"wah..."

all the bangtan members were on a quiet cruise ship all to themselves as a gift for winning daesang award 
the scenery was so beautiful as the ship slowly moved in the water making hush noises like pebbles falling in water or a slow waterfall

it was dark enough to see the stars but enough light to see yoongi's hair blowing in the wing

everyone was inside the ship lounge having fun

everyone but yoongi and jimin

they put their hands on the railing of the cruise and watched the scenery 

queitly laying on the cold metal railing

"...this scenery--" said yoongi said slowly
jimin looked at him to the side

"--isn't it the most beautiful thing you have ever seen" yoongi said it so smoothly, you could feel the little smile on his face without even looking

jimin looked down at the floor 
"...." he then looked at the scenery and back at yoongi who was still dumb founded at the scenery

"... no" said jimin quietly

"i've seen more beautiful things..."

jimin looked at yoongi's hair and shining side profile right next to the scenery

3 seconds went by until yoongi was payin attention

"hm..?" said yoongi confusingly but not really giving all his focus to jimin

"what did you say?" yoongi was giving him his full attention this time

"sorry jiminie i wasnt really listening---" yoongi noticed the expression on jimin's face

tired

Jimin's eyes were half closed and his lips were slightly parted

"hey jimi--"

THUMP-- Jimin faltered and fell to the ground 

"JIMIN--- GUYS, HYUNG COME OUTSIDE HURRY UP"

Yoongi was calling for help and picked up Jimin right away

Light

Yoongi was confused, he weighed almost as much as a pillow, his body was so fragile-- but it didn't make sense.

how long was he like this--

Namjoon came outside

"WH--what happened !?!?"

"Ah !! --- I don't know! Jimin was.. he said something but I wasnt really listening I ju--"

the rest of the members came to see what was all the commotion

"what happened????!?!" jungkook screamed like someone died

"okay okay calm down" said PD from the door

"bring him inside"
Yoongi put him down carefully on the couch.

The director's lady friend touched Jimin's head

"ngg..." Jimin moved a bit.

"He'll be fine, don't worry, he's just tired."

"ah... thank so you much noona" said jungkook

the lady smiled and then she looked at yoongi who still had the expression of fear

"ah--- may I ask... when was the last time he ate?"

Yoongi looked up "huh?"

last time he ate...?

"well----" said hoseok 

....

no one could remember.

after a while everyone went to their rooms 

everyoene buy yoongi who sat next to the couch jimin was on..

"jiminnie..."

yoongi put his hand on jimin's head and slowly moved his dainty fingers through his silky hair

"im sorry....."

yoongi closed his eyes

"hyung----" the famliar voice of an obnoxious brat appeared

but it sounded frail, weak and tired

yoongi opened his eyes and looked up

[1 week ago]

"Jimin we are leaving okay!!" said Seokjin

"okay !! byee hyung!" said Jimin cheerfully, all the bangtan members but him left the house to go to errands and what not

"will you be okay....?" said Yoongi

"yeah ill be fine hyung, jeez you guys treat me like a baby :((!!" said jimin laughing with a hint of pout

"haha, stupid brat" yoongi said and went out the door 

as the door closed and the members faded, so did Jimin's smile

"..." 

lonley and quiet---

Jimin looked to the side where the mirror was

He looked at his reflection and titled his head

".... your'e so ugly and useless- you should just kill yourself"

he stared at himself and then looked down on the floor
what am I even doing anymore with my life

in front of a camera everyday it's all just

smile, say nice things, smile again and "see you next time!" 

when... did i become like this

Jimin made a weird expression and layed on the cool floor looking up at the lights 

"..." jimins eyes got watery

all of a sudden the door opened

"ah !! jimin i forgot my pho--" yoongi looked down on the floor 

"hyung??" 

"ah! yoongi" jimin quickly blinked a few times to stop the tears from coming out 

"whats wrong jiminnie ?" yoongi looked confused 

everything 

"no ^u^ its nothing-- i was just tired from yesterday's 3 hour straight dancing :((( hehe" 

"ahh i see---" yoongi picked up his phone from the table 

"well--- ill be going then--- get some rest okay?"

"okay hyungg :)"

yoongi shut the door 

BINGGG

Jimin looked on his phone that just rang

[ Mom: Jimin, did you ask PD yet? If you can come..?]

