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SHINee Girl Series:
About my Writing Style
I always make out like, a list of things that happen/how the fic will go so usually I don't get writers block thanks to that. Although recently I've been doing 'chains' instead. I like connecting things together, putting in small little things. I'm a grammar nazi according to my dongsaeng lol ( just ignore that fic TSGLPFLWS and it's continuation.) Sometimes I base things off my life a bit, adding in small events that happened and etc. I don't know what else to say atm. If MinYul and OnSica aren't the main couple in my fics, then they're usually still in there as more of 'side-pairings'. I always slip in some of my OTPS. I like putting my opinion on things in my fics too. I express how I feel about it through my characters - mostly through my baby Kyungsoon- I usually write drama/romance/comedy/angst. I've been thinking about trying to write smut but as of now I don't think I will since I can't really write it.
Hae there ^^ Elizabeth better known as pandaKyung here~ Where do I even start with these kind of 'about me' things? Well, I'm a 98-liner, born on the last day of the first month of the year( TRLOLOLOL anyways.). My Korean name given to me by a Korean name generator is Kyungsoon (familiar to anyone? ;D) . I surprisingly have a lot of nicknames, but that's because there's a lot that can come off my name. My nicknames consist of : Lizzy/Lizzie, Liz, Beth, Ahjumma/Ahjusshi, midget, girl obsessed with Korean men, Octopus ( It's old, given by an elementary friend haha), and that's all I can think of right now lol. I was born in New York but moved to the Mitten when I was 3, and still live in the Mitten. I've been in the kpop fandom since 2006, with Super Junior being my first group and the group that kept me in this fandom for so long. I'm 5"1, short I know, I blame my mom's genes.. I'm half Vietnamese and half Chinese. Occasionally I will sometimes 'joke' by saying I wish I was Korean but I've stopped saying that (kinda) because I'm proud of my heritage. I can speak fluent English ( but I have my Engrish moments) and Vietnamese. Chinese is my first language but my parents because picky Asian parents, made me learn Vietnamese and being so young all my Chinese knowledge was replaced with Vietnamese. Although I do know some Cantonese still.
The short story of the username. Why 'pandaKyung'? Because I like pandas is one and the word 'panda' has always been incorporated with my usernames for everything. Two, my Korean name is Kyungsoon so I chopped off the soon part of my name and placed the Kyung next to panda and BAM! You now have your author pandaKyung.
Back when I liked Kpop, I also was really fond of anime and Jpop so for the first three years of my fangirling, my anime side was dominant. I used to write fanfic except for anime - more specifically Naruto xD . However now my Kpop side is dominant and it's going to stay that way lol.
Also, I take fangirling and kpop seriously. By that I mean, if you're a new fan and have only been hooked for like a month or so and blabber on about how much you love a group and how you're dedicated to them, expect me to be not so pleasant with you.
Fandoms I Fell Into ( MAIN)
ELF, Shawol, Kiss Me, Inspirit, EXOtic, Cassie, V.I.P.
SONE and Plus(?)/Aff(x)tion.
Other Groups/Artists I like : BEAST, 2PM, 2AM, CN.BLUE, FT ISLAND, 2NE1, After School, missA, KARA, Teen Top, Wonder Girls, B1A4, Brown Eyed Girls, 4Minute, T-ara, MBLAQ, Epik High, SS501, BoA, Rain, Taegoon, Wheesung, Baek Ji Young, SISTAR, and etc!
Boy Groups: Girl Groups:
1. Super Junior 1. Girls' Generation/ SNSD
2. SHINee 2. F(x)
3. UKISS 3.2NE1
4. Infinite 4. missA
5. EXO 5. 4Minute
3. YongSeo / Goguma
4. TeukSo / Dimple
Attempt Bias List
Super Junior: Kyuhyun . SHINee: Jonghyun . UKISS: Kiseop. Infinite: Myungsoo. EXO-K: Chanyeol
EXO-M: Kris and Tao. TVXQ: Jaejoong ( Always Keep The Faith. They're still 5 in my heart)
BEAST: Kikwang. 2PM: Wooyoung. 2AM: JoKwon and Jinwoon
C.N.BLUE: Yong~ but Jungshin is trying to knock him down as of now.
FTISLAND: Hongki. Teen Top: L.Joe. B1A4: Jinyoung. MBLAQ: Mir
SNSD: Sunny. F(x): Amber. 4Minute: HyunA. 2NE1: Dara. After School: UEE
missA: Fei. KARA: Nicole.. Brown Eyed Girls: Ga-In
TOP THREE MALE BIASES
1. Kim Jonghyun 2.Cho Kyuhyun 3. Lee Kiseop
TOP THREE FEMALE BIASES
1. Sunny 2. Amber 3. HyunA & Dara (tie)
Ulitmate bias: Bling Bling freaking Kim Jonghyun
Why even though Jonghyun is my ultimate bias- Super Junior is, and always will be, my number one favorite group. Also, what Kpop means to me.
