“I desire to be with you. I miss you. 

I feel lonely when I can't see you.

I am obsessed with you, fascinated by you, infatuated with you.

I hunger for your taste, your smell, the feel of your soul touching mine.” 

― Jack Llawayllynn.

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Hanbin has always been in control

And when he's not ?

He just make other's lives worse ..!!

He hates not being in control, But his world is changing

Only around Jiwon .. He figured

He can't control it, Nor his feelings or his actions or his damn stupid jealous reactions

Or drama some might call it  ( you)

And the thing is, Bobby always accept it letting the other encouraged more and more

So they were at some music award

He kept bobby close to him, he doesn't know when the moment comes that the other might just snap and jump and start dabbing to any beats (eyes rolling). Plus, Jiwon was super cute and Hanbin hates it, so he keeps his bunny beside him. When the other talks to other members Hanbin's lean in and join the conversation.

He smirks mentally

I'm in control of Kim Jiwon world !! *evil Santa laugh*

Ironically ! On That exact moment Jiwon’s eyes lit up upon seeing zico !!

A fellow rapper that Jiwon admires

And since they are rookie

Jiwon really look up to him

The other nods his head towards Jiwon

It's like admitting how good Jiwon was

Zico never missed a thing the younger did or said

He keep up with his news like anticipating the born of new thing !!

Jiwon face has this dumb bunny smile that Hanbin's really love and right now hates !!!

He's fuming

His fingers are twitching and his brain is screaming on him

Jealousy wasn't even good enough to describe it

Jiwon lean to Hanbin to whisper and the other is making a mental note to stop himself from sniffing him in public: “I just saw Zico and he says hi !!”

Hanbin didn't look up from Jiwon neck veins

He knows the other is smiling widely and Hanbin don't wanna see it

It's not for him this time !!

Hanbin only nods before averting his eyes towards the stage

Jiwon sense something off he suddenly leans in way to close his chest touching the other’s back and his lips an inch away from Hanbin's ear that had shade of red right now: “Are you ok..?”

A voice way too low and way too deep that made Hanbin's shiver instantly

This one for him for sure

He Bite his lower lip while his head turn slowly but eyes fall on his welcoming lips

It's dark

Hanbin's reasoned

Everyone is either focusing on the stage or on Bigbang sitting like kings in their own table !!

Who will watch the rookies ?? Hanbin want to kiss him

Bobby chest start racing upon seeing the younger’s unexpected actions

He wouldn't care to kiss him back .. he wouldn't break it not even for air

Hanbin's was breathtaking

And Bobby need to keep telling his mind to tell his stupid eyes to stop gazing the younger

His eyes were hungry

And he like the sight of Hanbin's back

Hanbin's nose touch Jiwon's lightly and he felt the other reach to his back through the chair

He's mentally smirking again

I am in control of Kim Jiwon world !!!

However his smile died when Jiwon pull away

Giving another bunny smile to Zico that suddenly were looking at them

Right !

Hanbin's cursing inside his brain

That is the answer of who's gonna watch the rookies!

He pout

Jiwon catch that Lil sight of him. Hanbin's pouting at awards each time he want to be with Jiwon but can't. Bobby chuckles silently before refocusing on the performance

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They've danced dabbed took awards look at their sunbaes stages and redance redabb and redo all over again

Just because Bobby was in the mood

And Hanbin's took glances each time

Whenever his bunny is too excited to stay at his own ing seats

Hanbin's want to tie him

But shake his head as that won't be ok right now ..

Right !!

What really gets under his skin

That Jiwon was just Jiwon And Hanbin's really loved this sight of him

He falls for it each time But, His eyes anxious falling on Zico laughing hard and clapping and dancing upon seeing the other energetic self.

