Final
In Control of his world..!“I desire to be with you. I miss you.
I feel lonely when I can't see you.
I am obsessed with you, fascinated by you, infatuated with you.
I hunger for your taste, your smell, the feel of your soul touching mine.”
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Hanbin has always been in control
And when he's not ?
He just make other's lives worse ..!!
He hates not being in control, But his world is changing
Only around Jiwon .. He figured
He can't control it, Nor his feelings or his actions or his damn stupid jealous reactions
Or drama some might call it ( you)
And the thing is, Bobby always accept it letting the other encouraged more and more
So they were at some music award
He kept bobby close to him, he doesn't know when the moment comes that the other might just snap and jump and start dabbing to any beats (eyes rolling). Plus, Jiwon was super cute and Hanbin hates it, so he keeps his bunny beside him. When the other talks to other members Hanbin's lean in and join the conversation.
He smirks mentally
I'm in control of Kim Jiwon world !! *evil Santa laugh*
Ironically ! On That exact moment Jiwon’s eyes lit up upon seeing zico !!
A fellow rapper that Jiwon admires
And since they are rookie
Jiwon really look up to him
The other nods his head towards Jiwon
It's like admitting how good Jiwon was
Zico never missed a thing the younger did or said
He keep up with his news like anticipating the born of new thing !!
Jiwon face has this dumb bunny smile that Hanbin's really love and right now hates !!!
He's fuming
His fingers are twitching and his brain is screaming on him
Jealousy wasn't even good enough to describe it
Jiwon lean to Hanbin to whisper and the other is making a mental note to stop himself from sniffing him in public: “I just saw Zico and he says hi !!”
Hanbin didn't look up from Jiwon neck veins
He knows the other is smiling widely and Hanbin don't wanna see it
It's not for him this time !!
Hanbin only nods before averting his eyes towards the stage
Jiwon sense something off he suddenly leans in way to close his chest touching the other’s back and his lips an inch away from Hanbin's ear that had shade of red right now: “Are you ok..?”
A voice way too low and way too deep that made Hanbin's shiver instantly
This one for him for sure
He Bite his lower lip while his head turn slowly but eyes fall on his welcoming lips
It's dark
Hanbin's reasoned
Everyone is either focusing on the stage or on Bigbang sitting like kings in their own table !!
Who will watch the rookies ?? Hanbin want to kiss him
Bobby chest start racing upon seeing the younger’s unexpected actions
He wouldn't care to kiss him back .. he wouldn't break it not even for air
Hanbin's was breathtaking
And Bobby need to keep telling his mind to tell his stupid eyes to stop gazing the younger
His eyes were hungry
And he like the sight of Hanbin's back
Hanbin's nose touch Jiwon's lightly and he felt the other reach to his back through the chair
He's mentally smirking again
I am in control of Kim Jiwon world !!!
However his smile died when Jiwon pull away
Giving another bunny smile to Zico that suddenly were looking at them
Right !
Hanbin's cursing inside his brain
That is the answer of who's gonna watch the rookies!
He pout
Jiwon catch that Lil sight of him. Hanbin's pouting at awards each time he want to be with Jiwon but can't. Bobby chuckles silently before refocusing on the performance
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They've danced dabbed took awards look at their sunbaes stages and redance redabb and redo all over again
Just because Bobby was in the mood
And Hanbin's took glances each time
Whenever his bunny is too excited to stay at his own ing seats
Hanbin's want to tie him
But shake his head as that won't be ok right now ..
Right !!
What really gets under his skin
That Jiwon was just Jiwon And Hanbin's really loved this sight of him
He falls for it each time But, His eyes anxious falling on Zico laughing hard and clapping and dancing upon seeing the other energetic self.
