Ever since Yongguk has been gone Himchan had a lonely feeling. Hes happy Yongguk is getting help though everything doesnt feel right with him gone. He doesn't want to fill Yongguks shoes he wants his boyfriend back. He loves the calls he gets after performances because it's always Yongguk being himself with sweet comments on how they did. This time thought Himchan got no call. He was waiting and waiting but got nothing. After The Show, he went straight to his room as it was Daehyun and Youngjae's turn to cook dinner. Himchan sat in his room ready to cry. He wasn't sure if Yongguk forgot about him or if he found someone else to love. He was most worried that Yongguk wasnt doing well. He sat on the balcony looking out at the full moon eith the beautiful stats on the sides. Tears steamed down his soft cheeks, not sure of anything anymore. He got a knock on the door and it was Jongup

"Hyung dinner so ready"

He nodded and shood him without turning around. Jongup walked back to the kitchen and grabbed Himchans plate and a soda.

"Here's your dinner" he walked over and set it down on the table in Himchan and Yongguks room.

"Thank you" his voice cracked since he was still crying"

"Your welcome hyung" he walked out and closed the door. 

He hated seeing his friend upset. Everyone did. Himchan has been so lonely in his room. He was to used to cuddling with Yongguk day and night. He didn't have that same warm feeling when he'd wake up or go to sleep. Most nights he'd cry himself to sleep, to worried about Yongguk. He took his food and sat back at his spot and kept crying as he ate. He promised Yongguk he'd eat all his dinner. Himchan hated eating well because he wanted to lose weight. He heard a knock on the door and the door