Hanbin's hates it

That they share laugh, career or whatever. No one shares his Jiwon's

He's biting his lower lip and praying this ends real fast so they are back to being private to claim Jiwon's as his personal teddy bear

He want to cuddle him up all night and not let go

He's on the verge of tears on that thought

He really doesn't like not being in control

And his hands are sweaty and he flinches when Jiwon held on his wrist leading him throughout the end of this

He want it to stop and it is

But their footstep is stopping as well

Zico was in sight

And Hanbin hissed under his breath that was noticed by Jiwon's

They were talking for minutes but Hanbin can disagree

He feel it's been hours standing there

He want to join but felt he's way too emotional and he might say the wrong thing if he ever let out a breath or words out

Besides

The two were too into the talk they were leaning in and patting each shoulders .. Hands .. You call it

Hanbin eyes were shaking

Mind screaming at sight

He won't sniff bobby would he

He felt his chest tighten

He's making it worse

He can swear that Zico hands caress bobby's

But he don't know for sure

His eyes were watery and he's losing sight

One glance at him Bobby quickly bow signaling his departure

He held Hanbin's wrist back

And Hanbin wanted to say what took you so long

a tear fall

But he wipe it fast

And look ahead

While leaving

..

He lost control

And the other is leading

…

Bobby steps were fast and heavy .. the sight of exit is in front and he skips the dressing room sensing that Hanbin doesn't want to change..

Bobby knows there's something upsetting the younger and from experience he knows he cannot ignore this state

Hanbin's need to be taken cared of

Bobby keep that in mind

But felt a slight pull from behind on his wrist

He turn to the younger seeing his eyes on floor while suddenly whispering: “Hug me”

Bobby heart was in 1000 miles as if he ran this whole place twice

He felt his own breath hitched and his chest tighten

To be melted by the other weak gestures

Or to be angry of whatever cause this sight

He felt in great trap of what and how to feel

But he leans

The action is clear

Bobby don't care if others saw them hugging in the middle of the exit (everyone is leaving)

Because bobby honestly don't care

His hand rest on the other waist and he's leaning but stops as he heard Hanbin says: “Mino”

Bobby was kind of pushed

And he felt dumbfounded till he hears Mino voice from behind: “Hey .. I thought you two might join me. . I'm kind of alone” he snort

Bobby turn to face him

His face unreadable just a pout

Mino: “or not ..??” He says that questioning Hanbin

Hanbin is trying to hide behind Jiwon

He was blushing

He sure as hell don't want to say it out aloud but he really wants Jiwon to stay focused on him !!

He Bite his lower lip waiting Jiwon's answer

Bobby: (shaking his head) “ Hyung I thought you gonna ride with sunbaenim”

He nod then says they are staying and he don't want to be a burden

Bobby nods now: “How about you join us then..” (He turn to look at Hanbin that was pale now as ) “ I mean there's one more seat left .. ride with us.. it's been a while”

Mino smiling and nodding

And Bobby flash him smile

The other put his hand on Bobby's shoulder: “I truly missed hanging out with you .. you know”

And that turn to a hug

Hanbin was a wreck to even consider this friendly gesture a romantic thing

But he was sensitive

So his hand shoot towards bobby's back holding his jacket while the other break from the hug

He didn't let go of fabric

Bobby: ”let's go then”

They walk next each other but Hanbin still behind Jiwon

His life is depending on that jacket

He felt silly

But Jiwon eyes kept checking on him

And this Lil affection while he keep his conversation with Mino

Made Hanbin's heart a bit warm

Jiwon is his

He reasoned

He reassured

But he still want to be private

…!

Is it too much to ask !!!

Luckily Mino sat near Jin .. well that what happen but all Hanbin did was glaring at Jinan till the other slumped next to Mino.. the ride was lots of laugh and barely anyone had time to actually get some sleep

It's been a while to just have fun and chat with Mino since both were too busy

Meanwhile Hanbin held Bobby's hand and the other laces his finger before rubbing his thumb in circles reassuring him. That's all Hanbin's want

He let out a sigh that meant to be in his head but turn out to be quite loud

Bobby chuckles and Hanbin want to hide

And Mino jokes saying Hanbin's was tired

But deep down he knows

And he gave bobby a grin

The other just grin back not knowing what's happening

Hanbin's pout again

Stop grinning for god sake

They went inside dorm and while others making a fuss what to have for dinner

Their leader just pull on Jiwon hand keeping the older away from food conversation