Hanbin's hates it
That they share laugh, career or whatever. No one shares his Jiwon's
He's biting his lower lip and praying this ends real fast so they are back to being private to claim Jiwon's as his personal teddy bear
He want to cuddle him up all night and not let go
He's on the verge of tears on that thought
He really doesn't like not being in control
And his hands are sweaty and he flinches when Jiwon held on his wrist leading him throughout the end of this
He want it to stop and it is
But their footstep is stopping as well
Zico was in sight
And Hanbin hissed under his breath that was noticed by Jiwon's
They were talking for minutes but Hanbin can disagree
He feel it's been hours standing there
He want to join but felt he's way too emotional and he might say the wrong thing if he ever let out a breath or words out
Besides
The two were too into the talk they were leaning in and patting each shoulders .. Hands .. You call it
Hanbin eyes were shaking
Mind screaming at sight
He won't sniff bobby would he
He felt his chest tighten
He's making it worse
He can swear that Zico hands caress bobby's
But he don't know for sure
His eyes were watery and he's losing sight
One glance at him Bobby quickly bow signaling his departure
He held Hanbin's wrist back
And Hanbin wanted to say what took you so long
a tear fall
But he wipe it fast
And look ahead
While leaving
..
He lost control
And the other is leading
…
Bobby steps were fast and heavy .. the sight of exit is in front and he skips the dressing room sensing that Hanbin doesn't want to change..
Bobby knows there's something upsetting the younger and from experience he knows he cannot ignore this state
Hanbin's need to be taken cared of
Bobby keep that in mind
But felt a slight pull from behind on his wrist
He turn to the younger seeing his eyes on floor while suddenly whispering: “Hug me”
Bobby heart was in 1000 miles as if he ran this whole place twice
He felt his own breath hitched and his chest tighten
To be melted by the other weak gestures
Or to be angry of whatever cause this sight
He felt in great trap of what and how to feel
But he leans
The action is clear
Bobby don't care if others saw them hugging in the middle of the exit (everyone is leaving)
Because bobby honestly don't care
His hand rest on the other waist and he's leaning but stops as he heard Hanbin says: “Mino”
Bobby was kind of pushed
And he felt dumbfounded till he hears Mino voice from behind: “Hey .. I thought you two might join me. . I'm kind of alone” he snort
Bobby turn to face him
His face unreadable just a pout
Mino: “or not ..??” He says that questioning Hanbin
Hanbin is trying to hide behind Jiwon
He was blushing
He sure as hell don't want to say it out aloud but he really wants Jiwon to stay focused on him !!
He Bite his lower lip waiting Jiwon's answer
Bobby: (shaking his head) “ Hyung I thought you gonna ride with sunbaenim”
He nod then says they are staying and he don't want to be a burden
Bobby nods now: “How about you join us then..” (He turn to look at Hanbin that was pale now as ) “ I mean there's one more seat left .. ride with us.. it's been a while”
Mino smiling and nodding
And Bobby flash him smile
The other put his hand on Bobby's shoulder: “I truly missed hanging out with you .. you know”
And that turn to a hug
Hanbin was a wreck to even consider this friendly gesture a romantic thing
But he was sensitive
So his hand shoot towards bobby's back holding his jacket while the other break from the hug
He didn't let go of fabric
Bobby: ”let's go then”
They walk next each other but Hanbin still behind Jiwon
His life is depending on that jacket
He felt silly
But Jiwon eyes kept checking on him
And this Lil affection while he keep his conversation with Mino
Made Hanbin's heart a bit warm
Jiwon is his
He reasoned
He reassured
But he still want to be private
…!
Is it too much to ask !!!
