I was 15 and he was 16 when we first time met.I was troubled and he was helping it when we first time talked.I was joking and he was laughing when we first time touched.I was staring at him when I actually felt like my heart beated in my chest for the first time.It was my first time talking to someone while holding my breath.It was almost like I was having a crush for the first time.

At first I thought it was just admiration of young boy towards undeniably talented older boy.Like,watching someone else doing what you love,but better than you.Singing,dancing and even make someone smiles.

The more you spend time with him,the more charming he was in your eyes.Almost breathtaking.

But soon,the admiration changed to like,and turned to love in no time.It was hard for me to accept my uality at early age of 17.I've tried so many things to distract myself and desprately conviced that I was straight.I still likes s,and I still likes .But in the end,Kwon Soonyoung was the reason I get wet dream in the middle of the night.

It took a long time for me to accept the fact that I was gay,the fact that I was in love with a man.I was in love with him.

But of course,like they says,first love will always broke your heart because first love always start in unrequited ways.

At first I thought,no,I hoped he would have the same feeling for me but he proved me wrong.No matter how br