the hosts asks which member they'd swap bodies with. jeongyeon says momo, to know what it's like to be able to dance well. chaeyoung says tzuyu, to know what it feels like to be tall. nayeon says dahyun should swap with mina, to know what it's like to keep quiet for once. jihyo laughs heartily at nayeon's words but turns dry when she hears dahyun's answer.

"i want to swap with jihyo unnie." the members wait with anticipation for her reasoning while jihyo looks at dahyun with wide eyes. "well, i want to know what it's like to be a leader and boss all the members around. plus, i get to tell nayeon unnie off without thinking much about honorifics" everyone laughs at her answer and nayeon tells dahyun that she better watch it when they get back to the dorm. jihyo remains silent, eyes trained on her sneakers. dahyun's words ring in her ear and she has this weird feeling in her stomach. the word "leader" has always been a weird word to her, no matter how many times she has introduced herself as twice's leader. she wonders why would dahyun want to take up such a burdensome and stressful title. she doesn't realize she was spacing out until tzuyu taps a finger on her thigh.  "you okay there unnie?" jihyo turns to the younger girl, who was looking at her with soft eyes and nodded. "yeah, i'm fine."   ✧   the laptop suddenly feels heavy on jihyo's lap as she types in "twice live performance" in the search box. her fingers have a weird itch as she clicks on the first one, a recent video of their TT stage at Music Bank. she doesn't bother to watch the performance as she's seen it over and over, probably has it memorized in her brain, during pre recording two days ago. instead she pauses the video and scrolls down towards the comment section. eyes hurriedly scanning, and at last she sees one.   "ahhh everyone in twice is so pretty except jihyo :( if she could lose a bit of weight, she'd fit perfectly."   and another one.   "can jihyo even sing well? i can hear nayeon and mina's voice clearly but jihyo??? what's the point if she can't sing live? a useless leader indeed."   she scrolls further and further, reading every negative comment her eyes find, each one feeding her hunger to find more. she's 10 comments in when she realizes what she was doing and shuts her laptop, pushing it away from her.  "god, what is wrong with me?"   ✧   jihyo thinks the member's don't notice but