Luckily Mino sat near Jin .. well that what happen but all Hanbin did was glaring at Jinan till the other slumped next to Mino.. the ride was lots of laugh and barely anyone had time to actually get some sleep
It's been a while to just have fun and chat with Mino since both were too busy
Meanwhile Hanbin held Bobby's hand and the other laces his finger before rubbing his thumb in circles reassuring him. That's all Hanbin's want
He let out a sigh that meant to be in his head but turn out to be quite loud
Bobby chuckles and Hanbin want to hide
And Mino jokes saying Hanbin's was tired
But deep down he knows
And he gave bobby a grin
The other just grin back not knowing what's happening
Hanbin's pout again
Stop grinning for god sake
They went inside dorm and while others making a fuss what to have for dinner
Their leader just pull on Jiwon hand keeping the older away from food conversation
They get in their room and the door been shut
Jiwon find himself pinned on a door in less than a second
His hands shoot instinctively to the others waist and closing the gap between their bodies
Now both sighs
A bit too loud
Forehead resting .. breath sharing
Smells intoxicating
And warm bodies that fit like a puzzle
It amazes Jiwon each time
How strange this is
And how strangely it feels right
The younger had his eyes shut and Jiwon look at his features
Like a masterpiece
Each point of Hanbin's is making his heart beat a little bit more than to be normal
And he's insane if he can deny this between them
Jiwon had always acted out away of his heart
It all comes through one organ
His words actions and reactions
He never tried to fight this because
All he feels
Was Hanbin's
All he thinks
Was Hanbin's
And each wishing hope out there that belonged to the older rapper
Is in line with Hanbin's
He learn to accept the other and embrace him
While the younger was more in internal battle
Jiwon was the calming of his rising nerves
After minutes Bobby voice find its strength: “Babe ..?”
The younger shivers hiding his embarrassed face in the welcoming warm skin of the other’s neck
He whimpers and Bobby chuckles adoring each Hanbin's reaction ..
He keep whining each time Jiwon calling him that .. but the deep blush that spread on his face .. the way his face draw big smile that no one on earth can hide and the way his eyes lingers at floor picking which hole to hide inside
It's all little stuff that bobby likes and provocate
Hanbin is charming in control
But Hanbin is beautiful without that either !
Bobby start rubbing on the other back while his voice kept low but sharp for the younger to hear: “You drive me nuts..”
Hanbin can disagree ..
His jealousy one day will
Bobby: “It's like I can't help but think of you” He paused for a breath and Hanbin leave wet kisses on his neck “God damn it Hanbin.. I keep thinking whether you are ok or not and I ing draw all possible reasons like a mad man”. . the younger stops and whispers on his skin: “But you fails”
Bobby chuckle and Hanbin felt it through his body he's nibbling on the soft skin while bobby's hand caress the little hair on his nape
When the older let his voice out again it was another depth and Hanbin's know he's affecting him for good:
“I ing fails.. I must miss something while daydreaming of you”
Hanbin's snort: “cheesy”
Bobby chuckle while caressing his hair and his lips went to kiss the other forehead
Hanbin's melting
All emotions he felt throughout the day is in lost
Thrown down the ocean and sank
He remembers nothing but the way Jiwon makes him feel
All hot
All bothered
All warm
And tingly
Hanbin's made the mistake and look the other in the eye
He was hooked in second
Their eyes glow and bobby knows what's next
Bobby anticipate
The younger hand shoot to curl around the older rapper nape scratching the Lil curly hair
Bobby leans in a second
His eyes not parting away from the other full lips
Inviting sight
Bobby can remember this moment when he talk about passion
Passion was in Hanbin's stare
Hanbin's arm
And Hanbin's body pressed to him
..
And the way hanbin's beating right now against him
No control
All raw
Bobby can describe passion right now with one word ..
Hanbin.
He close the gap between their lips
The kiss was slow in teasing way
Hanbin's whimpers each time the other pull away or slowly gently managing the younger to make soft sound but it pick it's tempo fast as both Hanbin's hand went circling his neck and he tilt his head allowing the other more angle to kiss him which bobby take it as cue to deepen the kiss
Bobby's hand caresses hanbin's side and slowly turn their position so Hanbin's the one with his back on the door
He pulls back for air and he swears that Hanbin's breathing like a maniac in need for air and not pulling
He breath: “God Hanbinah. .” kissing the other jaw “You're so beautiful” Hanbin's allow bobby more skin and the other start nibbling on his Jaw trailing a line to his Adam apple .. he gently that Hanbin start making more noise and when he felt it's a Lil bit more he managed to let: “Bobby no more.. not there” trying to catch his breathe
But he was a bit late .. he's already been marked several places the other chuckles deeply on his skin: “I thought you want people to know I'm yours”
The way that bobby use that voice on him
Is tragedy
Hanbin is a mess in his arms and he tries to compose his posture of what happening and what and how he should be
All in control
That thought washed away with bobby gripping on his hips and the other soon felt being held in the others strong arms
And pinned on the door
Like literally
Great
What in control are you
His hands start gripping on bobby's hair harshly now while the other still teasing his already red burnt skin on his neck
He whispers with close eyes: “Kiss me, Kim Jiwon”
The older look up to him with that burning gaze and Hanbin smirks: “like now !!!”
