OT6
19 April 2016This post is dedicated to the six boys that I'll always love...
The day has comes. The day that we all scared is here. The day that will turns our nightmare to reality.
Jang Hyunseung,
You leaving Beast is the most heart breaking moment in my life as a fangirl..
I believe in you, I listen to your words, I work hard to support you.
But in reality, this thing still happened.
19 April 2016 is the day you left us.
You left us all while we're in tears. You left us without meeting us. You left without looking back. You just left us.
I've been waiting for you for past years to come and see me because I'm your b2uty. You said you loves b2uty. You said you loves b2st. You said this and that but why this thing still happened?
Yoon Dujun, you're my bias, you're our leader. I thought you'll always solve all of the problems in Beast. I thought you'll always approach everyone to settle this problems. But why this thing still happened?
Yong Junhyung, you're the one that I trusted the most when it comes to Hyunseung. Even though you guys not able to communicate with each other anymore, but I still know you care about him the most. I trusted you all along. But why this thing still happened?
Lee Kikwang, you're the main dancer in beast. I thought we can always see you with hyunseung to show us great and powerful dance. You promised us to comeback as 6. Was that just a false hope? Why this thing still happened?
Yang Yoseob, you're the one that I put my believes to make everything just like usual. I thought Beast will stay together as 6 for 50 years. You promised us right? But why this thing still happened?
Son Dongwoon, you're the maknae in the group. I thought you'll always be that spoiled brat asking for hyunseung not to leave. But why this thing still happened?
Remember in MTV B2ST you guys went to karaoke to celebrate hyunseung's birthday. That was a very beautiful memory to see everyone treasure each other. Hyunseung even said he loves you guys.
To B2UTY, why this thing still happened? Dont we give them enough love? Dont we give them enough success? Dont we give them enough happiness?
But B2UTY, why cant we protect them from this? Why cant we solve this problem without having any withdrawal? Why cant we take care of our oppas just like they're our family? Why cant we appreciate them enough like how they appreciate us? Why cant we be the one to be there with them for the rest of their life?
I guess its too much to ask for from you guys to stick together. Yeah I know people tend to break their promises but I never know it will be this hard to accept it.
I sounds like putting the blame on every members. In fact, I just need to let everything out from my mind. They fooking promise us and I hold on to that promise like crazy waiting for them. I dont why this happened. I need my rest mode from this stuffs. I just need to work hard to forget this and comeback as brand new fangirl for Beast. For me, Beast will always be 6.
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