One last lie

“Rainbow” I yell . Tracking was unlikely for a lazy person like me. But nevertheless I came because my friend Taehyung has been begging me ever since we graduated high school . I was that quiet student who did nothing but read books in a corner. I had no friends since I transferred schools like a million times. I don’t know what my parents work as. I have no clue. They say it’s confidential. From the age of 6 my mom only showed me her face on the weekends. I wasn’t allowed to go out and chill like others. I didn’t have a normal life. No socialization . No human interaction. My only friend was my books.  A lot of them. I read, read, and read. I befriended every character in  every book. In my teenage I shifted to my grandma’s house . She was an old gentle lady who gave me my space. She respected my freedom. In my whole teenage years, I read romance novels. It all seemed so perfect in those  . So beautiful.

At school I was a top student. People only talked to me to ask for homework. I never welcomed anyone in my little world. No one but him. He with the brown hair. He with the plum lips. He with lotus eyes. HIM. He was the first person I ever interacted with . My first friend , Jungkook . We had something more than friendship that i don't want to remember now. He was so beautiful ,but just then, the reality hits me back and I stifle a cry on remembering what he has done to me. The first person I trusted , betrayal the feeling is so contaminating. “ Shae Rin why are you so lost ? Didn’t you want to see the rainbows? Come, let’s take a pic before it disappears!” he yelled . This boy I met him in a book club, which I joined on Jungkook’s and my grandma’s insistence I doubted earlier if this was one of jungkook’s many traps. Eventually I had to cancel all of my doubts on seeing Taehyung’s sincerity . After a few meetings at the book club, we started meeting often. He said that he doesn't like reading but because his older brother is way too smart, he needed to do something productive to support his reputation. His elder brother, gosh that guy, he is such a genius . I remember my first meeting with him. He was my senior and the teacher assigned him to help me with math. His english was so perfect .The way he said “Hi! I am Kim Namjoon and its pleasure meeting you” I felt like he was singing to me.

“Shea Rin, are you trying to ignore your cute oppa?”. Tae he is so cute lol. Honestly I would have broken and probably have done something horrible that night if it wasn't for him to save me. That night when jungkook almost ……..

“Enough Shea let’s go”. Tae grabs my hand and drags me along until we reach the top of the cliff.

“Tae oppa this cliff its….”. he cuts me of “shh….Shea you have to forget about your ugly past and some ugly people , come here” and he engulfs me in a hug. I can't help but cry on reflecting Tae’s words. “Oppa” I gasp in my cries. He engulfs me tighter. “shh Shea it's okay dont worry .I am here for you now. No monster could do anything to my precious little dongsaeng.”

“ But oppa you are just a year older than me .”

“Then why do you call me oppa?” he asks.

“Umm...because you said it's cute and you like me too say that.” I replied

Then he pulled my cheek and smiled. We sat in the meadow and admired the rainbow. For this moment I just want to forget everything. For this moment I just want to live like I have a normal life.

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Tae just dropped me home. He is always so caring. Even after all what i gave him is trouble yet he insists on spending most of his time with me. It is admirable how he stays unaffected from all the rumours in the university . Rumours on how he is dating me. On how I am a psychopath whose care he is taking of so dedicatedly. He never talks to anyone but me. I sometimes wonder how similar Tae and my relation is to the relation between me and my books.

“Shae ! Shae! Guess what ?” Tae startled me.

“Um OPPA didn't you like leave?”I enquire.

“Naah I was with Grandmoni ,she says you haven't been eating well! I am angry!”. He makes a poker face.

“Oh….that , I just ,I just don't feel like eating…” Iget quiet.

“Hey! Shae there is a week’s vacation from tomorrow!” he announced joyfully

I kept quiet staring outside the window . I didn't want a vacation . I wanted to keep myself busy . A vacation would bring all those terrible memories back .

“Shae? Gwenchana?(are you okay)”

I wipe my tears and turn to him “Yes OPPA I'm fine .”

“Oh pabo Shaerinnie are you crying again”. He came towards me hugging me tightly . Like he  would never let go.

I liked it when he hugged me this was the only comforting feeling left on earth. We stayed like that for few minutes then he pulled out and said “Okay Shae, I'll be leaving now it's kinda late and hyung will kill me you know !”. I nodded in response and he smiled at me. I smiled back . “Annyeong” I waved my hand .