He add pouting
He reach up to his lips while the younger giggles
Bobby kept pecking him fast and rough the other start complaining
And Bobby is laughing against his lips: “You says to kiss you”
The younger now pout cutely before holding bobby's jaw
His fingers linger there .. scratching lightly and bobby bite Hanbin's lower lip slowly before sliding his tongue
It took the younger by surprise
But he reacted soon to it
Letting bobby's tongue to taste whatever he wants !
on his tongue and guiding it in they fought for dominance .. dancing nibbling and tasting .. exploring each inch
It wasn't their first kiss
But each time he tastes bobby
Each time feels like something new
Something unreal
Out of this universe
Something he can't live without
and Hanbin's tries to remember this moment forever
He want to write it in his song
To describe it in his words
And to sing it in his voice
He want other people to sing about their love
His love to Jiwon
He got obsessed alright
But only that Jiwon allow him to be
Let him be
And want him to be
He felt being carried and he can't help but moan softly between the kisses
Bobby start saying I love you in between
And Hanbin can just die
Because each time they are intimate the words “I love you” never stop coming from bobby's lips
And Hanbin's know
It's sincere when it's not planned
It's sincere and out of the other pure reaction
Pure self
He believes every depth of it
And it clings inside his lungs
How can someone like bobby exist for him !
He felt being dropped gently with a thud on the mattress and he mentally whimper of loss of bobby's skin
But the other crawl on top of him
And Hanbin's is staring half lidded. . His hands cupping the other’s jaw and bobby is grinning when the other smile sheepishly saying: “I have missed you for a second”
The older rapper just fall on him .. burying his face in his neck and Hanbin's is laughing caressing his hair hearing soft deep groans against his skin: “oh god”
And Hanbin's laughing out loud
He start saying:” Bobby. .?”
And the other Hmmm gets in his skin
Hanbin: “jiwon aah. .!”
He pulls up and stare at his eyes
Bobby face was red But Hanbin can imagine his worse anyway
Hanbin's hand cupped bobby's jaw and start leaving wet trail kisses from his ear to his cheekbones to his jawline and his neck down to collarbone
Bobby's eyes were closed and he basically let Hanbin do the way he wants .. only leaning more to give him more easy access and Hanbin chuckles on his skin
The older then rest his forehead again on the other.
And Hanbin's whisper against his nose while his hands pulling the locks away from bobby's face:
“I barely can see your eyes like this” and start laughing “ when are you taking off that hideous jacket anyway”
Bobby gave him a bunny smile while waving his arm in front of the other face saying: “this awesome jacket moves when I move”
Hanbin laugh more :”oh yeah ??”
Bobby nods with a grin: “I rule” the other snort at him.
Hanbin: “well you move ALOT ! and take it off !!”
Bobby pout: “y”
Hanbin start pulling on it and bobby start saying ok ok and pulling off so he's half sitting on top of him He throw the jacket and Hanbin's get on his elbow .. his eyes never leaving bobby's while the other was busy
Hanbin Bite his lower lip and pull on the white T that hugged bobby's body like his life depends on it and whisper shyly: “This too”
The other Raise his eyebrows and Hanbin want to just bury his face on the sheets
He's making his life hard right now
He hissed when the other start pulling it off slowly teasingly making Hanbin's whimpers as more skin reveals .. his hands itchy went to caress Bobby's navel going above as more reveal the other start laughing still choking: “wait the up”
Hanbin is blushing but he keeps smiling .. his hands won't stop trailing caressing the toned abs biting his lower lip as now Bobby look at him down
It's freaking hot
Hanbin only chuckles at Bobby ‘you're unbelievable look’ and he add whining:” don't ing blame me”
Jiwon is giving lots of bunny smiles and he can see the other skin is tinted because of the other hungry gaze
Bobby leans and capture Hanbin's lips whispering: “then don't blame me either”
Hanbin's hand were holding bobby's back the way he feel the muscles reflex on his palm
Scratching lightly
Oh he want to make some damage to his boyfriend perfect body
The kiss deepened and then Hanbin start nibbling on his jaw again
Bobby: “I swear you've did enough in there”
And he heard the other pleasant laughs
Bobby can talk about pleasant sounds
Hanbin's snore at night
Hanbin's laugh hard
Hanbin's moans !! Oh that's a good one but it's private
The idea of someone else hearing those is making him fume
While the younger shower his head and forehead with kisses
Trailing down to his nose
Bobby last pleasant sound
Hanbin's voice !
