Jongin 

Here we go again

I love Jonghyun-hyung but sometimes he's too close to Taemin

I know how close they are and how much Jonghyun hyung treasures Taemin like a little brother but...

Aaaah it just annoys me sometimes.

And TAEMIN! Ha! He's too spoiled by our hyungs

They think he's too careless and airheaded, so they cant leave him alone

But believe it or not, sometimes he does it on purpose.

Just sometimes

I know because I know him better than anyone.

We've been lovers for 4 years and have been best friends for 10 already.

I know all his flaws and all his perfection.

And I love it all.

But it worries me that I might not be the only one who loves all of him.

And it worries me that Taemin might fall for someone else.

Yes Im the one who confessed and got rejected.

I was the one who tried to win back our friendship after I just got my heart broken.

I was the one who still couldnt get over my feelings after being rejected 3 times 

But finally one awesome Sunday evening as we were laid down on our dorm's lawn...

He kissed me, and it's been 4 years since then.

Still, I'm the one who loves him more.

And sometimes I worry, that maybe, just maybe, he only felt obligated to date me because I was his persistent bestfriend.

His closeness to others doesn't help as well.

Aaah look at him laughing so adorably at whatever Jonghyun-hyung said. 

Ha! I can make him laugh too.

"Jonginah!" 

Oh he's calling me. 

Haaa I cant believe I was just so pissed awhile ago but now that he's looking at me with that big bright smile, that I love so much, I can't help but feel happy.

Before I could reply he was already on his way towards me.

"Jonginah! Guess what! Jonghyun hyung is going to write me a song!" He reported so excitedly.

"That's great Taeminnie!" I replied, but I can't hide the bitterness in my face and voice.

Taemin's smile faltered immediately.

Damn Im an