a nightmare again yumi murmured herself.everytime she closed her eyes that images is haunting her

she slowly get up from bed and look around .she is stii wearing xiumin shirt . it is really big and for her it look like dress . but she have to admit that it smell really nice . it is like forest , pine trees and honey .she remember the time xiumin was pinning her down to bed  and her strugglings under him. her shock , guys talk, xiumin angry glares to others and saying he is not a ert. she chuckled .it still sound  funny to her. she also remember how he give her shirt and cover her even he scared her first

she get out of bed and slowly walked to the living room.

"hey yumi " lay said. 10 guy are  sitting on the couch and watching tv

"hey are yo still alive " chen joked but it just make her startled and feel nervous

"yahh you troll .. " chanyeol hit chen' s head.

"ı am thirsty and hungry  .can you give me something to eat ? " she  asked

"we just about to eat dinner . come on " kai push her to the kitchen where there is a prepared

table.

"sit down yumi  .. hey guys dinner is ready come  "he yell .

"ı can eat alone "yumi turn to kai she dont really want to eat with the guys beacuse it is  ... you know ... it is akward.

kai push her to chair and put a plate in front of her ." just enjoy the meal" he try to be more polite then his normal self.he also feel guilty

guys start to come and sit around the table .

"ohh yumi " suho notice her "come on eat .if you wont be quick there will be no food because this guys eat like an army"

"here " sehun put a meat to her plate ."eat "she turn him and she is confused

first he think they should get rid of her but now after mam suho s lon talk he understand that it isnot the right thing to do.

"thanks sehun" she turn to him and  smile . it is the first time she smile after the fight.but only sehun see it . becuse others focuse on their plate and also she turn her back to others

he freeze for a moment  and then  sit his spot.he think yumi's smile is beautiful .he feel happy to see it.

during the dinner boys talk about staffs , make jokes and eat like a starveling person

she eat and listen them . 

'they are like a bunch of kids ' she feel more relax then before with them . 'they look like a family that have a 10 brother . they look like they can do anything for each other. good friends hah ? ' she look at them with envy. 

"friend" she murmur 

it is a thing that she really cherished

it is a thing that she trusted with all heart

but the thing that ruined the good memories and meanings is the  "ed " part