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ONE MORE CHANCE

My broken heart

the tainted memories of our days

the way you looked at me

 I hate it all

I hate you.

How insecure we felt about each other

how hard I tried to save our love

I regretted it all

My heart is now closed

we can’t turn back

we only caused each other pain

I hate those days

I hate myself for being this way

Will we understand each other someday?

even if that ever happen

I hate myself for being this way

My love for you was always sincere

and I believe you were the same once

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I hate you – Urban Zakapa

“Dara” He said, he was surprised to see her again. It’s been 6 months since they broke up.

“Hi She saiad nervously, she missed him so much. Its been 6 months since the last time they saw each other.

“What are you doing here? Are you going to report something?” He said

“No, I am here to visit you” She said

He thought when they broke up that would be the last time she will see her “Oh, its been a long time coming neh” He said

“Yes, got kinda busy with work. By the way, I have food for you and your police mates to eat” She said while handling the food to Donghae

“Thank you, for sure they’ll like this. You know, you don’t have to do this” He said

“Its okay. I like to do this” She said

Dara and Donghae talked for a little while.

“Thank you for visiting and for these (food) I need to go back in the office, I still have a lot of work to finish” He said

“I understand, your welcome. Take care Hae” She said

“I will wait for you” She whispered while looking at him walking back at the Police camp

Weeks has passed Dara has been consistent in visiting Donghae and sending foods for him and his police mates.

“Dara, why are you doing this?” He said who looks so serious and looks like he does not like what Dara is doing.

“What do you mean” She said

“You visiting me here every week, sending foods every day even though you’re not here in Korea. Why? “

“Hae..”

“You don’t have to do this”

“I want to do this”

“You don’t have to do these, I am not your responsibility and let me just remind you, we’re no longer together. And if you forget also it was YOU who ended it” He said

“Hae, I want you back. If I need to crawl just to get you back, I will. I will do everything just to prove to you that this time I will not mess up. Just give me a chance” Dara said looking straight to Donghae’s eyes hoping that he’ll give her a chance.

“Chance? Now that I’m already moving on. Dara, don’t you think you’re already too late for that? I am okay now” He said

“Hae please, I promise I will wait for you. I will not fool around. I will be brave, I don’t care what others will say. I will not let sajangnim control our relationship, if you want us to admit our relationship then let’s do it just come back to me. I love you Hae, so much” She says while hugging Donghae

“Dara, if you really love me you wouldn’t ask for a break up, no matter how hard our situation before. You will not let other people ruin what we have.

I’m sorry, I already learned how to live my life without you” He said while removing Dara’s embrace

“Hae, tell me what do I need to do for you to come back to me, just give me a chance, chance to prove to you that  this time I will not hurt you. Hae please”

“I don’t want you to do anything, its not the same anymore, its different now”

“No, Donghae please”

“3 years Sandara, 3 years and you just throw it all away like it was nothing and now you’re here asking me to take you back, Wow, then what? What if you just want me back because you know you will always have a home in me? What if you only want me back because you are lonely? What if you only want me back for the wrongest reasons? What if it will just end up the way it did before? I cannot afford to get hurt again; I’m tired of the same happening again and again. Before I had a lot of reasons to give up on you, but I still chose to stay and you, you have all the reasons to stay and fight for our relationship but what did you do? You give up. You asked for that stupid break up” He said controlling himself to burst he will not deny he is  srill mad everytime he remember the night she asked for break up

“Before I always thought it was going to be you and me until the end… but then one day we went from fighting for each other to fighting from each other. I don’t think getting back to each other is the best thing to do. Our word has changed. Your world never accepted me and my world now… it doesn’t include you anymore. We can’t turn back now, we will only cause more pain to each other if we did.

“When you asked for the break up, I give that to you even though that means breaking my heart because you said that’s what you wanted. Now this time it’s me, let me live my life away from you, don’t ever visit me again. Stop whatever you’re doing; there is no chance for us to be together again. I am starting a new life without you. Please” He said and starts to walk away from her and the tears that he controls from falling starts to fall

“I’m sorry Dara but I need to do this for myself”

Hyesun saw her best friend standing at the balcony of their house looking so sad. Sandara decided to go to the newlywed’s house after what happened at Donghae’s camp.

She knows if she wants to cry all night this is the right place to go.

“You’re not thinking of jumping right?” She said of course she is just joking about jumping of the building she just wants to lessen the pain that her best friend is feeling now

Sandara looked at Hyesun and hugged her and started to cry

“aigoo. uri ssan-san” Hyesun said while hugging and rubbing her back to comfort her.

Hyesun don’t need to ask what happen as she already know just by looking at her best friend for 12 years that she is in pain and broken hearted and she needs her.

“Just cry as long as you want, I will be here for you”

“Just when I’m ready to fight for him, that’s when he give up on me”

“Let’s go inside and talk about this its cold here, and some paparazzi might capture you crying here and you don’t want to be the headline tomorrow and make your precious fans worry”

Dara tod Hyesun what happen on how she begged for Donghae  to accept her again and on how Donghae rejected her for the first time.

“Donghae love you so much, for him to say that and reject you he is hurt so much by thye break up and pain is so powerful it can change a person and that’s what happened to him.”

“Are you okay?” Siwon said sitting beside his best friend inside their camp dorm “ I saw what happened earlier about you and Dara”

“I hurt her” Donghae said while staring at the photo (him and Dara) displayed beside their television

“I made her cry, I hurt her” He says while crying

“Donghae is this really what you want? Because obviously you still love her, why not just go back to her”

“I don’t know, all I know is I need this, I need to away from her. This (pointing to his mind) says come back to her but this, this (pointing to his heart) says stop.

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