Mirrors Deception
Description
I close my eyes trying to endure the strong pain overwhelming as soon as I let the sharp thing runs across my pale wrist . I see crimson coloured liquids streaming down straight to the white tiles. they look beautiful . overflowing tears mix with the fresh blood that endlessly dripping out. It's a hurtful collaboration that none has ever realised. Perfect .
rings
"N-Natalie ? I can't do this anymore. I-i"
"I'll come. Don't do anything stupid, you crazy!"
While I am actually the stupid one who is stuck in a mess with blood all over the floor despite I feel relieve as I'm satisfied with my action. I glance at my wrist that is decorated with a deep gash and is still bleeding the dip pain out of me. this world is just too cruel for me.
My gaze drop to a mirror which is a few metres away. I stare at the reflection . I see a girl . she looks as pathetic as me and She's drowning with bloods . also , she has scars all over her arms yet no one realises since she is an expertise at pretending to be fine. Yes. She should receive an award.
I search through the closet and change into a black sweatshirt. It's perfect enough to cover everything.
There I am . looking completely fine in front of a tall standing mirror. The oversized sweatshirt hide every scars underneath. Everything looks fine except for the expression shown on my face. The best way to fix it is by wearing a make up . not the mainstream one that include mascara , eye liner or whatsoever . it's a smile.
mirrors lie.
They don't show you what's inside.
Yes. They don't.
Foreword
Natalie Liew , a name that I have been carried along since I was born to this dramatic world. When I was just a stupid 3 year old , I thought that life must have been easier that I couldn't wait to grow up fast. But dreams betrayed me. I'm now facing a disaster.
I realise how people are reckless and ruthless, including myself. I was not born with a high IQ that I could merely think of all the consequences that I may face for every action I make. Instead, I do what my heart tells me to.
let your heart guide you. It whispers so listen carefully.
I listen to it every time .
it's a triumphant lie.
Maybe things would be better if I hadn't done it in the first place. That time when I was only 13, where people say the real challenges begin, it's true. I suffer a lot ever since .
Is that something that I should regret?
Somehow , I manage to carry another role inside me.
How dramatic.
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Natalie Liew is a bright girl. She always helps everyone in need. She's a kind and soft-hearted. Cries easily over small matters yet manage to stand up tall after falling deep down. She's strong. A smart girl. One of the best student in school and she usually never even cares about anything nonsense.
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I can't stand it anymore. When am I going to die? Why people keep pushing me to do this and that. I have my own life and I deserve the responsibility to decorate my life with colourful moments though sometimes there's always black in the middle. I hate comparison . I hate crying over everything . I'm suffering yet no one has realised. I must change and I don't want to care even a slight dusk of a matter. That's how I'd be happy.
I'll be the cold-hearted Natalie Liew.
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What you see outside ,
Is a mask to cover the inside.
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