I remember the first time I set eyes on you.

It was an ordinary day,

I was jogging in the park as usual.

I saw you sitting on the bench,

With your earphones plugged in,

Your head nodding along to the music.

I stop and stared.

Something about you kept me transfixed;

I couldn’t take my eyes off you.

It’s not like I wanted to, anyway.

I went up and sat beside you.

You took off one side of your earphones and passed it to me.

So we spent the evening listening to the same music.

Being in comfortable silence;

Yet it is not silence.

Words are not spoken,

But so much is said.

It was an ordinary day turned extraordinary.

Meeting you was extraordinary.

Days passed,

Years passed.

I knew that a lot of people loved you too.

Am I just another one of them that fell for you?

Am I just another star surrounding the moon?

What am I to you?

Just another pebble on the road?

I set you apart;

You were different,

Yet we’re not that far apart.

You’re everything I did not like in a person.

You like to nag,

You’re such a diva,

You’re spoiled,

You’re high maintenance.

But I love you.

I love you despite your flaws.

I love you because of your flaws.

I don’t think that they are even flaws.

Apparently,

Whatever I have done earlier in life,

Added up to good karma points.

Because you fell for me,

Just like I fell for you.

I feel like the luckiest person in the world.

Out of so many people that you can have,

You chose me.

Plain,

Ordinary,

Me.

Who would have thought?

Who would have thought that the bright moon in the night sky,

Would settle for just a reflection of a star on the surface of the sea?

It amazes me that I can hold you in my arms at night,

That I can kiss you whenever I feel like it,

That you would hold me when I cry,

That you would kiss every part of my face.

It amazes me that you are mine.

But things that seem too good to be true,

Often are.

One cut of the knife.

That’s all it took.

Just a cut across your neck.

Why did you have to pass through that alleyway?

Why did you not just give them the ring you bought for me?

Why did you fight with them and struggle?

Was that ring really worth your life?

Was I really worth all that?

Just a regular robbery,

But to me it is not just any robbery.

If I had seen other robberies on the news,

I would have just shrugged and moved on.

But this is different.

With that cut across your throat by the robber,

I have lost everything.

I have lost everything that made my life worth living.

I have lost everything that I have ever had.

I have lost too big a part of myself.

I have lost you.

It’s not the same anymore.

I sit at this café across an empty seat,

And it is not the same.

You’re not opposite me,

Smiling at me

While sipping at your coffee,

Leaving foam on your upper lip.

I am not gently wiping your lip with my thumb,

Or watching you as you laugh,

Capturing me like how the mermaids capture sailors.

At night when I am in bed,

There is an empty space next to me,

But it is nothing compared to how empty I feel inside.

I miss you.

I miss waking up with you in my arms.

I miss kissing you in the morning before we head to work.

I miss eating the food you cook.

I miss being able to just cuddle after a long hard day at work.

I miss seeing you smile every time I tell you you’re beautiful.

I miss holding your hand when we go out.

I miss your defiant look when people glare at us holding hands.

I miss breathing in your scent just after you shower.

I miss you dancing and singing in our apartment.

I miss dancing with you in the morning just because we feel like it.

I miss fighting over little things then making up almost immediately,

Just because we were both afraid to lose each other.

But I guess Fate’s having the final laugh now, isn’t she?

Because the best thing I ever had is gone.

And there’s no way to get you back.