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Nights were hollow and days were dull. I wish I could just end this meaningless life . It wouldn't have hurt if it was someone else. Why Jungkook ? Why would you ? The weirdest thing was that he never showed up his face to me after that. I still believe he might have an explanation but then I stop feeding myself with lies.

Since it's vacation I don't have university classes but I still have to attend the piano sessions. It's not that I was some amazing pianist, I just likes piano and took piano as a small major in instruments. I texted Tae to tell him that I am leaving.

^ hey tae I'll be leaving for piano sessions . I'll catch up with you later^.^

xshae

He replied, oh I thought we could spend time together at the park but it's okay I'll be waiting for you outside the campus! Have fun !

Xtae

I answered

OPPA it's okay you don't have to stay  waiting

xshae

He didn't reply . I took a shower and dressed up in denim high waist shorts and red sweatshirt. I put on my beanie and grab my bag. I say bye to grandmoni and walk out . I ride my bike to the university campus .

I  Reach at 10:44am  and walk in . The piano class is mostly for my passion of playing music as it helps me relax and forget reality for few seconds .Right  now that's what I need the most. We usually get a new badge every year. I wonder what this year's badge would be.

I walk up to the class. It's all empty so I go sit in front of a piano and start playing my favorite piece by beethoven .  My fingers move on the keys so smoothly. I play without a single break until I hear sounds of hands clapping.I immediately stop and look around to find Min Yoongi . What is he doing here? God he is the biggest bully of our college . People fear him. Until now I have only heard stories about him . Never faced him in real life. He looks so cute compared to all the other descriptions I have hallucinated in my mind. I look down at the floor and walk toward the nearest desk... I hope none of them are true. He and Tae have been rivals since high school. Their hatred is known to the entire campus.

“ Oh aren't you the little girlfriend of that Kim Taehyung?” he asks more like an announcement.
I quietly move towards the last desk as his gaze follows my every moment. “ Are you trying to like ignore me?” he hisses. I decide to give a short reply “ I am not his girlfriend, and you have no idea about my life so don't make false assumptions.” I reply.  “ Ya I am not the only one who says this . The entire school knows about it .” he announces again. “It's not like anyone knows my situation, and anyway why should I provide justifications. You don't know anything so assume whatever you like . I don't care.” I make my attempt to end this conversation. I look out from the window and after a while take my book out. I see Min Yoongi walking towards the piano. I am amazed I never even expected him to be that amazingly amazing at it. Every key he presses produces music effortlessly. It's so melodious that I feel like singing along. Then I suddenly get distracted by the beep on my phone. I take my phone out of my bag to see who is it.

hey! Shae is everything alright?

xtae

umm ya its all good,but…

xshae

what is it?

xtae

I take my time thinking if i should tell him about Yoongi, but then I am interrupted by a familiar voice “Choi Shae Rin phone in the bag .” its Ms.Lee, our piano teacher. I know Tae would get mad , but I don't have a choice to answer him. I nod and switch my phone off. “Okay!  So today we will do a new piece by  Chopin - March Funèbre.”it’s one of the pieces I love.

“But this piece requires you to work in pairs. I see everyone pairing with each other” She adds. Usually I pair with Tae , but he isn't a part of the piano class. Finally I look around and I am all alone. Before I could raise my hand to tell Ms.Lee, the door slams open . Min Yoongi with an untucked shirt pops in. “Sorry I was in the bathroom.” When did he even leave the room I ask myself. “Okay go work with Shae Rin. She will explain you the work.” I see him walking towards me.“I am surprised no one paired up with you, I mean nice legs.” What is this a nightmare? I shift myself under the table to block the view of my legs.

“Chill I was kidding.” he chuckles.

“This is a piece by Chopin - March Funèbre and we are suppose to be working on this.” I say looking on the notes . He suddenly holds my hand and I'm too frozen to resist. He leans in the crook of my neck . His nose brushes my cheek and there is electric fields working in my body.
"Trust me when I say 'I know everything.' And miss beautiful legs by everything I mean everything." He whispers. There are chills going through my spine. I gasp and take few minutes to process everything,  and I gulp and in extreme fear I  ask him "Min Yoongi.......what-what do you mean by you know everything?"

He takes a pause and teasingly whispers " Jeon Jungkook ,that's the name right? "
I am covered in 100 layers of fear and now I am sweating badly. No one but me knows his full name . It wasn't even there in the school records. How ? This is killing me .