They get in their room and the door been shut

Jiwon find himself pinned on a door in less than a second

His hands shoot instinctively to the others waist and closing the gap between their bodies

Now both sighs

A bit too loud

Forehead resting .. breath sharing

Smells intoxicating

And warm bodies that fit like a puzzle

It amazes Jiwon each time

How strange this is

And how strangely it feels right

The younger had his eyes shut and Jiwon look at his features

Like a masterpiece

Each point of Hanbin's is making his heart beat a little bit more than to be normal

And he's insane if he can deny this between them

Jiwon had always acted out away of his heart

It all comes through one organ

His words actions and reactions

He never tried to fight this because

All he feels

Was Hanbin's

All he thinks

Was Hanbin's

And each wishing hope out there that belonged to the older rapper

Is in line with Hanbin's

He learn to accept the other and embrace him

While the younger was more in internal battle

Jiwon was the calming of his rising nerves

After minutes Bobby voice find its strength: “Babe ..?”

The younger shivers hiding his embarrassed face in the welcoming warm skin of the other’s neck

He whimpers and Bobby chuckles adoring each Hanbin's reaction ..

He keep whining each time Jiwon calling him that .. but the deep blush that spread on his face .. the way his face draw big smile that no one on earth can hide and the way his eyes lingers at floor picking which hole to hide inside

It's all little stuff that bobby likes and provocate

Hanbin is charming in control

But Hanbin is beautiful without that either !

Bobby start rubbing on the other back while his voice kept low but sharp for the younger to hear: “You drive me nuts..”

Hanbin can disagree ..

His jealousy one day will

Bobby: “It's like I can't help but think of you” He paused for a breath and Hanbin leave wet kisses on his neck “God damn it Hanbin.. I keep thinking whether you are ok or not and I ing draw all possible reasons like a mad man”. . the younger stops and whispers on his skin: “But you fails”

Bobby chuckle and Hanbin felt it through his body he's nibbling on the soft skin while bobby's hand caress the little hair on his nape

When the older let his voice out again it was another depth and Hanbin's know he's affecting him for good:

“I ing fails.. I must miss something while daydreaming of you”

Hanbin's snort: “cheesy”

Bobby chuckle while caressing his hair and his lips went to kiss the other forehead

Hanbin's melting

All emotions he felt throughout the day is in lost

Thrown down the ocean and sank

He remembers nothing but the way Jiwon makes him feel

All hot

All bothered

All warm

And tingly

Hanbin's made the mistake and look the other in the eye

He was hooked in second

Their eyes glow and bobby knows what's next

Bobby anticipate

The younger hand shoot to curl around the older rapper nape scratching the Lil curly hair

Bobby leans in a second

His eyes not parting away from the other full lips

Inviting sight

Bobby can remember this moment when he talk about passion

Passion was in Hanbin's stare

Hanbin's arm

And Hanbin's body pressed to him

..

And the way hanbin's beating right now against him

No control

All raw

Bobby can describe passion right now with one word ..

Hanbin.

He close the gap between their lips

The kiss was slow in teasing way

Hanbin's whimpers each time the other pull away or slowly gently managing the younger to make soft sound but it pick it's  tempo fast as both Hanbin's hand went circling his neck and he tilt his head allowing the other more angle to kiss him which bobby take it as cue to deepen the kiss

Bobby's hand caresses hanbin's side and slowly turn their position so Hanbin's the one with his back on the door

He pulls back for air and he swears that Hanbin's breathing like a maniac in need for air and not pulling

He breath: “God Hanbinah. .” kissing the other jaw “You're so beautiful” Hanbin's allow bobby more skin and the other start nibbling on his Jaw trailing a line to his Adam apple .. he gently that Hanbin start making more noise and when he felt it's a Lil bit more he managed to let: “Bobby no more.. not there” trying to catch his breathe

But he was a bit late .. he's already been marked several places the other chuckles deeply on his skin: “I thought you want people to know I'm yours”

The way that bobby use that voice on him

Is tragedy

Hanbin is a mess in his arms and he tries to compose his posture of what happening and what and how he should be

All in control

That thought washed away with bobby gripping on his hips and the other soon felt being held in the others strong arms

And pinned on the door

Like literally

Great

What in control are you

His hands start gripping on bobby's hair harshly now while the other still teasing his already red burnt skin on his neck

He whispers with close eyes: “Kiss me, Kim Jiwon”

The older look up to him with that burning gaze and Hanbin smirks: “like now !!!”

