Rihanna-Consideration

It's been a long time since I've been able to just sit like this. Just thinking and thinking about everything. As I look outside I can't seem to get no peace of mind. He keeps coming to my thoughts. Even though I try to push him back, he just keeps coming back.

Stronger than ever.

Truth to be told I do miss him. I miss him a lot. The way he always smiled at me. Showing me his beautiful teeth as he keeps on blabbering about something cute that he just saw. 

He was truly a beautiful person.

In all aspects. He had a beautiful heart and soul. He had a beautiful voice and face. His body was snow white and his smiles light up the whole wide world.

Gosh I miss him so much.

We always use to talk for hours about our dreams and worries. About the things that we loved, hated. We were truly beautiful. We made something beautiful. Our smiles together were something truly amazing.

Even though we had our figths we solved them and life went on.

And it of course did after this one too. Just there was no our life anymore. There was just his life and my life. I was not a part of his life and neither he was a part of mine.

I still regret it.

I have no idea how he's doing nowadays. Is he even alive? I hope he's doing good. Even though he caused me misery he also helped me a lot. Because of him I learnt to truly love myself. 

I loved him a lot and I knew he loved me too. We just weren't made for each other. Maybe from the start we were not suppose to have a happy ending. 

I'm totally okay with that.

He wasn't my first love no, but he was my first everything. My first times were all him. He was indeed my everything.

I can't say I love him, but I neither can't say I don't love him.

He has a very special place in my heart and I forgave him a long time ago.

I wish could've atleast seen his smile one last time.

See you someday Taekwoon.

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Eyyyy 371 words. That was great!!! Anyways from Hakyeon's pov just a lil oneshot to pour my feelings into. Anyways the summary is Taekwoon tried to make Hakyeon be something he isn't. Even tho he meant good he did bad so their relationship ended. Both loved each other bla bla bla and yeah. Thanks for reading :)