Forever.

Forever seems so long, so endless.

So pointless.

Until I met you.

Forever.

Forever isn’t enough, not when I’m with you.

Forever needs to be extended,

Because you promised me forever.

Forever is effortless when you’re there with me.

I love everything about you.

Your smile, your dimples, your jaw line, your eyes.

The way you look at me.

That serene look on your face when you’re in my arms.

I love how we’re an unwritten story.

The way we fit each other seamlessly.

Your every touch is like a gentle caress of the wind,

It brings me to my knees, wanting more.

I can never get enough.

I can never get enough of you.

I have never understood the phrase

“Those that say Disneyland is the happiest place in the world,

Have obviously not been in your arms.”

More than when I’m in your arms.

I was looking for something extraordinary.

Then I found you.

Have I ever told you how much you mean to me?

I think you would know even if I didn’t.

I knew I would be shunned by society.

Shunned by them because I am in love with you.

Hated by people because I am with you.

What do they know?

Nothing.

They know nothing.

Nothing of how much you meant to me.

Or how much I love you.

That’s right.

I love you.

What more can I want when you’re already mine?

What more can I possibly want other than to keep you with me?

But life is not as easy as it seems.

If it gives me something as good as you,

I am not surprised that it took you away from me.

But that doesn’t stop me from hurting.

I remember you.

I remember how you know me so well.

I remember your smile as you turned back to look at me.

Why?

Why did you turn back to look at me?

Why?

Why did you have to turn back and give me that amazing smile?

Why?

Why did you not see the car that was coming at you,

Threatening to take you away from me?

Why?

Why was I not fast enough to save you?

Why?

Why can’t I have forever with you?

I hate the colors black and white.

Because they were the only colors at your funeral.

I wanted it to be all pink and blue.

Pink for you, blue for me.

Your favorite color combination.

The combination of the both of us.

But of course, I had to respect your parents’ wishes.

I love who I am when I am with you.

Without you, I am nothing.

Nothing but a mourning wreck.

So I’ve decided.

Forever and always.

Like we promised.

I always had a phobia of knives and blades.

Burt right now, I love the knife I have in my hand.

I love it because it will bring me to you.

Kibum, wait for me.

Forever will be ours again.

Eternity and beyond will be spent together.

I like the sound of that.

And so my blood splashes to the ground.

They form a stream and spell your name.

The name I love so much.

The name of the person I love so much.

I feel the pain in my wrist.

But I will endure it happily.

Because after this, I’ll be with you again.

Kibum, I’m coming.

Kibum, wait for me.

Kibum, I love you.