Just A Substitute? [1/1]

Description

Kibum is back…

…what am I to you now?

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Author

KTmin13

Genre

Drama | Romance

Character

Eunhyuk, Donghae, Sungmin

Pairing

Eunhae / Haehyuk

Author’s Note

Hi!^^ Another fiction to share to you!

This is another old fic I made not too long ago.

It’s my first Haehyuk/Eunhae one shot.

I don’t usually write this way so I hope it’ll still come out good.

Thank you in advance for reading!

Comments are <3

Foreword

JUST A SUBSTITUTE?

KTmin13

“Kibum is back!” You announced from the other line.

“R-really? That’s…great,” I answered, trying with all my might to sound just like you - happy and excited. Kibum is my friend, too, and I should be happy from the news you’ve just announced. But how could I?

“I’m going to see him now. I’ll call you again, Hyuk!” You said almost instantly and hung up without giving me any chance to reply, or to at least tell you to take care.

I sighed but it wasn’t enough to make me feel at ease. Ignoring the pain in my heart, I walked out from the café after staying for two hours waiting to see even just your shadow immerse from the door. There wasn’t. But you called and it relieved me that something bad never happened to you, even though the reason behind your call was what shattered my heart at the very moment. I was very worried, but I guess I don’t have to be anymore, do I? You were happy, maybe too happy that you forgot you asked me to meet you…because you said, you miss me. I don’t think so anymore.

Dark sky enveloped the whole city, I found myself walking along the dark, cold street. I liked the presence it gave me for it reflected exactly how I felt. Few steps more, I stopped and looked up seeing a door in front of me. I knocked.

“Hyukkie?” called Sungmin, my best friend, peeking through the slightly ajar door. He gasped upon seeing the sadness I wasn’t able to hide. He quickly enveloped me in his arms, somehow, making me feel warm inside and it comforts me. I couldn’t help but let the tears so eager to come out to fall.

“D-Donghae…he…K-Kibum…together…” I wanted to tell Sungmin all so bad, but the pain held my voice in that all I could do was cry and cry more.

“Oh, Hyukkie, I’m so sorry.” Sungmin said in soothing voice. I shook my head and embraced him more to keep myself from falling.

I woke up in the middle of the night with Sungmin peacefully sleeping beside me. He refused to leave me alone. I was too tired to protest. I hoped it was you who was here beside me, hugging me, and making me feel that I was loved by you. My heart constricted at the thought of you doing all I wish for to Kibum. But how can I complain? You’re not mine to keep to myself. I just became your special friend when Kibum left. I was just a substitute to your true special friend that is him.

He’s back …what am I to you now?

For the following day, I stayed on my bed because I didn’t want to disturb Sungmin more, though I know it won’t help me forget you even just for a minute. I didn’t want to think of you, anymore. I love you so much that it hurts seeing you in my mind, seeing your smile that was never for me.

I wrapped my arms around my knees, letting another batch of tears to fall.

I really love you, Donghae.

Then, to my surprise, my door burst open and I looked up, seeing you standing there, panting and worry all over your face. I just stared at you as you stared back at me with eyes I can’t read. Every second passed with you staring at me, my broken heart beat faster I was worried it will be broken more into many tiny pieces. But what happened next was taken me by surprise as you rushed towards me and suddenly pulled me in your arms. I wasn’t able to comprehend everything yet when I felt you…you were...kissing me.

And that was it. The world around me disappeared, leaving only you and me.

You were kissing me hard like I will be gone any moment. I was confused but I didn’t want to stop you because that was exactly how I felt. Your hands roamed around my body making me feel warm in and out while I held you tight. Your hand slipped inside my shirt and I gasped, unintentionally unlinking my lips from yours but you quickly captured it again while your other hand worked on the belt of my jeans. My head spun and my mind became blurred.

What are you doing? After breaking my heart, you’ll come to me and do things we do only when you’re lonely? Am I being his substitute again? Am I being stupid again for letting you have your way like this?

“I’m sorry.” I heard you whispered and for a moment, I wondered if it was really you or it was just part of my hopeful imagination. You moved your lips to my cheek, then to my ear and whispered once more, “I’m sorry, Hyukkie. I’m sorry I make you feel this way. I won’t hurt you again. Kibum is a very special friend. And you…you are my entire life.”

Another batch of tears fell from my eyes but this time it was for a different reason, a much better reason. You saw my tears and kissed them away. You chuckled slightly and told me I was such a cry baby. I rubbed my eyes, trying so hard to stop the tears from coming out. While doing so, I kept thinking how stupid I was for assuming things, for not trusting you enough, for being the weak that I was. But you proved me wrong. And I am happy.

I opened my eyes and met yours. You were showing those smiles I love so much.

And they’re mine…finally.

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