Author's Note
The Lifetime KidsI am unsure if anybody will look at this, but I wanted to create an Author's Note here, simply because, on many levels, I feel it is owed both to my past readers, and to SHINee.
Whilst writing this story, I disappeared. Without going into unneccesary detail, the fact was that I became very unwell, and was unable to write, or do anything, really. In September of last year, I was forced into recovery, and now, I am doing a lot better, and have returned to this site - however, with a new account and a new focus. My user is now ColourSynesthesia, and the group I am writing about there is BTS.
For those of you who may wonder why I have stoppped writing about SHINee, my honest answer is that I just... can't. I feel terrible, for I know, given the events of the past year, that the boys need support now more than ever; however, I can't focus on them without thinking of what happened Jonghyun, and that breaks me. It really, really does. I returned to the fandom after my illness just in time for his passing, and it struck me so hard. Jonghyun had given me such hope, and, though I suspected he was suffering, I could never have fathomed the true extent. I still love SHINee dearly, and they still mean a lot to me, but I just can;t write about them, in fear of tarnishing Jonghyun's memory.
I just want to add a brief thank you, whether you find my new account or not. My readers here got me through some of the toughest points in my life; I couldn't have overcome much of what I have without the support I have recieved. There is little I can do to accurately thank you all. I am so, so sorry for disappearing, and for all I left discontinued; I know I don't deserve forgiveness for that, but I want you all to know that this is a community I miss, and you all, as readers, really did mean the world to me.
Thank you, and hopefully we will chat again some-time.
-Emma
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