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‘ The anxious days when I couldn’t tell you I love you

Did you know about that? ‘

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I wonder why the sky is so much bluer…

“I really miss you.”

 After she’s finally gotten the courage, she looked up at him again. His hand that patted her head was now her long hair that she chooses to not tie today.

”You’ve really changed.”

I wonder why the wind is so perfect only today…

She doesn’t know what to say so she just stood there staring at him.

Honestly he too has changed…a lot.

“I’m seeing you everywhere but I never thought I’ll meet you again…like this”

But still there is one thing that’s not going to change about him.

“You become much more prettier Jieun”

She can clearly see the difference now.

Looking around the almost full event hall where she thought would be just kids; she sang the song that made her famous. It made her happy that even adults were there to see her perform. But whenever she looked at the very back, at the guy who stood just right beside the door she can feel a different happiness.

“IU!...IU!...IU!”

Not just because of the loud cheers that she felt more eager to perform. Her heart beats loudly not just because of the booming sound system.

But it’s whenever their eyes meet.

Across that small room she wondered how his stare can still affect her this much. In this place where she’s doing a mini concert she felt really blessed knowing just knowing that he was watching her perform. The guy who made her realized her dream was watching her now. She felt happy and nervous at the same time. Even now he’s the only guy who can make her feel this way. Even though she knows he doesn’t feel the same.

“What do you like in a girl oppa?”

It was the question she wanted to ask him for a long time. She hid behind a wall as she knows hearing what he will answer was enough.

“Will you really leave me alone if I tell you?”

That coldness in his voice makes her heart shiver. She tightened her grip on her hello kitty wallet as she heard him let out a sigh. Finally she will know. Whoever that girl is who asked him, she is really thankful to her.

“One with long hair…”

Her hand automatically touches her hair that she just cutted a few days ago. She regretted it right at that instant.

“Girls who wear makeup?”

She remembered her mother forcing her to use the makeups she had at home. She ignored her and said she doesn’t want to be like her so she didn’t. But at that moment…for once…she regretted not listening to her.

“Older women…”

But what he said last is the final straw for her. She heard him even chuckle.

”I think they’re hot”

“B-but I’m younger than you oppa”

The girl who he was talking to hin whined and she felt like doing it too. He always treats her like a younger sister. She sighed putting back the hello kitty wallet inside her pocket and finally decided to come out. She knows he was waiting for her for too long.

She stepped out from where she was hiding but she stepped back as soon as their eyes met. “Now you know I won’t like you”And then he smiled”What took you so long Jieun?”

It was like a stab on her heart. That day when he rejected that girl she felt like it was her who he rejected. Maybe that’s the reason why she never really had the courage to confess.

While looking at me with those sad eyes…please don’t say that word.

If he knew how she really feels, will he still be able to smile like that? But still she doesn’t want his pity either.

Am I too childish? I really can’t understand it at a