My dearest Hangeng, 

We seemed so sweet together...

...we loved each other deeply and faithfully, right?

But why...

...why didn't you tell me you are leaving us?

Did you know how much it hurts me?

Oh wait. Of course you knew it would pain me.

Duh. Prince Charming knows his Cinderella very well. 

I missed you.

I missed everything about you.

Even after the day you left, I already missed you.

I missed your Beijing Fried Rice.

I missed the Chinese guy that I always see beside my bed.

I loved you.

I loved you so much that I don't even think that our moments are just for fanservice.

And now I'm somewhat terrified..

Teuk hyung and the rest of Super Junior and ELF are comforting me.

But it is not enough because you're the only thing that could make me better.

I promised you I wouldn't cry when you leave...

Then in SS2 at Beijing I cried in front of thousands of ELF in Beijing...

I broke your promise, do I even deserve to live?

Never did I, the almighty Kim Heechul, looked so...helpless.

Until now, I still love you.

I always request to Siwon to include you to his prayers.

I loved you that it reached a great extent.

Couples don't keeps secrets to each other, right? 

Then why did you do that? 

Time passed, and it's already my birthday.

Gah, oh how much I wanted to spend this day with you.

It's still the same celebration, but it's not the same without you. 

Now that I have been thinking about it, I am already legal to go to the army...

I hate to do this, but...

I want you experience the pain I've gone through after suddenly knowing that you're leaving us.

I'm going to sign up for the army.

I won't tell anyone, not even a soul. 

But sadly, someone ruined my plan.

Teuk hyung knew about the thing that I'm not even going to tell Super Junior I'm leaving for Military service.

Guess I gotta tell everybody in Korea about it, huh. 

So, I told the army thingy at the last variety show I made a taping, Strong Heart.

But I don't have any intentions t say it to you. 

Don't worry, despite that I still love you.

I even composed a song for Orange Caramel, which is secretly dedicated to you.

Don't believe me?

Try waiting for the MV. 

I requested it to be release after my training so that I won't be intrigued about the HanChul thing.

I know that soon you'll be able to win your lawsuit with SMEnt.

Good thing that on the First of September, I am now going to leave and say goodbye to the media.

But I won't be saying goodbye to you.

Just think of this as a bittersweet revenge from the hyung who loved you. 

Still, I want you to know that I really love you.

And by the time you're done reading this I am already serving my country.

Wo Ai Ni,
Kim Heechul.

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" Heechul-ah, are you done now? " the leader asked. The said man nodded, then placed the paper on an envelope saying 'Han Geng 韩庚' and below is his whereabouts in China.

" Hyung-nim, " he spoke, handing him the letter. " Please send this at the Post Office right after I leave.  "

" Arasso. " he smiled. " But...aren't you really telling Geng that you'll be leaving? "

" Do I have to? "

" If you really love him, then yes. "

Heechul laid his back on his chair. " I just want a bit of revenge. I want him to experience how hard it is when the one you love the most left all of a sudden without a notice. "

" I understand. I'll be leaving now. You should come down later, or else our eternal maknae will cry. " Teuk finally said, and opened the door.

" Arasso hyung. " he replied, and before Leeteuk closed the door he smiled sweetly to his dongsaeng. Now that he poured his feelings now, he could spend his time packing his stuff for the army early.

A.N: So, how was it guys? Should I put up a sequel? :D