He add pouting

He reach up to his lips while the younger giggles

Bobby kept pecking him fast and rough the other start complaining

And Bobby is laughing against his lips: “You says to kiss you”

The younger now pout cutely before holding bobby's jaw

His fingers linger there .. scratching lightly and bobby bite Hanbin's  lower lip slowly before sliding his tongue

It took the younger by surprise

But he reacted soon to it

Letting bobby's tongue to taste whatever he wants !

on his tongue and guiding it in they fought for dominance .. dancing nibbling and tasting .. exploring each inch

It wasn't their first kiss

But each time he tastes bobby

Each time feels like something new

Something unreal

Out of this universe

Something he can't live without

and Hanbin's tries to remember this moment forever

He want to write it in his song

To describe it in his words

And to sing it in his voice

He want other people to sing about their love

His love to Jiwon

He got obsessed alright

But only that Jiwon allow him to be

Let him be

And want him to be

He felt being carried and he can't help but moan softly between the kisses

Bobby start saying I love you in between

And Hanbin can just die

Because each time they are intimate the words “I love you” never stop coming from bobby's lips

And Hanbin's know

It's sincere when it's not planned

It's sincere and out of the other pure reaction

Pure self

He believes every depth of it

And it clings inside his lungs

How can someone like bobby exist for him !

He felt being dropped gently with a thud on the mattress and he mentally whimper of loss of bobby's skin

But the other crawl on top of him

And Hanbin's is staring half lidded. . His hands cupping the other’s jaw and bobby is grinning when the other smile sheepishly saying: “I have missed you for a second”

The older rapper just fall on him .. burying his face in his neck and Hanbin's is laughing caressing his hair hearing soft deep groans against his skin: “oh god”

And Hanbin's laughing out loud

He start saying:” Bobby. .?”

And the other Hmmm gets in his skin

Hanbin: “jiwon aah. .!”

He pulls up and stare at his eyes

Bobby face was red But Hanbin can imagine his worse anyway

Hanbin's hand cupped bobby's jaw and start leaving wet trail kisses from his ear to his cheekbones to his jawline and his neck down to collarbone

Bobby's eyes were closed and he basically let Hanbin do the way he wants .. only leaning more to give him more easy access and Hanbin chuckles on his skin

The older then rest his forehead again on the other.

And Hanbin's whisper against his nose while his hands pulling the locks away from bobby's face:

“I barely can see your eyes like this” and start laughing “ when are you taking off that hideous jacket anyway”

Bobby gave him a bunny smile while waving his arm in front of the other face saying: “this awesome jacket moves when I move”

Hanbin laugh more :”oh yeah ??”

Bobby nods with a grin: “I rule” the other snort at him.

Hanbin: “well you move ALOT ! and take it off !!”

Bobby pout: “y”

Hanbin start pulling on it and bobby start saying ok ok and pulling off so he's half sitting on top of him He throw the jacket and Hanbin's get on his elbow .. his eyes never leaving bobby's while the other was busy

Hanbin Bite his lower lip and pull on the white T that hugged bobby's body like his life depends on it and whisper shyly: “This too”

The other Raise his eyebrows and Hanbin want to just bury his face on the sheets

He's making his life hard right now

He hissed when the other start pulling it off slowly teasingly making Hanbin's whimpers as more skin reveals .. his hands itchy went to caress Bobby's navel going above as more reveal the other start laughing still choking: “wait the up”

Hanbin is blushing but he keeps smiling .. his hands won't stop trailing caressing the toned abs biting his lower lip as now Bobby look at him down

It's freaking hot

Hanbin only chuckles at Bobby ‘you're unbelievable look’ and he add whining:” don't ing blame me”

