drowning.
don't try to save me ~
I can't say goodbye to you Khun. I can't let you go, but i have to now. You're not mine anymore.
I watched you today, cheating on me with my bestfriend Junsu, in his house, on his bed. I should have realised it before,
but i'm too stupid, too blinded by my love for you. But now i know, what i have to do. Cause i can't live without you, and
living with you it's too painful right now as well.
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I just came back home, and i found a piece of paper over my bed. It was yellow. Wooyoungie.
"At the lake, same place."
A big hole was growing in my stomach as i read his funny handwriting. Even the piece of paper smelt like wooyoungie.
He left the house, searching for his lover, the real one.
Nichkhun arrived at the lake, near their house, almost running. It was a nice winter day, very cold, but the sun
was shining brightly overs his head. His eyes leaned right away on the wooden bridge, over the lake. Their place.
He suddenly saw Wooyoung, sitting facing the lake with his grey coat and his perfect red hair.
He smiled and begin to run towards his lover. He hugged him tightly from behind, noticing the younger's trembling.
"Are you cold baby?" He asked, placing a sweet kiss on his puffy cheeks and sitting beside him.
Wooyoung looked at him, without saying anything. Khun felt that was something strange. Everytime Wooyoung looked at him,
he felt like his eyes could scan him, could scan his soul.But now he can see anything in his eyes, they were just two
hazel holes.
"Do you remember, what happened here?" wooyoung suddenly said.
"Of course. Here is where we first kiss, where we first confessed to each other." said Khun, smiling. He could perfectly
remember that day. They just became roommates, after moving from their hometown to study at the same college, cause they
were best friends. That particular night, they fought badly. Of course it was Khun's fault. Woo was complaining about
all the girls he brought home. He didn't understand that Khun took girls home just to make him jealous, at the time.
So, Woo ran away. The weather was terrible and it was raining hard so Khun ran after him, and they ended up there,
on the bridge, screaming out loud.
"Why are you doing like this? What have i done?" asked Khun, hoping for a reaction.
"You never understand anything." Wooyoung replied, coldly.
Khun smiled. Maybe, that was his lucky night.
"I don't think it's the right moment to laugh, Khun."
Khun went closer to him, looking at him right in his eyes, smiling. Then, he took Wooyoung's wet hand.
"I'm smiling because you're so cute, all wet, you look like a little chick. And." he continued, knowing that the younger
boy was about to interrupt him "..You are the one that doesn't understand anything"
And then he kissed him, and all began.
"I think it's my best memory with you" said Khun, with his bright eyes, taking his hands.
Without a word, Wooyoung went near him, and leaned his lips over khun's, gently. Khun replied to his kiss, putting his arms
around Woo's waist, pulling him closer. Their tongues met in a slow, heated dance. All Khun could think about was Woo.
He was eveywhere, in his mind and heart. What the hell he was thinking, cheating on him with that little , Junsu, who seduced him.
He would never do that again. He couldn't lose his Youngie.
As the kiss began, it ended. Woo stepped back, looking him in the eyes.
"Do you mind buying an ice cream for me? I'll wait here"
"Sure baby" said Khun, smiling. He got up, and began to walk towards the ice cream stand, 200m far from the end of the bridge.
It was time. Wooyoung leaned his eyes on Nichkhun's back, his messy hair, his funny legs, and he smiled.
It's time Wooyoung. He said to himself.
Nichkhun turned again, beginning to walk towards him, with two big ice creams in his hands.
He printed his face in his mind, but i didn't need too. He could tell every single point on Khun's face, without even looking.
It's time.
He slowly walked backwards, as Nichkhun was coming near him.
He smiled to him. He didn't want to cry, but tears began to stream down his face.
Goodbye Nichkhun. I loved you so much, and it's killing me.
His last step was lost in the air as he was falling in the lake. He couldn't swim.
The last thing he saw was Khun, with shock in his face, running as fast as he could towards him.
He smiled.
I say goodbye to you, drowning.
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