There he was again… sitting on a bench staring off in to the distance. I knew he was thinking about something. Sometimes it was profound and sometimes it wasn’t, but amidst trying to figure out what he was thinking I fell for him.

“Yah…Myungsoo what are you thinking?” I asked, walking up towards him. I took a seat next to him. He smiled lightly and shook his head.

“That boy over there is never going to get his girlfriend’s forgiveness. He’s too dense and too weak,” He commented. Ouch. Yeah this was Myungsoo cold and blunt. Despite all of that we became friends and now his coldness didn’t bother me as much as it used to. After I fell for him, I found it charming that he spoke his mind and thought profoundly about things.

I always wondered… what does he think about me?

I looked over at the direction that he was gazing and rolled my eyes. I saw this couple fighting right in the middle of the road “Yah Myungsoo it’s rude to listen in to other people’s arguments. Plus what do you care if she takes him back? It doesn’t pertain to you,” I scolded him. He merely shrugged at me.

“Ahh what makes grown men cry but humanity would go extinct with out it… love is sure blind.” He stated. I rolled my eyes.

“A love riddle? Sometimes I think you like to see people suffer for your enjoyment….sadist,” I muttered. He bursted out in laughter.

“Ahh Rae… you make me laugh. I’m not that messed up. I love too,” He commented. I couldn’t help but feel curious.

“You love… you love who?” I wondered. He shook his head and pressed his finger against his lip.

“비밀(secret),” He told me. I sighed and continued to stare off at the distance with him.

“Let’s go buy some food,” I told him. I stood up and silently he shrugged and followed me. We arrived at a convenience store and I went searching for some goodies. “Should I get some candy or some chips?” I questioned out loud. Myungsoo didn’t answer me though. He was eyeing a girl at the store. “Alright spill what are you thinking?” I wondered.

“She would be prettier if she wasn’t wearing such ty clothes,” He pointed out. I rolled my eyes and laughed and decided to choose what I wanted silently. When I went to pay Myungsoo grabbed the stuff out of my hands and paid for it.

“Yah I could have paid for myself,” I told him. He didn’t say anything until he handed me the bag full of treats.

“I’m you’re friend. Let me do this for you,” He insisted. I shrugged and opened a bar of chocolate while we walked around the city. I loved chocolate, but I couldn’t finish it all. Chocolate was too rich for me.

“Is it good?” He wondered. I broke a piece and put it in front of his mouth.

“Try it yourself,” I told him. Instead of taking the candy out of my hands, like I expected him to, he bit it out of my hands. I felt his lips lightly brush against my fingers. I couldn’t help but feel my cheeks burn.

“Yummy,” He commented. I smiled slightly and we came to at a bench near where I lived. After a short period of silence I decided to ask him something that was on my mind.

“Myungsoo,” I started. He answered me with a soft ‘hmm’ “What do you think about me?” I wondered. He chuckled lightly.

“What do I think about you? You’re my friend isn’t that enough?” He questioned. I frowned. That wasn’t exactly what I wanted to hear from him.

“Don’t answer my question with a question. Give me an answer. What do you think of me?” I asked again. He still didn’t answer me though.

“Can’t my actions speak for me?” He questioned. I sighed a little out of frustration and a little of giving up. Interpreting his actions were too vague for me.

“Just forget it. If you answer me it will probably be a riddle anyways,” I muttered. I stood up from my seat and handed him the bag with some goodies still inside of them. “Take them you paid for them anyways,” I told him. He shook his head and pushed my bag away.

“I bought them for you,” He insisted. I smirked and put the bag next to him.

“See you around Myungsoo,” I quickly waved and ran home. When I got home I couldn’t understand why Myungsoo couldn’t tell me what he really thought of me.

Could he really think that badly of me?

That night I kept tossing and turning.

The next day I woke up tired. I got ready quickly and went to school. I immediately ran in to one of my friends, Sandeul.