Jiwon is giving lots of bunny smiles and he can see the other skin is tinted because of the other hungry gaze

Bobby leans and capture Hanbin's lips whispering: “then don't blame me either”

Hanbin's hand were holding bobby's back the way he feel the muscles reflex on his palm

Scratching lightly

Oh he want to make some damage to his boyfriend perfect body

The kiss deepened and then Hanbin start nibbling on his jaw again

Bobby: “I swear you've did enough in there”

And he heard the other pleasant laughs

Bobby can talk about pleasant sounds

Hanbin's snore at night

Hanbin's laugh hard

Hanbin's moans !! Oh that's a good one but it's private

The idea of someone else hearing those is making him fume

While the younger shower his head and forehead with kisses

Trailing down to his nose

Bobby last pleasant sound

Hanbin's voice !

He wish the other will always sing for him

Even if it's loud and messy..  even if it's horrible at times

Even if Junhoe would shout on him

Even if it's disturbed with whines

Bobby only gape at the other ridiculously pleasant laughs as he go on and on

The younger pull away nibbling on the older lower lip and whispering against his open lips: “what are you thinking of”

Bobby knows that tone .. Hanbin's not ok

Bobby chuckles and peck him adding: “caught me daydreaming of you”

He got a smack on his arm and Hanbin's protest with whines

He kiss it all away

Deep and slow and rough

The kind of kiss that leave the younger out of breath reaching for air as slightly pushing the hot body above him

And then resume after only stopping by a click sound

Bobby pull away but pulled down in seconds he start saying: “wait..wait Hanbiniee”

Jinan coughs loud

And  Bobby pull away staring at the intruder

When Jinan face was unreadable but a blush spread out entirely reaching his ears

Hanbin's shout: “what !!!!”

Bobby grins at his needy boyfriend that was still eyeing bobby .. hands still unknowingly touches his chest

Jinan: (turn to face the wall) “well I tried to give you some privacy but how much longer do you need !!!”

Hanbin: (kissing Bobby’s chest) “clearly not enough”

Jinan is hearing sound and his eyes shut

Bobby: “Hanbinie wait .. Jinan hyung what you need”

Hanbin pout at his grinning boyfriend and hissed whatever before throwing his back on mattress again

Jinan: “thank you bobby..” (He turn to face them)” They are fighting over what kind of pizzas to order and frankly they don't give a damn if you order or not.. but I made them wait but till when” he pause when he heard hanbin's sigh “ so beside eating each other are you interested in real food”

Hanbin: “ naah I'm eating him tonight”

Bobby grins :” babe” and lean in for a kiss laughing at Jinan tsk tsk sounds then adding: “margherita for me”

He got a smack from Hanbin and Jinan nods saying it out loud for junhoe

Then hanbin's pout cutely: “ veggie for me” Bobby kiss that pout and says loudly: “veggie for my babe Jinan”

The other roll his eyes as he heard Hanbin's laughs

And he close the door leaving them alone

The couple kiss a bit more

Then shower together and make out some more then get dressed and Hanbin's choose what Jiwon wore while the other pull him in another make out session

They only start leaving the room when Jinan loud shouts registering the food is here

Bobby made food noise take big bites of his pizza

And Hanbin look at him bothered

He want to crawl back to his lap but kept staying still on his seat

Some control Hanbin

Some ing control

He hears another tormenting moan and he just frowns cutely

And Bobby is making bunny faces

Damn it

At night he crawl to Bobby's bed curling behind

Bobby was dead tired he didn't realize the sheet went up but as soon he felt warm hands he turn and his hand wrapped the others that start snuggling to his neck smelling him and sighing

Bobby kiss his forehead

Hanbin's smile

His hand lazily making a circle on the other chest and then he heard bobby sleeping voice: “goodnight babe”

The younger reach up and place a small peck before whispering: “I forbid you from seeing Zico”

Bobby eyes shut open

And the younger snuggle closer yawning a goodnight.

I AM IN CONTROL OF KIM JIWON WORLD! ! *evil Santa laugh*

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