My Apologies.
Yours TrulyWendy x Irene
"Seungwan,
Wendy",
just call me whenever.
Baby,
look up,
stop crying,
you'll be alright.
Don't recoil,
don't hide,
for my touches and words
are to ease the pain.
Don't worry,
I'm harmless.
Don't worry,
everything will be okay.
(Or so they said.)
Don't worry,
let me sing you a song.
My love for you,
is unknown.
You're a lost beauty,
that has gone through
too much.
Too much.
I'm proud,
as I comfort you to sleep.
(You're already unconscious.)
For you endured the pain,
tolerated this cruel game,
that life played on you.
You fought the monsters,
the ones you feared.
I was silent for a long time,
I could've helped sooner,
but it was
to see how far you'd go.
Though guilt is what fills me now.
There's a lump in my throat,
I can't get rid of it.
I'm at the verge of tears.
Shh,
you'll be alright.
I'll remain strong,
for you.
You deserve to smile again,
I'll give you strength with all my might.
You deserve the break, the rest,
you tears are the only thing
that can show what words couldn't tell;
pain.
(It was also another sign that you're still alive,
still listening
to my sweet nothings.
to my hopeless words.)
Now let me explain,
I will be there for you from now on,
till the every end,
(Till your last breath)
Till we meet again.
For now,
accept my apologies.
No, don't.
Resent me,
I'm horrible,
but I'm begging you,
I'm begging you,
don't forget me,
don't lose hope,
Believe them,
like you believed in Neverland.
I'll be your Peter Pan.
Ecstasy you'll soon meet again,
Melancholy,
say goodbye my friend.
Allow me to redeem myself,
let me take care of you.
I have to fix my mistake,
it is unbearable to see you in such state.
My attempts will not be in vain.
Yes, please.
I'm giving you my all,
just to see you smile,
the slightest tug,
and the slightest movement.
I hope you realize,
I will always be there for you,
I have always been.
Darling,
Peter Pan can never let you go.
For you have not been to Neverland.
The place you imagined,
where peace was common.
The place you associated me with,
as they called me Wendy,
but you can take my place,
for I will be your Peter Pan.
Your only one.
I'll remain loyal.
Worry no more about the town.
Thw town that
hates you,
loathes you,
abhors you,
for they have failed to see
the true beauty,
call them blind,
while I'm blind in love.
I'll make sure,
that you'll feel loved.
That
you'll forget about the knifes
they threw at you;
their nasty words.
You deserve my affection
(Please open your eyes.)
There will be no rejection.
Now tell me.
Tell me, Bae.
What are the things
that make you feel at ease?
Your touch,
my comfort,
and my lullaby?
Heart me out,
hear me cry.
Let me bring you high above,
let me introduce to you
my friends that you'll surely love.
Seulgi, Joy amd Yeri.
Does those names ring a bell?
They've been around for awhile too,
trying to help you.
(Help me.)
I am a lost boy
from Neverland;
getting lost in those beautiful,
stunning,
eyes of yours.
(If only they would flutter open again.)
Good,
now that you're smiling,
(I wish you're smiling.)
now that my arms are wrapped around you,
I'll protect you well.
Happiness,
that's what I'll give.
(When you're conscious again.)
Money,
don't worry about a thing.
I'll support you.
Now take this seriously,
though my Peter Pan stories are fantasies,
I'll turn them into reality.
Lets go fly above,
I'll make you feel
like you're on top of the world.
Lets do what lovers do
or don't.
Your feelings,
are what matters the most.
Our friends have been trying to mend you.
Now let me express,
I'm unlike the rest,
I love you.
I love you, more than Neverland.
Now lets take it slowy,
hand in hand.
You'll get up surely,
I'll be the pillar.
(That's bound to collapse.)
Caressing your cheeks,
resting with me,
I feel the warmth you still radiate
as you lay under the covers.
I wish to see the slightest smile,
the crescent-shaped eyes,
even in the darkness,
for you will be the light,
in this hopeless nightmare dream.
Now let me sprinkle you with pixie dust,
it's soon to be dusk.
We'll be running.
(If only we can. We will.)
Running away together,
from this
one hell of a nightmare.
Wake up,
Bae.
It's time to wake up.
I've been waiting for you for months,
as you stay motionless
on the hospital bed,
it's engraved in my head;
that you won't be dead.
You'll survive.
I'm groaning in,
remorse.
I can't breathe in the air,
I'm choking in despair.
I visit you every day.
I've been held down by a rope,
held down by a string,
looking for things to cope.
I'm losing faith.
No, please,
come back.
I don't want to lose you.
I hear,
see,
your shallow breath,
as you fight against death.
Wake up,
my dearest.
Your hearbeat represented on the monitor,
is my only reassurance.
Seulgi, Joy and Yeri,
they're encouraging me,
just like how they did so with you.
They're filled with positivity,
though I see it fading in their eyes,
I'm thinking otherwise.
Baby please, open your eyes.
I see the tears rolling down your cheek,
as you hear me.
I've been patient,
I'll be waitinng till the day
they say,
"You've made it."
If you end up forgetting me
after all these months.
Lets start again,
back to square one.
I'll introduce myself as Peter Pan,
you'll be my darling,
and I'll be your man.
Lets fall in love with each other
all over again.
I'll keep you close,
closer than I did before.
I'll bring you home,
keep you safe,
hold you tight,
tighter than I did before.
I'd never let you go
like I promised.
I'll defend you.
till my very last breath.
Yes, I regret what I've done,
for I should have held you tighter,
hugged you as if it would be the last time I see you
every time.
If you lose the battle.
If-
Which I refuse to believe.
Reality is unpredictable,
so,
if,
you end up departing...
I can't lie that I'll lose my way,
for the map I have
only leads to you.
I want,
but I won't take my life away.
For I know that you'll be by my side.
I know that you'll want the best,
even when you're not here.
I'm thinking too much.
Stop.
Stop.
St-stop..
I can't handle this much longer,
but I'll bear this ordeal for you.
I'm begging you,
please return as soon as possible.
I'm breaking down helplessly,
all I want is for us to reunite again.
Then I'll stay by your side,
then we'll decide,
am I worthy of mending you?
I'm waiting,
wake up.
Nothing changed,
reality is still the same.
Let us start again,
my heart desires to protect you
with all that I have.
You're frail now,
but nothing will change,
I'll still remain as the pillar.
You've always had.
Loathe me,
I'll love you.
The day I see the slightest flinch.
Oh, I'll be overwhelmed.
I'll wait for you.
I'll wait for you.
For my heart hasn't stopped
beating too.
I await for your reply,
your reaction.
Yours Faithfully,
Seungwan,
Your one and only,
Peter Pan.
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