My heart trembles with each passing breath, and as the years go by the yearning to tell you, "I love you" grows more and more. Dedication to yangseoul. Happy Birthday!

  I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life. I promise all this, until death do we part.

You couldn't take it anymore . . . you didn't deserve this, you shouldn't slaughter yourself over one guy. After all, you were a fan and he was an idol  . . .  there was no way he was going to notice you.