He wish the other will always sing for him
Even if it's loud and messy.. even if it's horrible at times
Even if Junhoe would shout on him
Even if it's disturbed with whines
Bobby only gape at the other ridiculously pleasant laughs as he go on and on
The younger pull away nibbling on the older lower lip and whispering against his open lips: “what are you thinking of”
Bobby knows that tone .. Hanbin's not ok
Bobby chuckles and peck him adding: “caught me daydreaming of you”
He got a smack on his arm and Hanbin's protest with whines
He kiss it all away
Deep and slow and rough
The kind of kiss that leave the younger out of breath reaching for air as slightly pushing the hot body above him
And then resume after only stopping by a click sound
Bobby pull away but pulled down in seconds he start saying: “wait..wait Hanbiniee”
Jinan coughs loud
And Bobby pull away staring at the intruder
When Jinan face was unreadable but a blush spread out entirely reaching his ears
Hanbin's shout: “what !!!!”
Bobby grins at his needy boyfriend that was still eyeing bobby .. hands still unknowingly touches his chest
Jinan: (turn to face the wall) “well I tried to give you some privacy but how much longer do you need !!!”
Hanbin: (kissing Bobby’s chest) “clearly not enough”
Jinan is hearing sound and his eyes shut
Bobby: “Hanbinie wait .. Jinan hyung what you need”
Hanbin pout at his grinning boyfriend and hissed whatever before throwing his back on mattress again
Jinan: “thank you bobby..” (He turn to face them)” They are fighting over what kind of pizzas to order and frankly they don't give a damn if you order or not.. but I made them wait but till when” he pause when he heard hanbin's sigh “ so beside eating each other are you interested in real food”
Hanbin: “ naah I'm eating him tonight”
Bobby grins :” babe” and lean in for a kiss laughing at Jinan tsk tsk sounds then adding: “margherita for me”
He got a smack from Hanbin and Jinan nods saying it out loud for junhoe
Then hanbin's pout cutely: “ veggie for me” Bobby kiss that pout and says loudly: “veggie for my babe Jinan”
The other roll his eyes as he heard Hanbin's laughs
And he close the door leaving them alone
The couple kiss a bit more
Then shower together and make out some more then get dressed and Hanbin's choose what Jiwon wore while the other pull him in another make out session
They only start leaving the room when Jinan loud shouts registering the food is here
Bobby made food noise take big bites of his pizza
And Hanbin look at him bothered
He want to crawl back to his lap but kept staying still on his seat
Some control Hanbin
Some ing control
He hears another tormenting moan and he just frowns cutely
And Bobby is making bunny faces
Damn it
At night he crawl to Bobby's bed curling behind
Bobby was dead tired he didn't realize the sheet went up but as soon he felt warm hands he turn and his hand wrapped the others that start snuggling to his neck smelling him and sighing
Bobby kiss his forehead
Hanbin's smile
His hand lazily making a circle on the other chest and then he heard bobby sleeping voice: “goodnight babe”
The younger reach up and place a small peck before whispering: “I forbid you from seeing Zico”
Bobby eyes shut open
And the younger snuggle closer yawning a goodnight.
I AM IN CONTROL OF KIM JIWON WORLD! ! *evil Santa laugh*
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