The Thought of You
The Sunset We Saw That DayI see the sun leans down to the horizon and I am here, playing with the sands, hearing the sound of waves running and bumping at each other. I hug my knee as I stared at the gradation of yellow, orange and red sky while thinking about you. The one who used to sit beside me in silence.
Why? I keep asking that to myself.
I take some sands and let it goes through the gap between my fingers.
Did I hold you too tight?
Foolishly in one word everything falls apart
I'm ok, I'm a bit busy these days
I met with friends and laughed often and even began to like the weekends
I didn’t count on how many days had passed without you. Your call. Your face. Your text. Your scent. Your nag.
You.
You didn’t know how hard I tried to even face the world, trying to float from the sea of depression.
You.
The memories of you kept pulling me down, tugging me so hard that I cried, while lacing my fingers together, begging for it to stop bugging me.
How should I fight when the fight was with the memories of you? That had been planted so deep, growing bigger every time I fed it with my lonesome nights. I could never win.
But that morning eventually came. When I saw myself like the worst human being in the world –trashy. Dark color surrounded my eyes, uncut and messy hair, not to mention I still had the feather pendant with me. The one you gave to me at my birthday, saying that it was a feather of an angel, that I was your angel that blessed you every time I smiled at you.
Then I decided to change. I couldn’t live in a world full of the imaginary you. The one I created string by string so I felt safe in my own cocoon. When the sun rays hit my face softly, I just knew.
I would be okay.
I began to face the people again. I tore the cocoon. I went out at Friday night, playing with my friends and wasted myself on Saturday.
But got lonely again as the Sunday came.
But I would be okay. I will be okay.
Shake Shook me up
I'm really regretting
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