sa ospital.

"Doc how is she?" tanong ng asawa ni jacob sa doktor

"The baby is fine but the patient .... she did'nt make it im sorry maam she lost a lot of blood at di na niya kinaya .. we did everything but she's gone if you want to see the baby she's in the ICU"

Tila nagulat ang lahat sa balita biglang gumuho ang mundo nila.

Fast Forward

dumaan ang maraming buwan mula sa pagkamatay ni kylee preskong-presko parin ang nangyare .

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Nagpasyang umuwi si Jacob sa bahay nila pero wala paring siyang alam sa mga nangyayari.

Nakarating siya sa bahay tila tahimik ang paligid ng bahay.

"KYLEE" sigaw niya ngunit walang kylee ang nakikita niya.

Kaya pumunta siya sa kwarto at nakita niya ang isang envelope na may laman na resulta.

"Bat umuwi kapa?" isang boses ang narinig niya mula sa likod.

"Nasan si kylee" tanong ni jacob sa kanyang kapatid.

"Wala na si kylee matagal ng wala si kylee!!" sinuntok niya si jacob

"DIBA ITO ANG GUSTO MO?!! ANG MAWALA SIYA?! DIBA !? DAPAT MAG SAYA KANA! ALAM MO BANG HABANG NAGHIHIRAP SI KYLEE DITO AY SAYANG-SAYA KA KASAMA ANG KABIT MO! NI HINDI MO ALAM NA MAY SAKIT SI KYLEE! WALA KANG ALAM!Gusto mong malaman san siya? PATAY na si kylee bakit? dahil di na niya kinaya!! She cut her life!" sigaw ni jin sa kapatid

tila parang nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig si Jacob sa narinig niya tungkol sa kanyang asawa.

"tanging anak niyo nalang ang naging alaala ni kylee baka gusto mong bisitahin ang anak mo nandun siya sa ospital."

Lalong nagulat si Jacob sa naging balita na may anak pala sila.

Agad pumunta sa Ospital si Jacob at nakita niya ang kanyang anak.

Justin's Pov
Anak? WTF? S-si kylee patay na? 
What the heck is happening here!!

I looked around there's no sign of kylee. I went to her room i saw a picture of her with a candle and a Jar?

Lumapit ako para tignan to' And i saw the two brown envelopes. 
Wait? This is our fake marriage contract san niya to kinuha? 
And I opened the other envelope

'A medical record?'

I read it
 

T-tumour? May tumour si Kylee i keep scanning and i saw an ultrasound a picture of a baby about 5 months.  
Wait what? She has tumour but she's also pregnant?

I rushed down to the hospital. 
At nang nakarating na ko sa NICU 
I saw a little baby inside an incubator.

"Sir? May i help you?" Sabi ng nurse

"M-may i see the baby? I-I'm the father"

She guided me inside the NICU

I saw a little baby about a size of a coca cola bottle. I held it's tiny hand he didn't let go of my hand. I smiled

"Hi baby how are you? D-daddy's here" parang nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko habang binigkas ako ang salitang "Daddy"

I felt a guilt inside me Urgh ! Damn it! But I don't love her!

"Sir nandoon pa yung isang baby niyo" the nurse mouthed and i got shocked

I have a twin baby? 
And i walk towards the other incubator i saw another little baby. It looks like me

My heart beats faster and faster.

"Mr. Jacob Sy, Can you fill up the birth certificates?" The doctor said and i followed him. 

" Ion Miguel Sy and Xion Miguel Sy that's their names"

8 Months Later

Time flies and it's been months since the incident happened. My son are all grown up and they can able to talk like "Dada or Daddy"

I hired two nannies for my sons dahil may trabaho ako and sometimes i let them visit to my office. 
I just arrived home 🏡 and i saw my sons crawling on a rubber mat at the living room. 
"D-dada!" Xion looked at me and giggling.

"Sons" i called them at lumapit na ako sa kanila. "Kumusta ang mga anak ko?" I ask keana and megan 

"Naku sir! Ang kukulit ng mga anak niyo tsaka si Xion tinubuan na ng maliit na ngipin at si Ion naman hyper masyado" i smiled

Binuhat ko ang mga anak ko "D-daddy!Hihihi!"

I admit pinagsisihan ko ang ginawa ko sa asawa ko. And i know to that it was bound to happened kung nasan man siya ngayon i hope she's happy.

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