It's weird isn't it? You ask me for my ultimate bias, I'll say Jonghyun from SHINee. You ask me for my favorite group, I'll say Super Junior. I really do love SHINee, really do, I love them a lot. However, Super Junior will always be number one. Before I go on, let me tell you a little story.
There once was a little girl, a very hurt and fragile little girl. You ask," Why is she hurt?" Because she doesn't know what to do anymore. She doesn't know what she's suppose to do when her parents are constantly putting her done everyday. Calling her stupid over little things, worthless, a waste of money. Was she really these things? So she's stupid just because she's the top of her class? Because her grades were no lower than a B+? She's worthless because they didn't teach her how to do things in life like washing the dishes or doing laundry? She's a waste of money because in their belief she's not going to make it through college? It was things like this that made her hurt. That made she so fragile. Her parents were harsh, hypocritical and in her opinion - horrible parents. They didn't know how much she cared about her education. How she would cry herself to sleep over their words, over an A- even. They didn't know that she always put her best effort into everything she did.
What kind of parents, would have their child growing up scared of the world because you told her that monsters exist?That if she went outside, she would be kidnapped, raped and she would never see her family again. That she was a disappointment to her family, that she wasn't as good as the other kids her parents knew. This little girls parents told her these kinds of things on a daily basis. At the age of six, she already had thoughts of killing herself. When she reached 3rd grade, she started cutting herself and when she got to 4th, she tried to kill herself.
That little girl was me.
You wanna know why I'm still living? Because of kpop, because of Super Junior.
For me, kpop isn’t just a music genre, it isn’t just an interest or an obsession. Kpop idols aren’t just idols. For me, kpop saved my life. Kpop idols are my inspiration, lifesavers, role models, and people I hold close to my heart. They saved me from my depression, from hurting myself, from killing myself. Before kpop, I don’t think I was ever truly really happy. I’m not saying there weren’t times that I wasn’t. There were. It’s just that I wasn’t the happiest I could have been before kpop. Then, November 6 2005, kpop entered my life. Super Junior entered my life. Being so young, all I could say about them was,” Oh they look so cool.” But after growing attached to them, watching them grow… I love them so much. Being my first kpop group, they will always hold a special place in my heart. Without them, I wouldn’t have been able to grow attached to other groups and be part of more fandoms. It’s because of them; those amazing 15 boys that I started to get to know kpop and more groups. Without them, I wouldn't have been able to let other groups like SHINee, UKISS and etc walk into my life. If I hadn't discovered Super Junior. I wouldn't have found and fall for Jonghyun. That's why they're always number one. I’ve never felt so loved and wanted in my life before. Knowing that someone needed my support, that someone out in the world genuinely cares for me and loves me, it makes me happy. Kpop makes me happy. When I listen to kpop, watch kdramas, variety shows, performances, all my worries go away. All I focus on are my idols. Kpop really does make me happy. Truly happy. For the first time in my life I knew what being truly happy was.
I continue to exist for people who don’t even know that I directly exist. I can look at them when they win awards feeling like a proud mother for people older than me. I sit in front of my computer screen, crying and laughing by myself because of these idols .I’ve learned to just be myself, I’ve gained some confidence in myself because of them. I’ve gotten habits from them. I’ve got the biggest, strongest and best family/fandom because of them. I cry when they cry, when something happens to them, when they win awards, when they do something funny. I smile when they smile, when I see them, even just a simple thought brings a smile on my face. I’m happy because of kpop. I can’t put to words how happy kpop makes me, and I can’t put in words just how much I love kpop. When I say kpop is my life, I mean it almost literally. Kpop means a lot to me. Kpop has ‘been with me’ through thick and thin and vise versa. Kpop has helped me through so much. They’ve helped me become a better person, a happier person. That’s why, when I’m older and get the chance to meet them, I want to go up to each and every one of them, in perfect Korean saying, “I’ve grown into the person I am now because of you. I’ve been able to live my life happily because of you. I’ve continued to live because of you. Thank you so much. I love you and I always will. I’ll always be here to support you like how you’ve supported me. I’ll always be here to catch you when you fall just like the multiple times you caught me. I hope I get the chance to make you laugh and smile because of me. I hope I can make you happy just like how you make me happy, and I’ll always love you. Just like how you’ve always loved me. “
It’s because I have to do this that I don’t give up. I do my best in school; I try not to get sick,I try to get the best grades .I never question why I live anymore. I live happily, and I never give up no matter how hard things get. I’m not saying I’m always happy, I’m only human. However, kpop and my friends are always there for me to get through those hard times.
So I'm still living, because of Super Junior. That's why they'll always be number one.
They were my first group. They were the first people to tell me, to show me, that if you really set your mind to something.. if you really want something.. if you just believe in yourself, then you can do anything. <3
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