Jimin looked up 

oh right..... his funeral 

Jimin's long time friend just commit suicide 

No one knew why, no one but Jimin

before he died he sent Jimin a text and Jimin kep quiet about it or it would start problems

He was lonley and before debut, only Jimin would hang around with him because no one liked him, but Jimin couldn't understand why

but after people found out he was hanging out with Jimin from his popularity people started to bully him more.

"J--Jimin... I hope you get to the t--t-top!" said his friend, that was the last thing he said to Jimin

it hurt Jimin a lot, he knew inside he wanted to say "don't leave me jimin" or "jimin please come back"

Why are we all surrounded by snakes

How much longer do I have to go through this---

everyone used to always look down on us from debut.. but not him-- and now he's gone

All these damn anti's, they wil critisize me no matter what-- and yet .. sometimes they are right

I'm a fat pig , im a fake person in front of the camera, i would be no where without the rest of bangtan, who am i, what am i, why am i here?
Jimin replied to his mom 

[yeah... I forgot--- I'll ask him tomorrow, bye mom :)]

in all honest, Jimin didn't want to see his friend again

------not really because he didn't want to see him

but because he couldn't.
 

A few hours passed and the other members came home late, as usual. 

"Jiminnieee??" Yoongi said as everyone walked into the dorm.

"Maybe he is sleeping hyunggggg" said Jungkook and everyone went to their seperate rooms.

Yoongi walked to Jimin's door and knocked

No answer.

He knocked again-- no answer

So Yoongi just walked in, because he can. 

Yoongi saw Jimin in the balcony with the wind blowing the curtains.

"Jimin" Yoongi said quietly as he walked up to him, no answer.

"Jimin? Jiminahh..??" Yoongi was now to the side of him and stared at his side profile

Jimin was lost into the scenery, straight face and all, not noticing Jimin's presence at all.

Yoongi frowned and tapped him

Jimin was startled and jumped back 

"Hy--hyuNG" Jimin looked at him with wide eyes.

Yoongi frowned even more "Jimin... whats wrong :/"

"nothing hyung" he chuckled.

fake

Yoongi knew when Jimin was acting fake. He especially knew when Jimin was about to cry. When Jimin scrunched his eyes together and his teeth biting each other on the insides of his lips to keep them from sobbing.

Jimin put his head down on the balcony railing and crossed his arms around him. Yoongi stood there quietly as he could steadily see Jimin's shoulder studder each second. 

"y---y--yoo--ngi i'm..s--s-so" Jimin was muffling between his sobs.

Yoongi was hurt "Jimin look at me tell me what happen--"

Jimin immediately picked his head up and snuffled into Yoongi's chest, hugging him tightly.

Yoongi's heart was hearting a lot, seeing Jimin hurt, without him knowing.

How long has this been going on? What happened? Why didn't you tell me? Jiminie I can help...

But Yoongi just stayed quiet and hugged him back putting his chin on Jimin's head

"You... you don't have to tell me now jiminah... tell me when the time is right, I'll always be here-- I'm always free when it comes to you"

Jimin rubbed his forhead on Yoongi's chest and squeezed his shirt. 

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"Hey where's Jimminie ?" asked the best friend of Jiminnie

"he's sleeping, he said he already ate taehyung" Yoongi lied, but he remembered what Jimin said to him

"p--please don't tell anyone"

Jimin looked up at Yoongi

"nngh..." Yoongi was hesitant but gave in quickly, he couldn't deny to the Jimin, especially in his state

"ok.. but if i see even ONE thing wrong I'm going to help you no matter what" Yoongi said not wanting to make eye contact with the younger

The younger looked at him for a few seconds before nodding with a light smile slowly

"I-- I don't feel like eating right now."

Jimin thought to himself he was fat enough, how could he pleasure himself... but he didn't tell Yoongi

Yoongi gave the younger a look "did you even eat before we left?"

Jimin didn't answer and Yoongi just sighed and rubbed his hair.

"Okay... I'll be back when the others and I are done eating, okay, Jimminie?"

Jimin flinched at the nickname involunteringly, which Yoongi caught off the bat but didn't say anything about it

"....okay" Jimin said quielty 

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