“Yo Rae… you’re looking tired,” He mumbled. I smiled and hugged him.

“Yeah… I had too many thoughts on my mind last night,” I told him. He came really close to my face and we were both staring at each other. It turned in to a staring competition.

“Want an orange?” He questioned making me laugh. This was our relationship. It was much different from mine and Myungsoo’s. We were much more open with each other and we would constantly tease and play around with one another. I didn’t want my relationship with Myungsoo to be this way, but it wouldn’t hurt for him to be a little bit more like Sandeul.

“Thanks,” I told him, taking it out of his hands. I started peeling it and slowly eating it.

“So what kept you up all night?” He wondered. I shrugged lightly still chewing.

“What do you think Myungsoo thinks of me?” I asked him, as we sat down at table together.

“…who knows, this guy is like a block of ice. No one can really figure it out. It can’t be too bad if he considers you his friend,” He assured me. I shrugged and gave him the scraps of my orange.

“Thanks for being a good friend,” I thanked him, smiling at him. He stuck his tongue out at me but threw my stuff away anyways. I went through the day avoiding Myungsoo. At lunch I lied and told him that Sandeul invited me to go eat with him. Afterschool, I told him that Gongchan, another friend, needed help with some homework and I was going to help him.

Why was I avoiding him? I just was trying to figure him out. I wanted to see if I could figure out what he was trying to tell me, but I couldn’t. His actions? Sure he had been nice, but he wasn’t overly nice or overly protective of me. I just didn’t understand.

When I finally got home I was alone. Both of my parents were out working, so I made myself comfortable in the living room. Not too long after I had gotten comfortable I heard the door bell ring.

When I opened the door I was surprised to see Myungsoo standing there.

“Uh… Hi,” I started.

“You’ve been avoiding me.” He stated bluntly. My eyes widened slightly.

“Avoiding you? No I’ve been busy,” I lied. He pointed to the inside of my house.

“Can I come in?” He asked. I nodded. He came in and sat down eyeing the walls and decorations. I situated myself back to where I was before and the Tv.

“So did you get bored or something?” I wondered. He shook his head. From out of his jacket he pulled out the bag I left with him yesterday.

“I came to bring you these,” He told me, placing the bag on a nearby table. I sighed and slide them back to him.

“I told you to keep them,” I insisted. He shook his head and didn’t touch the bag.

“I also came to answer your question.” He informed me. This got my attention.

“You’re actually going to tell me what you think of me with out going in circles?” I questioned. He smiled thinly at me and nodded.

“I wouldn’t have come if I didn’t intend to,” He commented. I shrugged and took a seat in the loveseat diagonal to him.

“So what do you think of me?” I wondered. He looked at me intently and I felt like he was looking straight in to my soul. My heart pounded rapidly against my chest.

“You are someone who I have to keep happy…so I can feel happy,” He told me. I didn’t understand what he meant.

“So what… you think of me as your obligation? I didn’t think you thought so lowly of me,” I muttered. Then he stood up abruptly.

“No that’s not what I mean.” He told me. I didn’t really know what to say.

“So… what do you mean?” I wondered. Then he walked up to me and gazed I to my eyes intently.

“Love is a condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own. Your happiness is essential to mine. Do you understand now?” He wondered. I smiled to disguise all the beats that my heart was skipping. With out thinking too much about it I kissed his lips gingerly.

“Why couldn’t you just tell me you loved me like everyone else?” I wondered. He smiled brightly at me and shrugged.

“I can’t help it. You know I always talk in circles,” He confessed lightheartedly. I pulled him down and hugged him.

Yeah… you always do talk in circles.  

"Oh by the way.... keep the candy," he told me handing me the bag. I rolled my eyes and took the bag out of his hands.

So i have returned!... i had finals so yeah i had to dedicate myself to school for a little while. Now that im out for school i'm readddyy! thanks for reading this!