(Taemin)

 

Afternoon should be cozy and warm but it was cold instead. The fog is too thick against the window and I can write his whole name on it. Rain is rushing from the dark sky and it felt like heaven is not please with am I feeling right now.

 

"Taemin" I heard my hyung called. I looked at to him and I saw his eyes. pitifully looking at me. He knows the reason of my sadness. Of course he is. He's my brother after all, the only family that left in me.

 

"Minho.. He was still yearning for you."

It's been 2 years, why should I believe with it? I want to laugh out loud as I heard hyung's words but it stabs my heart a trillion times. I know I can't and I would never be.

 

"Tae-"

"Stop joking hyung." I shrieked out, trying to prevent my tears from falling. "He move on easily. Look, he's getting married. He's doing fine." I paused a bit, mustering up my courage to say nicer words for him, for them. "And I'm happy for him."

 

Tears slipped out from eyes as soon as let out my words. I'm a liar. A good liar. Why did I lie that I didn't want him anymore? But it was right thing, isn't? I choose the better option for him. The best one to be exact.

 

"You don't have to lie in yourself, Tae."

I am not lying, hyung. Everything is true. He wouldn't be happy if I'm with him. I'm sick, foremost I'm a guy. He deserves Krystal even more. They're perfect. They are match in heaven.

 

"Stop it hyung! I don't want to hear any lies."

 

 

(Minho)

 

"I've had enough.”

What I have done, Taemin?

 

“I don’t want to be with you anymore.”

I thought our love will exist forever? You’ve promised that our love will be unbreakable.

 

“I don’t love you anymore. I want to end everything now.”

How can you be so cruel? You’re not the same Taemin that I knew before. Why?

 

“I’m going to leave the country tomorrow.”

Stop kidding Taemin. You are hurting me now. Why are you doing this?

 

“I guess that’s all. Goodbye forever.”

You’re not leaving me right? No. Don’t go. Tell me that this is just lie. Don’t go away. I can’t go on with this. I can’t.

 

“TAEMIN!”

 

Eyes were filled with tears. I am helplessly crying again. Although two years have been passed, I can’t help but to ask myself ‘Why Taemin left me?’

 

He’s back. After of these long two years, he’s back. I was with him, with Onew-hyung, with Krystal, with Key, with Jonghyun-hyung, with this Jino guy. He seems so happy, happier when he saw me with her and happiest when he was with this Jino. Did he really didn’t love me anymore? Is he really that cruel? Does he love Jino? Is he happy with him?

 

*~Oppa wakeeeey!~*

 

The pain stabs me even more. Is it really convenient for me to lie about what I feel? Why I can’t love Krystal? All of my life, all I want to be with is him; Taemin.